SELF IS GOD'S GREATEST ENEMY
The Lord God is against the devil today because he became selfish, instead of being selfless to carry out God's command without any heal feelings of jealousy, but what did he do? He was envious of man's right in God and since he has not the power to also give command like the command that was given man to function in the capacity of God, he end up rebelling.
What the devil succeeded planting into man is the seed of self; which is the major cause of lawlessness and the highest level of carnality. Grace can never be released in the place of self, because self is pride and God opposes the proud and give grace to the humble (James 1: 6).
Like a stubborn and an unfaithful wife, we most at times starve God of His meal and we will expect Him to be responsible for our up keeps and even when He is, we are ever nagging and complaining, never satisfied, ever fluctuating in being responsible for giving Him What He deserves. What God deserves is our all (glory), so that He could give us His all and once we have all of Him, He now becomes the portion of our inheritance to contain His all released from His eternal nature, because we can only contain the all of God, in God and that is why, it is necessary He becomes the portion of our inheritance. We end up limiting God with self, by giving Him part of ourselves and keeping the best portion for ourselves. God's greatest challenge with us is self, because flesh runs in our blood and that is why He had taken the real life off flesh and blood, because flesh and blood can never live the life of God. So we must discipline the flesh to die to self. When you don't discipline your flesh, you will live the spirit dead. But when you starve the flesh, the spirit comes alive and you become much more sensitive to doing the right things and hyper sensitive to resist the wrong things. This is the dimension God wants us to dwell in and the more we get into this dimension, the more we get deeper with Him, and the deeper we go with Him, the deeper He takes us into Himself, and the deeper He takes us into Himself, the more we will realize that we are in the height of His true life revealing the depth of His love, where no evil can access to reach, where nothing will be able to snatch or separate us from Him. We have eternal security, if we are not enjoying it; it is because we are selfishly going our own way, instead of staying and walking in His way. The way of God is the way of rest and that way and there is no way we can come to rest except we are tired of the things we do that is outside the rest of the Lord, and the way to access this true rest is simply called the ancient path, which is the only tested and proven path, the path to true and eternal rest in the bosom of the Father's love.
I in I AM is learning how to love like God, since all of my program codes reflects God's character. Yes! Often time I get terribly hurt when I don't have it reciprocated, but the truth is, I will or could only get hurt when I give attention to my selfish thoughts, but I tend to love even much more with wisdom, when my love is not reciprocated, knowing what true love is, I have to endure long. But know this, if your endurance is not drawing you close to God, run for your life. Did I say run? Please, flee! Because once the devil gets you into his current, you are doomed. We must learn how to lavish our love on God, because He first loves us, and it is out of the abundance of love, He had loved us, that we can love Him. Knowing this, engulfs us in Him whose glory no man can contest and the more we experience His glory, the more we are enabled to love Him the more, because all we are, belong to Him, and we are absolutely nothing without Him and whatever we become outside Him, is like smoke puffed into the air, with its reality like mirage, which I define as true vision, never catching reality.
God's love would always meet our needs, and we must know this; it is not all about what we want, but what we need, because it is in our need that we know that God has supply all that involves His blessings according to His riches in glory. We need not to be bothering for anything, because worrying, limits God's capacity to do and you do expect God to do when what you are manifesting is the opposite of His very character. God expects us to worship instead of worrying and this is a secret when truly discovered and practiced, makes the enemy stupidly stupid, because he cannot just stop your progress. God expects us to learn from a little of things which He cares for them, talk more of us His prime purpose on earth. I when you worry, you are invariably pointing that God has not released all that you need, and when He had already. If you cannot access what rightfully belong to you, it is because you are faithless and selfish.
We need to learn to become a good judge to always judge God faithful in all His doing, even when literally we have not experienced what we are anticipating from Him. The truth is not Him, because even before we asked whatever, He had released it, the challenge is growing our faith to see and receive that which He had released as our package.
You can never a package from God except with the hand of faith and faith in God is the only activator of real things. You want love, joy and happiness in your family, faith is the instruments to play the chords to sing the music with the contents of all that is good.
You can never be cold in the love of God; it keeps you warm and moderates in the right temperature and give you the best feelings to the right suiting temperature that will live you with the only option, to keep asking and desiring more and more and more of Him. God wants more of us than we want Him for the sake of unconditional love, but He is trying to teach us that we are the once that need Him more since we cannot live without Him and He cannot gamble His love for us, so He had to love even more so we could love Him out of the abundance of love He had loved us, but the truth remains that we need Him more. I mean, God needs of us more is simply because of His nature of eternal love that cannot change and He will not because we don't love Him, stop loving us, because if He does, then He had failed His Word. So we need to understand the reason why God cannot fail and come to valid conclusive stand that whenever things go wrong, it is never God and can never be God, it is either our mindset or the devil's trying us after he had gotten permission from God and God would allow it, to prove your nature in Him and grow you into His perfect state even as you keep overcoming the wiles of the devil. He comes seeking us even when we are not. What do you desire more when you have all you need in life? That is greed and it will take you out of your safety zone, if you are not careful. He knows what is best for you, but will not always offer it to you when you need it , if you desire has not fall in place with His perfect timing, He would expect you to wait patiently and have your strength renewed to be able to see clearly His mind to release unto you the very  best in His mind, not what you have defined as your best, because your best is even the least in His mind that is if it even exist, it is only in our mind that we have the best as the limit of good, but in God's mind, there is no limit to good, because it is more beyond best that does not bring you to a state of want, but He will not even offer you the best, what He will offer you is Himself, and that was why He had to come down to die and have the price paid for our sins. He, who knows no sin, became sin. If it is not God, it can never be good and if it is not good, you will never have rest. When you don't have rest, you will ever be distressed, and this is because you have gone out of your safety zone (God's presence) into your way, running out of patience, searching for the best, when you have your best in rest, not in stress. Your best outside God will end up stealing your rest, and your rest outside God, will end up killing your peace and your peace outside God, will end up destroying your soul. So do not desire anything outside God, else, you have subscribed to lifetime misery.
Search out God's best for your life and you will have rest for life. God's best, is simply His Word and when we totally trust His grace, and as we obey His Word in the most holy faith, believing all of His promises, that will only be made perfect as it comes to pass in your life

