Giving up

Su Yuoyue didn't even know how she got out the villa , the sky roared with lightening and was designed with dark clouds , it was clear that it was going to rain.

  " Drop, drop , drop " the rain finally descended , Her tears mixed up with the cold water , her inky hair was drenched and it covered her face , clothes stuck to her skin , her face looked desolate , pale .. her eyes was like a Misty spring and her mouth quivered due to the rain .

 Her face was unreal, despite the fact that her face was filled with tears but she looked like a fairy that was stuck on Earth , A beauty that should not have existed.

  Her steps wavered and she fell , her murmurs was filled with pain and her eyes showed boundless pain and grief , it resembled the look she had whenever she got to her room but at the moment it seemed to have increased by leaps and bounds .

 " He left me, he was sick of me " if it had been like a normal breakup , she might have cried but at this moment Su yuoyue understood the person that said , when life ends , you can't love .

  She loved him alot , but before the end he left her ... He left me before the end , her vision blurred and water and tear mixed continuously .

  Su Yuoyue was very much aware that her life was very short , but he said that he would be there still the end but he left , he told her that he would be there as long as she was alive .

  Su Yuoyue was confused , what was she fighting for, what was she reading for ... Her life had always been a joke, a big joke, her life seemed perfect , her parents loved her and her brothers always protected her, brother Moshen always cared for her .

  She wanted to blame him , shout at him , call him a lair but she could not do it , her thoughts was all over the place and she felt her breathing choked , the rain seemed like it wouldn't stop , it carried this gloominess that was like it would stretch to enternity .

  Su Yuoyue tried to control her emotions but the more she tried to calm down , the more she cried .

  She knew that if she could not control her emotions , she might not live past tonight , she tried to calm down but to no avail , she just couldn't stop crying .

  She recalled the first day , the first day she met Wen Moshen .

 It was a sunny day , the sun carried a warm feeling that engulfed the surrounding , the gentle breeze blew making the weather very lovely and peaceful , the temperature was very good , it was neither too hot or cold .

  In a alley , she stood in the middle of four boys , su yuoyue knew one of them .

  Su Yuoyue recalled that , she was going to meet her brothers after her classes ended when she got surrounded by the four boys , they took her pocket money and cursing at her .

  At the age of seven , su yuoyue was suffering from severe autism and she still could not say proper words , she could only say brother , mom or dad .

  The boys scolded her continuously and she started to shiver non stop, she curled up on the floor and was murmuring words to herself.

  One of the boys got water and wanted to splash it on her , she closed her eyes expected the cold liquid but she was hear anything , she just heard crying and pleading .

  She opened her eyes and saw him standing there , the sun made him seem radiant and warm , he looked at Su Yuoyue and smile , his smile was very kind and refinded , his face looked very cozy ... He gazed at her and said one word , I am here .

  She was really scared so she fainted , her First brithbr and second brother came and took her home , but she never forget that smile.

  Su Yuoyue felt a wave of pain attack her heart , it hurt like hell , Su Yuoyue tried to get her medicine , but she could not find it .

  She was in a hurry to meet Wen Moshen and forgot to bring her medicine , another wave of pain struck her .

  Her face paled this time , it was longer than the last one , again and again , it was attacking her again and again .

  Su Yuoyue face was wet and her hair spreaded on her face , she looked like she was hanging on .

  Su Yuoyue did not want to die , her face was as pale as paper and her fair skin seemed to have changed to the colour of white , she looked very pale and sick , she frowned, the next wave of pain of pain was always greater than the last one .

  Su Yuoyue body was extremely weak because she was a premature infant when she was a baby , so her body and bones was very weak , she wanted to fight , wanted to preserve bib how could she , If it was now it would be in the next few years ... It better this way , at least her mom was not crying , her dad was not consoling her and her brothers was not beating the doctor up , she felt like leaving she was tired .

  Wen Moshen did the right thing v, he gave up on time , in actual fact , she would not be able to get married to him , he freed them from this pain .

  Another wave of pain attacked and Su Yuoyue veins were visible , Su Yuoyue wished for her parents to remain happy and she wanted to go back in time and reply to they message .

  She got her phone and opened her wechat account 

" Su , you must be careful , mommy loves you okay " 

  " Su Yuoyue , brother is sorry please don't be angry " 

  " Su Yuoyue are you coming home this weekend , I want to talk to you "

 " Yuo' er , you must listen to daddy ,Wen Moshen is not interested in you at least not now , please give him up... I don't want you to give up " 

 Su Yuoyue wanted to teplr to their message but her hand could move , I wish you all a happy life enough of being a burden , at least this way ... You would not always be worried about me .

  Su Yuoyue closed her eyes and gave up .