Chapter 16 Public Secret

The beautiful girl kept walking while enjoying Indian songs. He was very fed up with his surroundings.

What's more, she had to enjoy the pre-wedding photo session, which she didn't want.

The place was very beautiful and comfortable. White sand beach, bluish seawater, and very shady.

Intan and Eza enjoyed the pre-wedding photo.

"Let's take a photo. Mother asked. Cheh, your clothes!" exclaimed Dirga who suddenly came with alcohol. "Huh. Sick of seeing you, unless you let me try." Then insulted the simplicity of his future wife.

"You're scared, right? I'm sure you rejected me because you're already unholy." Dirga sipped his beer. Rina looked at him disapprovingly with anger.

'Obviously, he's taking it all out on me. Instead of him acting like shit, I'd better get out of here right away,' Rina exclaimed in her heart.

"Est ... uh, sorry my stomach hurts," said Rina deliberately looking for an excuse. He immediately left holding his stomach like a man in pain.

Rina felt relieved when she was far from Dirga. He sat under a shady tree.

'I feel like going back home soon. Maybe if I lay down very comfortable,' Rina said to herself.

[Assalamualaikum what are you doing, Mas?]

Rina sent a message via WhatsApp, not long after her cell phone rang. Rina immediately received the call.

"Waalaikumsalam. It's lunchtime. How about it? Is it pre-wedding? Have there been any good changes?" asked Hafiz, Rina was grumbling incessantly.

"What a good change! It's getting even more desperate, isn't it."

"Yeah, don't be so angry. It feels like you want to devour me. Hahaha," said Hafiz jokingly.

"After all, what can you do, Mas. The Dirga is indeed very, very outrageous. How come he is trying to try me. Trying to enjoy the crown of a narrow hole. Astagfirullah ... I feel like running away. I want to free fall. Or swim in the open sea. Let's all die."

"Rina what are you talking about! Don't give up. Just pray, God will answer. It's very difficult to understand, I married without love. It feels like I'm in prison. Even though she's a good girl. I'm trying to enjoy this but my heart keeps getting depressed. Heh.. .." Hafiz let out a long breath.

"At least the one Hafiz married is a good woman. If only Dirga was good and could appreciate. Of course, I'll try to open my heart. But if I'm still the same, can I open my heart. I feel fed up," said Rina lightly.

"Confused into one, lanterns become shackles, boredom becomes an excuse. There is no gratitude. Love is so beautiful. But lust is dangerous. O Allah, allow me to know love from religion. Runia is a good girl but a devil. That is, I can't accept it. .. just want to be annoyed. He's talkative. Heh!" Hafiz spoke his heart.

"If I were Mas, I would not waste a good person. Even though that person is not perfect, at least he has feelings and can appreciate. Do you know I am very depressed? Everything is happening in front of my eyes. I swear. How can a candidate my husband plays and acts as he pleases in front of my eyes? What's more, he gropes with his future brother-in-law." Rina told him annoyed and held back tears.

"Hehehe. It's an open secret. But Eza still accepts. I don't know what Eza is. Looks smart but is fooled by his love. Eh, or lust? Isn't the incident in high school proven that Intan and Dirga are always together. Don't talk about it, okay? It's better to just watch cartoons," said Hafiz.

"I want to build faith. I want to believe that God will give a miracle. Oh God, sob sob, sob, est... heh... est, eh. Right, I'm crying," said Rina with trembling lips holding back tears.

"I can't say anything. Try to confide in someone Ustadz or anyone. Let's be calmer. Eh, but ... I saved a recording of Ustadz's words this morning, while Runia was listening. I sent the voice note, OK," said Hafiz.

Rina waited with her eyes closed and enjoyed the wind.

'Bring this decency of heart,' Rina thought as she gently hit her chest which was still tight.

Ring!

Ting!

Ting!

Rina impatiently opened the voice note

[We often hear, sometimes Allah grants his servant's prayers immediately, according to their hopes and requests. There are times when Allah also delays the acceptance of the prayers of His servants, according to their hopes and requests, because there is certain wisdom behind not answering prayers. It could also be that Allah grants the request of his servants in a different form from their request because what they ask for is indeed beneficial. While there is something more beneficial than their request. We should never despair of His mercy.]

Rina seemed to be thinking about something. Not long after, his cell phone rang again.

"How have you listened? If you are sure that Allah's promise will be kept. I just remember, there is a word that says, la than in Allah ma'ana. Don't be sad Allah is with us. It seems I have to learn to love Runia," said Hafiz on the phone makes Rina smile.

"Just go on, Mas. Who knows, Ms. Runia is a woman who is truly a soul mate in the afterlife, Mas. We live a short life. We are only looking for a charity to get to heaven. I have often listened to advice." Rina massaged her dizzy head.

"That's why just be sure. If you say it's easy, it's also hard to go through it," said Hafiz. Rina took a deep breath and then let it out.

"Huft ... but what am I, Mas. Sometimes we have to accept someone's flaws. Sob sob, est ... but if it's me, sob. Have to try to accept the ugliness and disgrace. I feel like my head wants to burst. get to heaven. I live and hope for a miracle. Allah is so easy to turn the hand."

"Agreed," said Hafiz. "What should I do. Give me away, so that I look like I'm in love with Runia. Meanwhile, I can't be romantic. Do you need to go to dinner together? Is it necessary to give her flowers too? Flowers will wither, I don't know yet. Runia. What she likes and doesn't like," said Hafiz in a confused voice.

"Not doing romantic things. Just talking to each other, and being a little open. We can easily fall in love with that person because it is right and good. Every flaw must exist. You can love him," said Rina very confidently then stood up, his eyes wide.

"But how come, when I hear his voice, I want to cover my ears."

Rina hung up the phone, threw her phone away, and ran. With all his might he ran and paid no attention to anything. His eyes fell on a child who was waving his hand in the current.

'I ran with a broken heart. I'm easy to complain and give up. The tasbih of my lovelies in my strength. My endeavor is my tasbih cycle. My patience is in my sincerity. Protect me from lust. My shame, my evil, my sin. That's my mistake. You are the Most Forgiving,' thought Rina as she tried to save the child.

"My life and my death, I give you your peas."

Continued.