Consciously or subconsciously, life is a force that drags us in, deep into dimensions. 
We are married from birth to our purpose in life in one way or the other even without knowing, but faith in God will bring us face to face with this reality.
 Even if we do whatever to run away from this reality, it will somehow find us and drag us into aligning to who we truly are beyond the knowledge impressed us by the mind rebranding system in the form of secular and religious education, and we now think, we are what they told us we are. 
This is the reason for misplacement of our true identity in God and that is why we often struggle for recognition instead of staying to whom God has created us to be. You are uniquely unique, independent, but dependent on your programmer, who is a higher force beyond the confines of your thought grasp.
Journey into the deep!
I grew up to know myself as an alien in this world of some certain happenings around my life, which gave me a course of concern. It seems as if I think differently and see things from a different dimension and I could not just understand why then, while I was growing as a child, but now I know and understand better.
This book is spirit breathed revealing a journey into great awareness, pointing to the realization of self beyond self-designed ideologies.
A lot of things that was happening in my life while I was advancing from the cradle that I could not just explain, because it was my days of ignorance, evolving into the more complex world that threw me into chaotic state of thoughts, not knowing exactly what to hinge on as reality. There were things that kept recurring and calling my attention deeper and these things were never letting me be. One of the notable experiences I had, that I will never forget, was the experience of recurring convulsion that almost ruined my life. 
God can never let you be when you have His Divine seal, you are not your own, you are His very own, the earlier you know this, the sweeter will life become for you, and the swifter things will answer to you and work in your favor even when it seems working against others. This is why He cannot leave, nor forsake you, because you are His project program #Reality reached from my personal experience#.

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Dear best friend,

I hope this letter finds you in your best spirits. It has come to my attention that recently you are feeling unloved and self-conscious. Also, that you are feeling monachopsis; it's okay to feel out of place sometimes.

I do not address you on the subject without any intention of discussion of the abstract question of why should you love yourself. I simply wish to turn this upsetting change to some account for the general welfare.

What does the word 'love' truly mean? Love means an intense feeling of affection. In my opinion, everyone has a right to feel loved by others and also by themselves whether or not they are 'perfect'.

I, myself am not 'perfect' but little by little I am learning to love myself. Today, I am who I am with all of my faults and my mistakes. Tomorrow, I might be a tiny bit wiser, and that'll be me too. I have come to love myself for who I am, for who I was, and for whom I hope to become. Me of yesterday, me of today, me of tomorrow with no exceptions, it's all me.

