reason why love is a curse:)

After my brain came back to me I looked around the room I noticed my mom and sia crying like rengoku fans when he died and I could not understand why they are crying cause I already woke up I tried calling there names but for some reason they could not hear me I thought I was imagining it so I decided to go back to sleep when I woke up again I tried calling them again but the same thing happened they still couldn't hear me at this point I was practically screaming my lungs out.

So I decided to just get my lazy buttock up and see if I can understand what is happening I got up from the hospital bed and I realized my body feels lighter and I was surprised because I was for real just binging sacks when I was working

Anyway when I toched sia my hand went right through her shoulder I looked at the hospital bed with shock, terror,and excitement I realized I was actually dead one hundred percent dead but I thought for like thirty seconds to realise if I was actually dead why am I still alive.

After a few minutes trying to figure it out I gave up on trying to then I soon realized that I was most likely a spirit or something I later figure out this senerio happened in one of the novels I'd read before and I just have to find another person's body to possess.

I was sooo excited that I ran out of the hospital forgot to still check if the road was safe to cross then another truck kun tried to send me to the after life but since I was a spirit the truck went through me so I roamed for days trying to find someone ones body to possess but soon light shined on me as I was dashing to possess this person body another spirit beat me to it and soon enough I was back to roaming around to see if I can find any body to possess.

But thank fully one day I found a body to possess and this time I remember to check the road before crossing and I ended up possessing a useless background character that is meant to die because of natural causes any way at first I was disappointed because I was not the protagonist or anitagonist and I was even more disappointed when I found out I was in the novel I wrote when I was young but I came understand that I was lucky to still be alive...for now.

So that's when I came up with a plan to meet one of the important character and be friends with them i didn't really think this well as since I was just a background character my chances of meeting any of the important character is nagative zero and lucky the person I possessed was actually beautiful I think i might have been one of the few background character that got some details so I thought why don't I be the wife or secret lover of one of the protagonist as at least my safety issues is nearly gone.

But I soon realized that if I was the secret lover of the protagonist then I could die from poison of something because the wife will most likely find out and want to kill me but then I was also planning on killing the wife so I could be power full of something then I kill the protagonist so then I don't have to deal with being in love again.

Random flash back to when I was in high school I always had a new crush nearly every week and always some how had the courage to tell my crush I liked them I always got rejected but that didn't stop me for some reason but one day when I told one of my crush I liked him he also liked me then we started going out together but one day I saw cheating on me I guess my heart final reached it limit and after I never really fell in love so yeah as you can see am tramated for that-_-