Acceptance

Jabi

Those words came out of my mouth and the certainty kicks in.

I am ready for this.

"You have school.'' He reminds me.

I nod "I will juggle both."

The determination in my eyes and the sound of my voice must be evident to him right now. I don't even know what has come over me right now. I didn't even want to talk about this big elephant in the room for a long time. I have been silently praying that I wouldn't end up pregnant because just like he said, I wasn't ready for it.

Until now, I am still scared.

"It's a lot. It affected Lanis in ways that you can't imagine."

He is trying to let me know of the cons of this but I have already thought about them. For a whole year, I thought about how this would affect me. How it will mess with my bod, my mind, how it will mess with my school and life but right now, all I can imagine is a mini Darrien.

A boy or a girl.