Now, it is not just me who knows this; my views are shared by millions of people, including the world-famous boyband BTS. A famous lyrics from one of their songs is "I'm the one I should love in this world
Shining me, the precious soul of mine. I finally realized so I love me. Not so perfect but so beautiful. I'm the one I should love" from Epiphany.

However, some people do not understand the true meaning of 'loving myself', leading themselves to do self-harms, depression which can further lead to committing suicide. Self-love is not selfish; you cannot truly love another until you know how to love yourself. Be yourself. Accept your flaws. "Love yourself first, because that's who you'll be spending the rest of your life with."

Thank you and best wishes,
Lami

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Marguerite is oblivious as she folds Arthmael's body into beautiful silhouettes. Following the familiar choreography, she dances relentlessly.

Grand Jete! Penche! followed by a series of graceful pas de chats. All concatenated in front of the enthralled emperor.

When the music reaches the outro in a full stop, Marguerite falls gracefully on the floor in a pose. She stays there and waits for the king to tell her she can leave.

She stays on the ground for a long time but hears nothing from him. Wondering if she did anything wrong, she wants to lift her head to look at the king's face, but quickly remembers the warning he gave her. If she disrespects him any further, who knows what he might do to her.

She suddenly feels her chin being lifted, her eyes meet the hazels of Demian. She forgets to breathe and falls from her pose onto the floor. She doesn't have time to regain her senses before two strong arms lift her off the floor.

She is about to question him on his weird behaviour when her mouth is suddenly covered by his in a kiss.

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Marguerite is very talented. She has a beautiful voice, a great passion for music and various talents in the arts. Unfortunately, her bright future gets compromised when she is forced to leave her world to fulfill the wish of someone else. Marguerite wanting to go home as soon as possible, accepts. However things turn out quite unexpected for her.

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A couple of days later, they able to talk about some questions that might be arising. She starts to Google 'Deep Things to Ask Your Boyfriend.' and searched and select through of some questions that she can ask him but then he started first and asked her, "What's your greatest fear?" 

She responded, "Losing my dad / my parents (touchwood). I'm very close to my dad. I also don't like snakes. What about you? It's raining here in Bogor, and this game of getting to know you seems fun and what's your idea of a perfect date? " 

He answered, "My greatest fear is ending up with the wrong person in life." 

She then asked him to elaborate, "Can you tell me more about this?" 

He explained, "That's the stage that I am no in life. Settling down. And I know ending up with the wrong person would be one of the greatest fear that I got. I have so many people that claim they love me but at the same time, I found out that it's because of what they tend to gain from me and it hurts." 

She agrees with him, "I understand the feeling." 

He then added, "So I really look forward to finding someone that would love me for who I am and not for what they tend to gain from me and it seems I have found that one person in you. Someone that has loved me for who I am. Somebody that I could connect with. Body, mind, and soul. I feel complete with you." 

She responded, "Aww baby...I feel the same way. Do you know that I don't like men with beards? But with you it's different? I fell in love with you personally." 

She asked him, "Why is that?" 

He then explained to her, "I mean special. So back to your question." 

She replied, "Yeah, what's your idea of the perfect first date?" 

He responded, "I won't rush anything. I guess everything would be just the way my date wants it. Left for me, I would want to host my date at my house. I would do the cooking my self. I would do the table setting my self and then invite her over." 

She replied, "That's really cool." and asked him another question that she has picked from her Google search, "What's your definition of a perfect relationship?" 

He answered, "When there is full understanding from both sides. When there's trust." 

She asked him again, "In your opinion, what's the best way to show love?" 

He responded, "I would say in your actions. In what you say. I guess if you really love someone, it would definitely show for itself. Whatever you do with the person. It would show. Love doesn't hide." 

 She agrees with him and asked him, "Is there anything you want to tell me?" 

He banters, "You tell me. How you want your first date to be? And also answer your own question of 'what's the best way to show love? I want to know your opinion." 

She answered, "By getting to know each other. I like what you describe, we just talked and talked for hours and getting comfortable with each other. By trust, by nothing to hide, being able to just be my self and yourself without any pretending, by being silly to each other but also knowing that you love and care and wants to protect each other." 

He agrees with her and added, "Very true, so you see, we both know what we want and I guess we both made the right choice." 

She responded, "I'm very lucky to have found you." 

He replied, "Same here baby, and I'm fulfilled." 

She then asked him, "Do you believe in a soulmate?" 

