Threads of Fate: A Journey of Uncertainty and Choices

Dear Gabriel

How have you been ? And incase you are wondering I am doing well. I find that it is polite to begin a letter with a greeting however this letter is my last resort, so F**k it. I call it pulling the last thread before the summer holidays, before everything falls apart and reality sets in. I apologize for being gloomy but here is the thing; I have tried getting a hold of you and even resorted to stalking your apartment for 3 nights. On Thursday I timed it just right I saw you enter, went up to knock on the door but you did not respond. I need to make this clear I do not want a relationship with you if that is what you are afraid of. I honestly do not mean to sound and look clingy and desperate not to mention thirsty as hell. We had Sex over a month ago and I am pregnant, yes, I am. I know what you are thinking "liar, how do you know it's true? Is it yours? Am I after your money? Will I keep it (not the money the baby)? and am I trying to trap you?" I know you have no reason to believe me but to answer your some of your ' I assume' questions I will go down the list:

1) The fact that you were my first, I was a virgin when we had sex and I do not remember us finding condoms. I am not and never have been on the pill. I have not had sex with anyone since then, you can sum it up as me being in denial about what happened or waiting for something not sure what, I would like to say marriage and giving my first time to my future husband. That's the Christian in me speaking but I know that is a pathetic excuse.

2) There is a high possibility that the baby is yours, not sure if the holy ghost still goes around impregnating virgins but seeing as I was not contacted prior to the act by anyone dream or vision, I will say that conception took place the old fashion way. Your a Medical student work it out.

3) I am not after your money heck I am a confused late teen/ young adult who just added a new thing to her list of problems. I don't know what to do but I also know that you have the right to know as a "donor/parent" to the Embryo in me (look at that my high school Biology lessons paid off finally)

4) I do not know if I will keep it or not I am conflicted my faith and my pride and my ego are all in a three way struggle and I need some time to figure this out. I was hoping talking to you would help (your listening skills are on point by the way in my chats with the wall you never interrupt but 'wall' you needs to work on the giving advice and consoling part)

5) I am not trying to trap you please refer to the 3rd point before I began rambling.

These are the questions I kind of know might be on your mind. Winter break is coming up and I am done with exams. I was hoping we could talk about everything I am open to a paternity test (I don't blame you seriously I had sex with you and we barely know each other just that your cousin was my class mate and we may need to stop drinking vodka as we make stupid decisions under the influence, then again who am I to judge). I will be around for one more week and then I will be heading home for 2 months (technically should be home for 2 months 2 weeks but who is counting).

P.S do not worry about the stick in the envelope I made sure there is no pee on the cap, stick to holding the white end. I will be going to the doctor next week if you are interested (open invite) I also added a card with all my contact details and a copy of my appointment card.

Sorry for f**king things up literally and figuratively, I hope we at least talk about this even if its 30 minutes over coffee and whatever strange thing I may be craving or using the pregnancy as an excuse to indulge in.

Regards

Skylar