Chapter # 53
I don't want to lose Ryan. My heart is filled with extreme distress and apprehension just by thinking about it. I have done it for Marianne but still...
“Fuck, fuck fuck!”
Pulling my hair in distress. The regret ate me up from inside. I felt like crushing under the weight of my deed. The feeling of repulsion for myself is so strong that I want to rip off my skin.
I let out my loud convulsions of misery. Losing myself in the anguish, I cried my heart out.
Utterly deprived of energy, I was turned devoid, nothing came to my mind, I was lost in the abyss. My despair got the best of me.
My heart seeks only one person who is not here; Ryan. So that he can hold me and tell me he is here for me. That he can give solace to my soul.
“Ryan.. come back.. Please..”
I locked myself in the room, crying and feeling empty for the next few days, waiting desperately for Ryan, thinking about no one but him.