He responded, "Oh yes. I have found someone that I can truly say I love and I know we are both in love with each other." He then asked her a question, "What exactly do you love about me?" 

She simply answered him, "You are the most thoughtful, romantic, kind person that I know. We haven't met yet but I know for sure you will treat me right. I never get treated right before. So when you come into my life is like you are fulfilling the dreams that I always wanted. You are a very private person but at the same time, you are not shy to show me what you are feeling about me. Like you are sensitive but also attentive at the same time which makes me fall for you. You are smart, a leader, and I really like those qualities about you. You love God too, so that's a plus for me. I wanna know about me too. What exactly do you love about me? " 

He's blushing, "That's one thing that I learnt from my dad. He never took my mum for granted, he treated her right so I'm sure that's the right thing to do." and added, "I could write a whole book on this." 

She laughs and added, "Just tell me a bit of snippet of the book then..." 

He replied, "I have never felt this way for a woman before. Even my ex. I feel so connected to you as if we have known for ages. You're someone that is down to earth that loves me for me that understands me perfectly. You're someone that I know that would stand for me even if there is nothing to gain out of it. You have loved me wholeheartedly and trusted me and this is something I really value in you. You are an independent woman that knows what she really wants and also work towards it. You're smart, you're beautiful, you're God-fearing... and above all, you're that one person I have been searching for and I'm glad, happy, and fulfilled to have you all to my self. I pray as this relationship has started, it would all end in praise. I leave everything for God. Because he is the only one that knows best. He's the one that has brought you to me." 

She's speechless and blushing. She responded, "I wanna say, we both know what we wanted and we both know that we belong to each other and I'm hoping for the best in this relationship. I really can't wait until I can hold you and meet you and kiss you and we talk for hours and hours." 

He replied, "That's all I'm craving for all the time. I'm really looking forward to." 

Selah.

She falls in love with a man who says he's this particular man but she found out that he is not who he says he is. 

She risks everything including money and her body image. 

Would she finally found out the truth about him? 

Would she finally ready to know the truth and letting him go? 

or

Would she choose to stay with him and meet with him?

Would you read this book as a prejudice or would you keep an open mind?

(Idk if this counts as a poem XD)

Do you ever meet someone and like Bamn
It's like your world changed
Maybe it was your lover and everything  seemed to take color
Or maybe a best friend that made you notice your worth
Or maybe a teacher or Mentor that always believed you could do it
And maybe you didn't noticed what impact they had on your life
Until you lost them

Most People never really think about these things
It's funny that I do
And I want you to give it a try
Think of ways someone has impacted your life

Make a list
Of the small things 
Of the big things
If they impacted your life it counts
And start giving appreciations

I will tell you a bit of mine right now 
Using fake names or Nicknames.

Kegare.
I love you my laugh
Our jokes are hilarious
You never fail to make me smile and laugh
And we say things no one else understands
I appreciate every second you make me laugh, smile and overall happy
You make me laugh.

Wolf.
I love you my protector
You always back me up
It doesn't matter if I'm right or wrong
You got my back
I appreciate your protection.
You make me stronger.

Lizard.
I love you my Smile
Even when I'm mad at you
You make smile
You can always turn my frown upside down
You are always there with love and smiles
I appreciate your love
You make me Happy

Baka.
I love you my confidence
Even when I doubt myself
You can always change that
You make me feel good through words and hugs.
You are always there to build me up.
I love you my self-coach
You make me confident.

Shy.
I love you my ears.
You listen to my crazy drama
You always listen to my stupid self
Even if I don't make sense 
You always seem to get it.
I love you my Therapist ;)
You make me open.

Baker.
I love you my Advisor.
You always think of all possibilities 
You are always listening
You give the best advice
And the best laughs
I love you my Guide.
You make me right. 

Guitar.
I love you to death my Bestie.
You are always there for me.
You give me hugs and smiles
You give me a reason to keep loving
You give me hope.
Thank you my partner in crime
You make me love.

And honestly I could go on and on about the people that changed me.
But that would take too much time. 
I appreciate everyone I love.
Everyone I met in my life
And I challenge you to do the same. 
Because life is nothing
Without the people we are loving.

This is my poetry. If you really want to know the girl behind my stories. Here is your chance. I will tell you who I really am through my Poetry. I hope you like it!



Alishia POV 

"Yes! I will marry you!" And everyone cheered us. My husband kissed me as if were only the people in the world. 

