What had I thought and what have happened !

It's time, I should leave now. She'll come anytime now I must be there before she comes. It have become a routine now for us. I collect the dry wood for her and stay in close proximity to her, to protect her from the others. Sometimes Dani helps me in collecting, but he leaves before she comes.

I don't know when but, I have developed feeling for her; not only that but I've imprinted on her ! She is my to be mate, just that she doesn't know about it yet. I'll tell her today. I know she won't understand it, but I need to make her believe we exist and I love her.

Actually, imprinting is beyond loving someone. I can't express it in words. In human world, love is the best and superlative form of liking someone. But in our warewolve's world, imprinting is loving someone and making them our mate is the superlative form of our love, which in our world is desirable but, the humans many times misinterpret it as obsession or possession.

I must show her my human form because if I go to her in my wolf form she'll definitely faint with fear and anxiety. I haven't been so close to her, for I had to hide myself from her, but I guess even if she stand on her toe tips, she won't be able to touch my fur around my face.

I won't say she is short, I am gaint in my wolf form. Everyone from my pack is, but I am way too huge. I can be seen among all my pack with my height. And it helps me frightening my enemies. No one dares to approach me even if they are in heard and I am alone !

I have known her since our childhood. She is the daughter of a servant who used to work for my father. We never talked directly with eachothers, but I used to observe her when she helped her mother in the house work and she too used to give me a warm and bright smile everytime we met .

I tried to talk to her but, my father was way too proud to let his son be friends with a servant's daughter ! And as if he wasn't enough to make my life hell by controlling it as he wanted it to be, my rascal brother made me what I am today ! I'll never forgive him for that.

I had almost lost her after the incident. But one day, I was hunting and I caught a human scent. We all protect humans no matter what. And after getting the human scent, my primal instinct told me to take a look if the human was in any kind of trouble.

I went to see if everything was fine and when I saw her face, I immediately recognized her. I froze in place. I badly wanted to go to her and talk to her. But I was too stunned to think straight. When I finally gained my senses back, she was gone !

I cursed myself for being so slow. I decided to return there the next day as well at the same time. I waited for her there but she didn't came and I cursed myself again for loosing her forever. I had got the chance yesterday but it won't happen everyday !

I was about to leave with self loathe and hopelessly, when I caught the same scent again ! I cautioned myself, I shouldn't do anything stupid in excitement and scare her away. She came and gathered the dried wood and went back. I followed her in my man form and got her address.

And ever since I have been following her and keeping an eye on her safety. I know everything happening in her life.

I even kept an eye on my family to know if they miss me, but to my dismay they don't give a fuck if their elder son is missing. What kind of parents aren't worried about their kid ? Her parents loved her more than her life but...

Oh, here she comes... So, she does know I am here somewhere. Yeah, not sure but, she is telling me what she felt about me. What... She... She is getting married to... Petric ?

My rascal brother ! Are all the men in the world dead ? Why does she have to marry him ? This can't be happening. He is a proud bastard as my father was, then how come he is getting married to her ? He is definitely planning something.

He can't... Nobody can... I imprinted on her ! She is my to be mate... What am I even talking about ?That's in my world, the humans aren't even aware of such things ! And I can't even rip that bastard's head off for even thinking about marrying my impression, because for that she needs to know it first and have to accept me as her mate !

If it was any wolf, he would have been dead by now for even thinking this, but I can't do anything in it now. And she is ready to marry him so, I definitely can't do anything. I guess I have to let her go.

Yes, but I won't stop looking for her. I'll always be there for her if she needs me. I'll wait for her if anything happens to her husband... Anything can happen. He passes from this way, any wild animal can rip his heart off !

What is wrong with me ? Doesn't matter if I hate him, but he is still my brother. I can't kill him ! Yes, I can't... But anyone from my pack can easily kill him. What am I thinking ?

Do I regret thinking this way ? No ! Am I ashamed of myself for feeling this rage against my own brother ? No ! He has ruined my life forever and I have every right to feel or think this way for him. He have never loved me. He had always found me his enemy and rival.

What wrong have I done to him ? Why is it everytime something good happens to me and he have to snatch it from me ? He snatched my family from me and now, he is snatching my would be mate from me !

I don't know how am I gonna live without a mate ! As a wolf we can only imprint once and I have imprinted on her and I can't have anyone else as my mate for my whole life. And this is different thing but I love her and I can't watch her being someone else's wife !

But there's nothing I can do except taking her care as I have been doing since forever. Bye my love. And yes, I love you too. More than anyone could ever love you.

Why god why ? Why this happens to me ? Why can't I get what I want ? Why does that bastard have to take away everything I want ? Why is my life so miserable ?

I met her in my childhood and my father didn't allowed me to talk to her. My brother hated me so much, he took away my family from me and now taking away the love of my life !

I had planned to tell her I exist and love her. I was gonna ask her to accept my love and be with me forever but...

Why my love, why ? Why did it had to be this way ? You confessed your feelings and raised my hopes of having you for my entire life and the very next moment you tore my heart ! It would have been better if you haven't come here today and stopped coming without telling me ! At least it wouldn't have broke my heart this way !