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I walked to my apartment, I didn't want to take the car even if I wanted to I couldn't because the car key was with Razor who was shoving his tongue down another girl's throat.

I had my own car but Razor and I went almost everywhere together so I barely used it . My mom had given it to me on my 16th.

A Tesla , she saved up so much for it .

I was thinking about so many things so I wouldn't think about what had just happened . I got home and sat down on the bed .

I didn't cry , I couldn't cry . I wanted to but nothing came out , no tears . So I just sat there waiting , repeating it in my head like a movie , waiting for it to hurt , for it to make me cry .

Then my phone rang , it was Julia , Razor's mom . She always called at the right moment .

I answered and moment she said "Hi baby girl", in that sweet manner . It felt like a dam had been opened in me , my throat tightened, my vision blurred .

"Hi". It was all I couldn't say before I started balling like a baby . She didn't ask questions, she just kept saying "It's okay baby , it's okay". Like she knew .

I slept off. 

When I woke up , the next day , it was twelve noon . I never slept this long , I missed all my morning classes . I had to get myself together but I wanted to lay in bed too and cry all day and eat . 

But I stood up and got ready . I Just had two classes to get through today and I made sure to look good . No heartbreak would ever make me ruin my style , the day my outfit is awful , just know I'm deeply depressed. 

We were both Fine Art Majors but I was in Sculpture and he was in Painting and Drawing . A lot of times , we had the same classes , I just hoped today wasn't one of them . I went to the studio first , . Our lecturer came and looked at our work , critiqued the sculptures, gave advice and talked a little bit . And class was over . My sculpture was inspired by Razor but now I didn't know what to do , so I just looked at it till it was time for my last class. 

I walked in and sat down and seated on the row next to me was the lovely Razor Yung and then he moved to my row and sat beside me. As if my day couldn't get better . He kept looking at me , I could feel his stare , he was practically breathing on my neck then he touched my finger . Oh No.

"Why aren't wearing your promise ring ?". He asked .

"Why didn't you come home last night ?". I asked too and I turned my head to look at him . He was angry like really angry , he had tightened his jaw , his brows furrowed . 

"Don't play with me Laun , I asked first ".

"Do you think this is a game , do you think I'm playing ?". I questioned him and he sighed still looking me right in the eye.

"You would have killed me if I did ". He said . So he did know.

"So you know what you did was wrong ?".

"Yes I just wanted to have fun , now where's the ring ". He stupidly said . Fun , Fun , FUN!!. If this was the fun people in relationships had none would survive . 

"You don't need to know where it is , who knows maybe I threw it away after your stupid night of fun ". I made sure to enunciate the fun , I was incredibly pissed.

"Laun you are pissing me off right now ". It sounded like his throat rumbled , his Adam's apples going up and down. I want to slap him . Who did think he was , did he take me for a joke?.

"You think I give a shit about how you feel Yung?. You really think I care ?. Maybe Veronica would and I threw the stupid ring away , so either you move away from me or shut up". He seemed to understand now , I had called him Yung , I never called him Yung except I was really pissed at him and until now I was rarely pissed , I was happy . 

Class had ended and I got up from my seat but he held my arm .

"Laun listen , I'm sorry , I shouldn't have done that yesterday, maybe I was a little drunk ..". He's lying the game started only twenty minutes after we got there and he was still holding his first cup of beer.

"I don't know what happened but I swear I only kissed her , nothing else but then .." he was looking at me , with those beautiful brown eyes , like he wanted to me to understand the rubbish he was saying .

" After the party I couldn't come home , and i didn't want to sleep at The Fraternity House so I slept at Veronica's dorm but nothing happened I swear ". He was just babbling but I wasn't even listening anymore , like I tuned out and I just walked away and I could faintly hear him calling to me now . Atleast this time he was.