And I didn't care too. 

I was enjoying the kiss when I opened my eyes and see a man behind him aiming to shoot my husband and I quickly push him away so the I took the shot. "I love you my love." 

Then the shot hit my right chest. 

Everyone was so furious. My husband rushed to me. I couldn't breath well. 

"Love!!!! Love don't close your eyes! Love you need to fight! Love we will grow old together! I need you in my life!" My husband was like a mad man. I knew he was worried. I have to win this fight so I try to calm my self. I close my eyes and try to focus in breathing. 

" Get the damn car! I want the culprit alive! I want him to taste the hell on earth. " 

Then my husband carry me. 

Oh shit, I felt that it's heavier to breathe. Luckily the hospital was so near to the hotel. Then my husband carry me down to the emergency room. 

" We need the best doctor. You need to save my wife and babies!! " 

" Sir you can only stay here. Please calm down we will do our best for your wife." 

Then the doctors and nurses took me and my babies or the man there will kill you all." I said with my eyes close. 

The doctor laugh, "Your the only patient that was running out of blood but still affords to threat us." 

"The only reason why I am living now was my husband and so I try to concentrate because I want to live for a long time. And I am pregnant with four monsters so please do your best." I smiled to them and the nurse couldn't help but to cry. This woman is so brave. 

" So do your best to fight, we will perform C section as well. You will sleep due to general anesthesia." 

"But I want normal delivery. Can you stop the bleeding first then make me labor. So I can do normal delivery?" 

"Can you do it?" 

"I can!" 

"Okay. If you want this. Give her pain killer and start giving shot for her to labor. You have to work very hard!!!" 

Then the labor starts. I will do my best, for my baby and my husband. 

Adam's POV 

I was hell as worried. Fuck! How could my little wife took a bullet for me. My parents ran to me." How is my daughter?! Hell why did you put down your guards? " 

My mother was mad at me and my father. I was mad of my self. I want to kill all those fucking guards. How did it slip to the security? 

I'm going to lose my mind. 

When the operating room's door opened. 

" Mr Si, your wife is calling you. " 

I was nervous but I hurried. They gave me surgical suite and they disinfect me. Then I almost ran to my wife lying on the delivery bed. 

"Love, why do you have to do this. It might damage your body." 

I knew she's having a difficult time with the bullet on her chest. 

"Doctor, will she be okay?" 

"Thank God the bullet didn't hit her organs but she lost lit of blood that was why we transfer her blood. She was insisting to have normal delivery. That was why she really has to work." 

Why this woman wanted to give me a heart attact. "Love, I will support you. You can do it!" 

She nodded. "Ahhh..." She pushed. 

The doctor checked if her cervix is fully open. "She's ready for delivery. Mrs Si, pushhhh!!!"

He's my one true love.  It was our first day of school. I sat in front of the class because I'm a geek girl who loves to study Math. This is my last year in high school and I really wanted to focus.  I thought we were all in the class but suddenly a boy entered the class and my heart skipped a beat.  My attention was all his.  Never in my life I imagine that love at first sight is true until now. My world suddenly became blur and all I could see was him. But I'm already taken.  I have a boyfriend and he is so sweet.  What will I  do now? This boy has captured my heart while I belong to someone else..

His parents are cholerics. I have thought long as to how best to describe them and I can only come up with this opening. I love them and I respect them but they are cholerics. if you understand what this means,you will immediately begin to envision what marriage under such family atmosphere was like.Now things are much better, because I changed. how did I change?, I discovered though lately that you cannot change a choleric, you cannot even change anyone for that matter,people are who they are,but you can choose the way you relate with them and more importantly,how you respond to them. My background is predominantly melancholic,so you can imagine these two uniquely different temperaments blending together, hard to imagine right. The only way it can be is either for the choleric to be redeemed or for the melancholic to constantly die to self. well,no choleric around me for the longest time were been redeemed, so I continued to die to self. Dying to self for me did not come easy, it crushed me and made me for the longest time to lose my identity. it rekindled and exaggerated feelings of insecurity and low self worth I had exited the religious group with, and it birthed real fear in me. Fear of offending my parents in law,dread of the toxic words they could utter that had the capacity to break my spirit and put me in a constant state of near insanity.
 I found myself caught up in a cycle of pain,frustration,hurt,anger,bitterness and lots of tears. I tried for the damnedest time to make them love me,but it was a never ending quest. I stand truthfully before God to say that all I ever wanted was to be a good daughter in law to them and to be the best wife possible to my husband. But I was never given the chance,I guess I was never perfect enough. I even went against some of my personal beliefs to please them but it was never enough. Don't get me wrong,they are not monsters,they were the most  industrious,hardworking and dedicated catholics I have ever seen. They were strong willed and leaders in their various groups. My mum in law was a very elegant woman. I loved and respected her sense of style. she was fat but boy,could she move. she had skin like pure gold,yes,she was that beautiful. she was a good cook and can be your best fan if she truly believed in you. My dad in law is a disciplinarian and a perfectionist, a man you can always look up to when you need help,a trustworthy man and one who truly loves his family.

