I'm Truly Sorry

Sha Sha's POV

I arrive home a bit later than usual. I had to work overtime today, so my father said that my brother will pick me up. I wait for almost twenty minutes, but my brother never comes. It's cold tonight, and the silence scared me.

I then decide to walk home alone in the middle of the cold night. When I arrive at my apartment parking lot, I saw my brother was just sending Mian Mo to her house. She lives at the next building of our apartment. I don't know what to feel anymore.

Angry? Sad? I think I never held any significant value to my brother. To him, I just an existence that shouldn't exist in the first place. Don't he ever think of what could happen to me? I walk alone on the sidewalk at night!

I enter the lobby and hurriedly press the elevator button and wait patiently at the front of the elevator door. I think maybe I felt sad mixed with angry and I unconsciously wipe my tears with the back of my hands.

Ding!

I felt something cold just touch my cheek when the elevator door open, and I flinch my body a little. I turn my face to my side and saw a tall figure standing beside me. He smiled at me and handing me a can of...I read the word on it. 'Beer??'

"What's make you sad?" he asked, and I blink my eyes a few times before I could recognize the man.

"An...Andrew??" I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw him…he dyes his hair to black color? But, where's his piercing? I can see the hole, but I can't see the studs.

"Yes, it's me. Why? Do I look too different?" he chuckles, and we both enter the elevator together. When I saw my brother climb up the stairs to the lobby, I immediately press the close door button. I think Andrew saw my action, and he just smiles at me.

I try to not talk about why I avoid my brother. I look at him and examine his looks for a moment before I, myself, couldn't stand his handsomeness. I averted my eyes and asked. "Why did you change your look?"

'Don't you know with this look, you'll attract more people to you later?' I could only say it inwardly.

"Oh? I actually wanna surprise you. But I think I'm the one who surprised to see your sad face today. Did someone bully you?" he asked, and I lowered my head a little.

Ding!

We already arrive on Andrew's floor. I guess I'll just keep it in my heart then. As I thought he already leaves the elevator, he actually held my hands and pulled me out from the elevator.

"An...Andrew?" I said because I don't know why did he pull me out too.

"You want to come inside my house?" he offers me, but I immediately shake my head. No way! What if people saw us?

"Hmm…then..let's talk here." he pulls me to the stairs and makes me sit on the step while he leans on the railing.

"So? Who makes you sad?" he waits for me to tell my story while he was sipping his beer—the can of beer before still in my hands. I never drink it in my entire life so, I don't dare to drink it.

I sighed before I tell him about how upset I am with my brother's attitude. He dares to ditch me and let me walk alone on the street at night. He rather spent his night with his girlfriend without thinking about me at all.

Everyone treats me like I'm not worthy of being alive, and that makes me sad. I don't even know when I start to cry, but all I can remember is when Andrew pulls my hand and hug me.

He whispers something to my ear, which I didn't hear it clearly at that time. It's something that ends with 'me,' but the word before it, I didn't catch it at all.

After I calm down a little, he held up my hand, which still holding the can of beer he gave me. "Drink this. This drink can wipe your sadness," he said, and I look at him.

"I never drink this before." still, I hesitant to drink it. I heard it can make people drunk and do embarrassing things.

"Hmm…so, you want to taste it first?" he took the can and opened it in front of me. I can't say a thing as I saw he drink it and he leans his face closer to mine. Held my back of the head with his large hand and while his other hand holding the beer, pull up my waist close to him.

As we only an inch away, I shut my eyes, and I felt a soft touch on my lips. I don't know what to do, and I slightly open my mouth. Following his lead and I could taste something bitter on my tongue. Too bitter as I squirm my body a little before he pulls his tongue out from my mouth.

"Does it taste good?" he asked in a low and deep voice. We're too close, and I push his body a little. I shake my head as I don't like the taste. "Bitter," I answered him and avoided my eyes from him. He chuckles at my reply.

"They say for the first time it might taste bitter. But the next sips will taste sweet, and sometimes it can make you a bit drunk. Do you wanna try it again?"

I frowned my eyebrow. I may be a bit dumb, but that doesn't mean I don't know what he just did to me, and he wants to do it again? He kisses me! Without my permission at that!

I'm hurt when he carelessly kiss me like this. Did he take me as the same girls he always hangs out with? I think my tears start to stagnant my eyes again.

I took my bag and ran upstairs. I don't know what Andrew thinks of me when I run away from him. But I really…really sad. I opened the door and saw that my parents were a bit shocked when I suddenly fling the door with a bit rough.

And when they saw my crying face, I notice my father trembling in anger. But, maybe I falsely see it, so I ran to my room and locked my door. I throw my bag on the floor, and I slam my body on my bed.

I don't know when I fall asleep. All I know the next morning when I open my eyes, my face feels numb, especially in my eyes area. I thought I cry a little too much last night.

I rubbed my face gently and went to the bathroom. I get ready as usual, and I didn't say a word at all. I notice that my parents didn't say anything either when we're having breakfast. That's good. I don't think I can handle hearing a nagging in the early morning with my mood like this.

After breakfast, I went down with my father. As usual, my father will send me to work first before he went to his workplace. But today, when my father and I arrive at the parking lot, I saw Andrew standing in the next car on the parking lot, which I had never seen before.

I thought he didn't notice me, and when I want to open the car door, my hands were suddenly grabbed by him.

"I'm sorry, sir, but I need to talk to your daughter. I'll send her to work today." Andrew said as he pulls me to leave with him.

When I look at my father, I saw he wants to open his mouth, but then he closes it and watches me taken by Andrew.

I actually don't want to see his face at all. But, because he already drags me here, I guess I had no choice but to get inside his car, or I'll be late today.

We both didn't say anything for a few minutes before Andrew start opens his mouth first. "I apologize for what happen last night," he tells his sorry to me, and I still look at the outside of the window—silent like a soulless rock.

"I shouldn't just kiss you like that. I know I do something rude to you. Can you forgive me?" Andrew tries to hold my hands, but I brush it off. I'm a bit pissed.

"Why? Why did you kiss me? I'm..I'm not like the same girl you always hang out with, Andrew." I said as I want him to be clear that I am a woman who had my pride. I don't like to be treated like how he treats other women. At least, I want to be his special one.

"I kiss you because..wait, what did you say?" he frowned at my word before he looks at me. "The girl who I always hang out with? What do you mean?"

I sighed. Just remembering it will make me upset, why do I have to explain it to him now...

"Don't you remember, Andrew? When the first time I met you..you're with a girl inside of your house.."

He tilts his head a little while focusing on the road back. I think he tries to squeeze his memory. "I also saw a few different cars at our apartment parking lot. And I also heard rumors around the neighborhood that you had so many women come and out of your house every night."

"Oh! That??" he said like he just remember something important. "Right...I still not telling you about that. I'm sorry. But, how about after your work hour, I show you what exactly they do in my house?"

I frowned at his idea. What precisely that he want to show me? Another move that he didn't mean like last night again? I want to shake my head, but he immediately said. "Please..you have to see it yourself, or I'm not able to clear my name in front of you."

I sighed and finally nodded my head. I want to try and trust him again, and so, I give him a chance to explain himself. "About last night, I'm truly sorry. I'll tell you my reason why I kiss you when you're ready, Sha Sha. Trust me, I'm not doing it for fun."