Twenty-two

I was there. Sitting alone in the shadow of a tree.

My life is such a mess since dad death. I just feel like I don't belong here. Maybe I should leave there, but alone it could be difficult. I know I remember the letter I found. It's been 3 weeks now, I should go see what's in it.

I start walking in the direction of the castle and I don't feel like meeting people. I make myself invisible so that no one will notice me.

I walk through the corridors without being noticed by the guards, I walk along the corridors until I get to my room and then close my door.

When I think that during all these years my room has always been the place that I prefer. Nobody came to disturb me. I only had the company of Lilie.

I really miss that time. I look at my drawer before opening it, I take a deep breath before taking the letter. I sit down on my bed. I hold the letter in my hand, but I'm not really sure what might be inside.

I think for a moment and then think that the worst that could be in the letter is either a declaration of love from Izzy or the opposite. A threatening letter. But I was surprised when I opened it because it was not at all what I expected.

Letter:

My dearest and sweetest Lilith,

I hope you are eating well, sleeping well and that everything is going as you wish. I am so sorry I can't be there for you. I can't really do anything about it and I only had a few months left after your birth.

But that's not what I want to talk about in this letter. I don't know how old you will be when you read this letter or even if you have discovered your powers. You probably didn't hear about me, I'm sure, but it doesn't matter.

All I have to say is that I am like you, I had powers, but they were used in the worst way, a magic that was meant to make people happy, fell into the wrong hands. Take care of yourself and don't let anyone boss you around. Last little bit of information if you want to search for me or know more about me sooner, go to the Lospoerus library.

The letter ended just after that, or rather someone deliberately ripped out the name of the person who wrote that letter. Lospoerus is not really far from here, it would take me two days of walking to get there. What if it's a trap, and I'm being set up?

I shouldn't think too much about it, but the only thing I could think of was how Izzy had found the letter. I lay on my bed almost unable to think straight and held my head as if it would help me find answers before sighing.

My door opened, and I quickly hide the letter as I looked up at the person who had just come in. I didn't even hear the footsteps and then the look on his face pierced me, as if I had done something wrong. Mum again, she doesn't speak but looks at me without saying a word.

"What's wrong Mum, you're going to tell me that Izzy is here and you don't want me here anymore." These words came out of my mouth with a coldness, I was returning the favor for earlier. The look in her eyes softened, she looked as if she was getting cold feet, but it was too late now.

"Well..." Her voice trembled as if she didn't know how to form her sentence, and it started to annoy me, she couldn't even apologize in front of me. I get up from my bed, and she follows me with her sad look.

"If you can't talk to me, then I'm leaving. I'm going to join Jade." At the moment, she's the only person I wanted to stay with, the others didn't matter to me.

Mum was silent again, and I took the opportunity to leave my own room. I had made the letter invisible, I didn't want to create another problem because the letter was addressed to me and no one else.

After a few minutes I was back at Jade's place. Jade was there making dinner and when I closed the door she turned around with a sad look on her face, she felt pity for me and I didn't like that at all.

"Dinner will be ready in a few minutes, in the meantime you can still go and have your shower. " She didn't sound like her usual self today, her voice sounded broken, her eyes were red as if she had been crying, she was holding the knife and shaking.

I decided to approach her gently and take her in my arms. Normally I would be the one to cry but on second thoughts, as soon as I will be married to Izzy. Things will be totally different for Jade and people will treat her badly, she'll probably have to find somewhere else away from people's eyes, which is normal because after all she's considered a monster here.

"Don't be sad and don't feel bad for me, I'll be fine." I'm not really the best at comforting people. I felt her sobbing against me, for the first time she let her feelings show. She didn't speak, she just breathed next to me, after all she didn't need to say anything I understood exactly how she felt.

We stayed in that position for a few minutes, it must have been the longest and most enjoyable minutes I ever had. She pulled away from me and gave me a smile to let me know she was feeling better before serving plates on the table. I watched her do this in silence before going to join her, not really knowing what to say.

I sat down on the chair before starting to eat and with each bite I couldn't help but look at her and the same for her. We finished eating, and then we cleared the table and went into our room.

I should probably go take a shower, but that's the one thing I don't feel like doing right now. I sat down on the bed and tapped on an empty spot next to me to indicate Jade to come and sit next to me. She doesn't protest and comes. She sat down before collapsing on the bed, she must be really tired today. Maybe I should ask her if she'll come with me to the library in Lospoerus and this would be our last adventure together.

Sorry for the spelling mistakes