'So what happened Catherine,you may ask me,with people of such wonderful character,why did you not hit it off with them,what went wrong?.

My answer to you is that they are cholerics and I am a melancholic, the nurturing,understanding,acceptance,tolerance and patience I was expecting from them,I did not get. on their part,I guess the toughness,ruggedity,perfection and style they were expecting too from me,they did not see it. so the mix did not blend,it stayed just a mix. But time has passed and we all have aged,there is a kind of understanding and tolerance that comes with age,things you expect from a wife that used to matter so much to you as a parent in law starts to lose their stardom status,you start to accept her as she is,you start to wonder why you wasted the years on trivialities, you want to cultivate a different relationship if you can,you want to perhaps make amends,you start to put things into better perspectives because you finally see and accept that we are not all perfect and we can live with each others imperfections and that your son actually loves her and married her.

As a wife,you start to see that you should stop fighting or explaining,because more often than not,you do these emotionally and make things worst,you start to refocus on people who return your efforts at love,peace and friendship,you maintain a relationship of love which means that you realise that you can love without been friends. Love is a decision to mean well and do well despite anything because its the right way to live,and it is a healthy way to live.

So to the big question,did they accept me?

yes they did, wholeheartedly I think,at least they expressed great joy and satisfaction at their son for his choice of me. And so,everything began In earnest because they too needed to check me out.

After I met the parents,I started the long process of getting to know them,a process that has spanned all my married years and brought about the above revelations about them and myself. Next,it was time to meet the siblings. And it was quite interesting.

V's POV~

I hate it when rumors called me "WEIRD" everytime I speak about aliens. I love aliens and I found it unique. I've done my research about them and believe me, It's very interesting and kinda fun. Aliens are out of this world but I hope that someday I will spot aliens roaming around in our planet,I hope.

I've transfer a school for the sake of my parents business, I don't want to but I need to. It's hard for me to transfer to the other school because I don't want to leave my best friend Jimin. I don't want him lost. He's a friend of mine, only friend of mine. We're best buddies and no one can tear us apart.

We're very close as many students and brats thought that we are couple but we're not, We're nothing but just a friend, best friend rather. It's hard when someone you love, someone who is important to you, someone who will comfort and gives you advices everytime that you are swallowed by stress and suffering from low points will lost and fade.

Is he okay, is Jimin fine, is my best friend is in good condition? Word in my head that I'm keep asking for. But thanks to social media,we can call each other. I'm glad that we can always communicate. We texted each other every seconds. But talking to him verbally is the most precious thing ever.

~

flashback~

Tae:
Chimmy?

Chimmy:
Yes taeber...

Tae:
I have something to tell you chimm

Chimmy:
Tell me tae,I will listen

Tae:
I need to transfer a school,
I don't want to but I need to.
seen

Tae:
Please listen Jimin. My mother 
want me to transfer  a school for 
the sake of our business. I don't 
want to lose you chim. You mean
so much to me, your my best
bud.I will promise that If I have time
I will visit you often. Your the only friend of mine and I will be your best friend forever❤

Chimmy:
Taeeeeeeeehyung..... I can't held my tears tae... you dickhead..
But it's  okay taetae..Your parents did this  for your future tae..your good future is their intention. Don't Worry tae, I will keep your promise, I'll wait for you. Don't mind me tae. What I really scared of is you. What if many will bully you there, snatch your foods and money or what if they will kill you? I'm not on your side if that'll happen, I'm scared tae. 

Tae:
Ow chimmy, I will protect my self , don't Worry, If they want to kill me there, then kill me, I will turn into a ghost and I will scared their bitchy ass and I will ruin their life.wahaha

Chimmy:
Taeee... Don't say that, it's not funny tae, I don't want to lose you, your my gem. Your life is precious Kim Taehyung.

