Thanks , I hate it.

I'm running again , from the things I'm not strong enough to face or the things I choose not to be strong enough for.

Jedi groans as my mind places it back in the present moment and Jedi stops As I chuckle , as I taste the sweet memory again , Hudson our Uncle , a company you're honoured to have , he called for me one day , Duverein knocks on the window to let me know , the steps of the staircase layered down to the hallway , the chandelier shining right silver and evening breeze that hit my neck and my body shivers in response , Hudson gave me a smile and Duverein next to me smiled back , as I stare at them in suspicion , my ears are greeted with a whiny horse's happy heigh echoed as Jedi entered my life , my little brown sunshine , I was 13 then , little did he know he saved my life.

His movements indicated he craves a rest as I step down and take a glance at Jedi before setting my eyes to the sunlight setting in the rain , at times like this when my insides are on the verge of coming out and my throat turns sour and my thoughts are overwhelming as tears start to form , I connect my forehead to Jedi's , I secretly feel his hairs especially mane needs to be cut short a bit .

My eyes wandering around adjusting to all the bright colours mixed in a tulip field , leaving shoeprints behind , I'm in the middle of tulips , I wonder how broken one needs to be to radiate happiness to others in addition to everyone , my fingertips outline the red tulip , the only red one among all yellow's 'You feel like an outcast don't you , trust me , I feel it too' as I take my seat right beside it , I know I'll get some words from Heather when I return , how can you dirt the off white dress all in mud and smell , for a moment I shut down my thoughts .

Tears escape her eyes , it starts to rain , I feel as if her sadness is unbearable by the abode , the clouds weep in union .

'This is why I surround myself with people all the time or get engaged in something , because once the curtain falls down and the Princess play ends , I break down , this is why I hate silence , in the moments of observing our breathing patterns and heart contractions , I fall apart , in the moments of quiet thoughts , I wanna die , in sweet moments of life , my subconscious reminds me of odd after even.' I look at her shaken figure , the white of her dress turning brown of the mud , the tulips surround her but you can only see her beauty , she's carbon under pressure.

'Aera , Guess who' I shout and wait for some good three minutes to give her time to adjust into reality , her head turns and you just can't even imagine she can be broken , her smile holds power over the sunshine.

'Almighty , It's you , Danny' her hands disappears in her dark brown coat with beige shaded inside pockets , in effors to hide and control her hands that shake when she stresses too much .

'Yes , My Grace , it's your little Rose ' Erasing the distance between both of us , I reach out to hold her hand from her pocket , my fingertips trace her wrist as my mind hints the difference in our body temperatures , which means she was overthinking and couldn't sleep . Trying my best not to make the grip tight for her wrist Softly I slip my hand into hers , her fingers interlocking mine . I head forward to take her to my carriage so she can say it. Atleast to me.

'Where are we going , Danny ' her eyes still lying to me as I hold her close 'We need to talk' , I laugh in my subconscious , I know she gets really thoughtful on this question and starts to romanticise all the outcomes , it's a good way to distract her from her intoxicated brain that works way too hard.

' Daniel Vanidestine , what does this mean' , I shrug him off 'Just call me Danny ' a shyly smile curves at his lips , I take a hold on myself and get out of his embrace .

'My Queen , After all these years of knowing you , what do you expect me to do when I can really sense your heart breaking in pieces if there were any pieces left yet to break in smaller sizes , You know I can observe better , just please , please don't hide your flaws from me , ever ' his honey coated words melts the memories and I hide my face in his Autumn aesthetic knit coat , warm enough but not comfortable.

Escaping from his embrace again , I take a deep breath and sigh.

'You really do love Escapism , Princess' she half smiles and turn to look for Jedi , her definition of Serendipity . Her horse groans again and she chuckles and head over to slightly move her hands to his back as a form of gratitude. Albertine did say it right , Horse riding is her only path of escape. At times I wonder is she's safe in her own home with her own people but I'm assure knowing Hudson's presence .

I've known Danny since we were kids , we had a great weekend to perform once in a royal family event which guested almost all Kingdoms on our invites and I was requested to dance with him by my aunt ,the entire performance changes the air of the palace . I've known him for too long which is the reason I can't speak my heart out even if I wanted to .

Walking down in the Palace , My ears tell my brain it's Piano , so nicely being played , you just wanna sit and listen , wait I know this is a song from my favourite 1.5Year - a play , the song is, wait what were the lines ,

~And I'll be there with you

When

You're lonely

You're sad

You're alone ,

But tell me was it love

Love love love ,

Could it be love ,

Was it real love

What is love?

Humming silently she shouts in excitement 'It's Could it be Love , what a masterpiece'

her eyes widening in realisation she said it way too loud and she is panic stricken when her hazel eyes met a pair of Brown eyes .

'Love , love , love

Tell me what is the feeling of us

What I've been feeling is it love

Or what I felt is considered love

I'll be with you in Springs to watch flowers bloom

And in winters to fall

And I promise when you fall you'll be in my arms

Love , love , love .' his silhoutte turned to Aerowen's direction as she gasps and his sweet little laugh fills the hallway , 'Plays like that are a treasure , have to say , you have a good taste , Princess' .

'Oh my Friend , Archer Vanidestine' he stretches his hand to meet with Archer's for a handshake . While Archer smiled and his face reflecting pure happiness , he proceeds to say ' Good to see you and Aerowen , he is Aries Brown'.