Normal day

Just as normal day i went school with same energy and hope. i sat at my usual sit and start having fun with my classmate i always start conservation and they only listen what i say. no one feel fun around me but i think that they were feeling happy . so today was different because i heard some of my friends talking about me and it make me very sad and i begin to realise they feel annoyed around me and try to avoid me soon every one of them start going away from me and slowley i started loosing friends i sat alone in the back of calssroom and start living alone never try to be friendly with other overthink all the time and start imagining thing about sucide i feel alone and by the time i realise i was already at dipression and start staying at home looking at fan and think about sucide