the end of suffering

I happened to see it today , but how about tomorrow ? can I see it again ? . see the light that brings me hope , the hope to survive in this cruel world , where the strong kill the weak , where the love of power overcomes the power of love , truly I'm lucky to see it today but I don't think I will see it tomorrow ,I keep thinking has my end come? . the fear sizes me however I keep waiting for this light to come and overcomes this darkness around me , in a corner of a dark room I lay , holding my teddy bear my presious the only thing that was left for me ....alone in this dark room ...wanting to put an end for the endless pain ..I want to leave this place which is like a hell no even worse than that ...I'm sick of this ...did I do something wrong that God punish me like this ...yet a week ago I was with my family living a peaceful life without worries ...but everything now disappear everything turned upside down just in one night , it's just like a dream that turned to an endless nightmare ..... but there is no way to get back to these days like they say everything has an end ....now here I'm laying down here in the dark waiting the end of this sufferance all along with the dull silence ....trying to be strong and surpass this emotions ...my vision become blury I can sense that my breathing are becoming more and more weak second by second ....I close up my eyes... I saw a familiar faces they looking at me smiling ...dad...mum... brother....I can see them holding me in there lap it's warm...I really miss this feeling ... it's a beautiful dream ..I hope it'll least for ever ...dad...mum...brother ...I miss you all.... I'm sorry I could not do anything for you..you've always stayed by my side and even pay your lives to protect me ...I'm truly regretting being weak and useless ,I'm regretting being immature and selfish .....now I'm dieing in this room alone ....I can feel my body becoming more and more cold ...I can feel the pain all my body ...mum..dad .... brother ...wait for me ...I'm coming