Unwillingness
Jake felt angry with himself for saying such words to Jade. He had to admit that he was totally attracted to that girl. But why?, he still didn't know.
It was shallow of him to have said those terrible things to her last night. How he wished he could turn back time and refrain himself for speaking such hateful words to her. A pang of guilt had hit his heart, when he saw that look on her face last night. He was totally mortified by his own actions. Maybe he should have said what was really on his mind, instead of blurting out such rubbish from his mouth. That was totally unlike him. He had never been so brash in his entire life.
He hadn't been able to control himself after remembering how that guy had hugged her so tightly and how she kept smiling sweetly at the other guy at the party. Those memories were taunting, that he had momentarily lost himself in anger, most especially when it seemed like she wasn't comfortable with his presence.