Chapter 5: I slept with stranger

Monica's Point of view

I glanced around once more to be sure no one was following me. As I rummaged through my purse for the key, I clutched it tightly. I couldn't decide whether to search for it or hold my head since it seemed to be being ripped apart in excruciating ache because of a hangover. I feel like a thief who has done a heinous crime. How many saints have I prayed to just so I wouldn't have lost the key due to my drunkness.

When I touched it, I couldn't help but brittlely whisper, "Thank you, God!"

I drove too hastily when I got in my vehicle. When I was going so rapidly, it was possible that I might crash with an object or a person.

When I arrived at our home, the throbbing in my head had not subsided; not only was my head but also 'down there' was burning, despite my best efforts to ignore it.

I bowed my head as if there was no interest in the whole world.

What was going through my mind last night, and why did I do that?! I want to smack my head against a brick wall.

I was ready to stride when I saw a shadow coming and heard a loud voice before I could lift my head.

"Ajios! I assumed you weren't going to return home! Do you have any idea how many times I phoned you and you didn't even answer? Not even once!" Litany of Mary, my sister.

She is carrying a cup of tea and it almost spills because of her rash movement.

"Where have you been?" With her ringing voice, she inquired.

She also approached me. But she paused for a minute to sniff the air. "Wait… Is that..." She inhaled once more, and her nose is going closer to my body.

I swallowed many times, scared she'd detect the man's male scent on me.

"W-What?" I took a step back and couldn't help but stammer.

"That smell... Is that an alcohol? You stink!"

I couldn't decide whether to be upset or laugh at what she said, so I basically rolled my eyes at her and mentioned what I needed to say.

"I've ended my relationship with Raven." I softly spoke as I also faked my laughter to break the weight I was feeling.

Even though I despised Raven, what he did was challenging for me.

"What the —-?"

"I saw him in bed with another woman next to him, but I couldn't see her face." My teeth chattered as I glanced at Mary.

"... What a jerk!" She uttered a curse. "Well done! I'd drink too if I were you, to celebrate finishing this toxic relationship."

"Sister!" I scolded her.

"What? You still don't want your boyfriend to be embarrassed even if he didn't do anything suitable for you… " Her voice was low because she realized I no longer agree with what she was saying.

She just shrugged and raised the cup she was carrying to sip on it.

"... and I also had s-sex with stranger..." When I stated that, I stuttered.

As her eyes dilated and turned to me, she spitted what inside her mouth.

"Please repeat what you said?" Her chin was streaming with tea.

"Could you just clean your face first? If I stink, you're cloudy!"

I couldn't help but giggle because she did precisely what I suggested. When she was done, she looked back at me.

"You sleep with who ..? With a stranger?" She couldn't believe it.

I averted my eyes from her and slowly nodded.

"Did you use... uhm... a condom?"

I tossed my eyes at her again, this time seeing her anxious expression. I lost the load I was carrying because I was afraid she would be angry with me.

Nevertheless, because of what she said, I returned to my recollection of what occurred the night before.

I pressed my palms against my cheek, remembering how I begged him not to enter his manhood raw. I even urged him to wear a condom, but he refused.

"Oh my goodness..." My heart rate increased. I peered at Mary, tears welling up in the corner of my eye.

I will be a good child, Lord. I'll do anything my parents want, or maybe I'll do the duties of our maids, as long as I don't become pregnant.

I think I'm going crazy because of what I'm thinking.

"Haaah ..!" I groaned hard and looked at Mary's enticing eyes as if pleading for her rescue.

Mary grabbed my hand that was in my face. She gave me the cup she was holding, and her tone was clearly deliberate.

"You know... Why can't you go track down that guy and attempt to date him?" She had a cheeky smile on her lips and lifted and lowered her forehead.

"No!" I instantly understood what she was conveying.

"And what's the reason behind that?" She raised an eyebrow at me and appeared unhappy that I didn't take her advice.

"I just did that 'thing 'because I wanted exact revenge on Raven! I want to show that everything he says to me is wrong!" That was something I made clear to her.

"You're going to become pregnant, Monica." Mary turned around and laughed devilishly.

Mary turned around and laughed devilishly.

I merely followed her as she headed to the door. But before we could go inside, she came to a halt, I did the same thing.

"You know, I'm not sure what you should do. That's about all I have to say." Mary's voice has turned serious, and I can see she's sincere about it, but...

"After what happened to us, I assured the man I wouldn't disturb him again. I promised him that, and that's all I can offer in return."

That's what I told myself as well...

Yet I doubt I'll be able to do so because the vision of that person never leaves my mind for more than a few seconds.

I'll never forget the guy who granted me pleasure.

And that's what I'm scared of: he won't vanish from my heart and head.