Tae:
Your so cute mochi .I will miss you❤I'll promise that I will always text and video call youuu..I love you.

Chimmy:

Promise me tae huh..I love you too tae from the buttom of my asshole

Tae:
Eww Park Jimin😂 you gross but I love you anyways.

Chimmy:
I will miss you tae, always❤

Tae:
Uwu cutie.. I will miss you more chimm..

Chimmy:
Yeah tae ,I'm cute, oops mom is yelling downstairs, I need to go tae,bye..take care 

I Love you my alien👽

Tae:
Bye Chimmy ❤I love you my NO JAM


end of flashback~

~

Tears rolled in my eyes mesmerizing some memories and happy moment me and Jimin had built.  

I am playing with my alien keychain Jimin give me while waiting for the next period.I find this place cool and I love the ambience. The surroundings are pretty clean, the only mess is this classroom and my classmate's attitude. They look like a nursery kids. Throwing of crumpled paper, exchanging load noise and doing some messy things. The chalkboard was messed up, nonsensical images are drawn. This classroom is a total mess.

By the ways, I'm openly gay. I don't care of what other people had said about me, this is me, no one can change me.

When I open it to my parents, my father get angered of me at first but as the day goes by, he accepted me then, he said to his self that, he can't change me and I'm a good child of him, an excellent student, I always got a high grades and I think there's no hindrance and reason for not accepting me.

When boredom strikes! 
I get my sketch pad and a single piece of my charcoal pencil. Aside from learning about Aliens, I also loved to draw. Art is a definition of me. 


I started to sketch an image when I noticed this guy besides me, I noticed his gaze and that stares, he look like he want to eat me. I continued my business when the aforementioned guy speak, "Wow, cool! You really good at arts." 

"I thank you" I response with a slightly smile

"Uhm... why aren't you putting hands and fingers on your drawing?" He asked 

"Uh-uhmm , I'm not good in drawing hands and finger, everytime I draw a finger, it looked like a ginger" I explained it and We both laugh intensely.

"Wow, really? I can teach you if you want"he offered

"You can draw?"I asked him

He raised his brow and grinned revealing his cute bunny smile.

"S-sure" I accepted his offer, because I want to learn too and I wanna know if he really good at drawing.

He started to draw and wow he finished it in only a seconds. It really nice, he really good at drawing.

"See" he smiled revealing his bunny smile again.

"Wow, nice, you really good at drawing!" I praised him,I was amazed. I stared at his drawing with my mouth wide open. Every lines are detailed and well sketched. 

"Thank you for that feedback" he bow down imitating a prince bowing down to a king. He was cute and it's nice to be with him so I gave him a smile.

"I'm Jungkook, Jeon Jungkook" he introduced his self and smile like an idiot but I found it cute.

"I-Im Kim Taehyung, you can call me V if you want. nice to meet you, I hope we will become good friends" I smiled.

"Or more than that" he said in a low tone

"What?" I didn't hear his last statement so I asked him.

"N-nothing Tae" he smile at me.

"O-okay" 

Wait, did he call me Tae? It's okay, that nickname is cute.

"You can't hide from me kitten, punishment is waiting for you"-JJK

Where Jungkook, a mafia leader fell in loved with Taehyung,an innocent cute guy. Because of lust, Jungkook kidnapped Taehyung and make him his sex slave. Will it becomes a love story? Or a Tragedy?

V's POV~

I hate it when rumors called me "WEIRD" everytime I speak about aliens. I love aliens and I found it unique. I've done my research about them and believe me, It's very interesting and kinda fun. Aliens are out of this world but I hope that someday I will spot aliens roaming around in our planet,I hope.

I've transfer a school for the sake of my parents business, I don't want to but I need to. It's hard for me to transfer to the other school because I don't want to leave my best friend Jimin. I don't want him lost. He's a friend of mine, only friend of mine. We're best buddies and no one can tear us apart.

We're very close as many students and brats thought that we are couple but we're not, We're nothing but just a friend, best friend rather. It's hard when someone you love, someone who is important to you, someone who will comfort and gives you advices everytime that you are swallowed by stress and suffering from low points will lost and fade.

Is he okay, is Jimin fine, is my best friend is in good condition? Word in my head that I'm keep asking for. But thanks to social media,we can call each other. I'm glad that we can always communicate. We texted each other every seconds. But talking to him verbally is the most precious thing ever.

~

flashback~

Tae:
Chimmy?

Chimmy:
Yes taeber...

Tae:
I have something to tell you chimm

Chimmy:
Tell me tae,I will listen

Tae:
I need to transfer a school chimm, 
I don't want to but I need to.
seen

Tae:
Please listen chimm. My mother 
want me to transfer  a school for 
the sake of our business. I don't 
want to lose you chim. You mean
so much to me chim, your my best
bud.I will promise that If I have time
I will visit you often chim.your the only friend of mine and I will be your best friend forever❤

Chimmy:
Taeeeeeeeehyung..... I can't held my tears tae... you dickhead..
But it's  okay taetae..Your parents did this  for your future tae..your good future is their intention. Don't Worry tae, I will keep your promise, I'll wait for you. Don't mind me tae. What I really scared of is you. What if many will bully you there, snatch your foods and money or what if they will kill you? I'm not on your side if that'll happen, I'm scared tae. 

Tae:
Ow chimm, I will protect my self , don't Worry, If they want to kill me there, then kill me, I will turn into a ghost and I will scared their bitchy ass and I will ruin their life.wahaha

Chimmy:
Taeee... Don't say that, it's not funny tae, I don't want to lose you, your my gem. Your life is precious tae.

Tae:
Your so cute chimm .I will miss you❤I'll promise that I will always text and video call youuu..I love you chimm

Chimmy:

Promise me tae huh..I love you too tae from the buttom of my asshole

Tae:
Eww chimm😂 you gross but I love you anyways.

Chimmy:
I will miss you tae, as in❤

Tae:
Uwu cutie.. I will miss you more chimm..

Chimmy:
Yeah tae ,I'm cute, oops mom is yelling downstairs, I need to go tae,bye..take care 

I Love you my alien👽

Tae:
Bye Chimmy ❤I love you my NO JAM


end of flashback~

~

Tears rolled in my eyes mesmerizing some memories and happy moment me and Jimin had built.  

I am playing with my alien keychain Jimin give me while waiting for the next period.I find this place cool and I love the ambience. The surroundings are pretty clean, the only mess is this classroom and my classmate's attitude. They look like a nursery kids. Throwing of crumpled paper, exchanging load noise and doing some messy things. The chalkboard was messed up, nonsensical images are drawn. This classroom is a total mess.

By the ways, I'm openly gay. I don't care of what other people had said about me, this is me, no one can change me.

When I open it to my parents, my father get angered of me at first but as the day goes by, he accepted me then, he said to his self that, he can't change me and I'm a good child of him, an excellent student, I always got a high grades and I think there's no hindrance and reason for not accepting me.

When boredom strikes! 
I get my sketch pad and a single piece of my charcoal pencil. Aside from learning about Aliens, I also loved to draw. Art is a definition of me. 


I started to sketch an image when I noticed this guy besides me, I noticed his gaze and that stares, he look like he want to eat me. I continued my business when the aforementioned guy speak, "Wow, cool! You really good at arts." 

"I thank you" I response with a slightly smile

"Uhm... why aren't you putting hands and fingers on your drawing?" He asked 

"Uh-uhmm , I'm not good in drawing hands and finger, everytime I draw a finger, it looked like a ginger" I explained it and We both laugh intensely.

"Wow, really? I can teach you if you want"he offered

"You can draw?"I asked him

He raised his brow and grinned revealing his cute bunny smile.

"S-sure" I accepted his offer, because I want to learn too and I wanna know if he really good at drawing.

He started to draw and wow he finished it in only a seconds. It really nice, he really good at drawing.

"See" he smiled revealing his bunny smile again.

"Wow, nice, you really good at drawing!" I praised him,I was amazed. I stared at his drawing with my mouth wide open. Every lines are detailed and well sketched. 

"Thank you for that feedback" he bow down imitating a prince bowing down to a king. He was cute and it's nice to be with him so I gave him a smile.

"I'm Jungkook, Jeon Jungkook" he introduced his self and smile like an idiot but I found it cute.

"I-Im Kim Taehyung, you can call me V if you want. nice to meet you, I hope we will become good friends" I smiled.

"Or more than that" he said in a low tone

"What?" I didn't hear his last statement so I asked him.

"N-nothing Tae" he smile at me.

"O-okay" 

Wait, did he call me Tae? It's okay, that nickname is cute.

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