CHAPTER 15
CHAPTER 15
DYLAN BORNSTORM
AS SOON AS FINISHED THE RECORDINGS of the first album, the big parties and events began. They played in all kinds of places, from small bars to events with thousands of people. For Dylan, no matter where he sang, he wanted more and more...
I was addicted to singing... — to getting people's attention...
It was something that filled the void in my heart...
Dylan kept going out with Billy, so he knew he wasn't going out with girls — who were just a figment of my imagination.
Just before the tour started, the band received a blow that was completely hard for them to accept, David, the band's main songwriter and leader decided to leave, he had other plans and couldn't go on the road with them.
— You are crazy? — Billy shouted — after all we've been through to get here, you jump off the boat...
Billy tried to advance on David, but Dylan got in front of him and hugged him away from David.
— One day you'll understand what I'm talking about, I met a very special person...
— John Lennon had also met a very special person, so the Beatles broke up, man, wake up...
— Stop the drama, go, Billy — Paul said trying to appease.
— Sorry guys, but I think I'm out of what you want for the future, for a long time I invested in the band, we managed to reach the top of the world, but I think I have another way to go.
Billy held on as long as he could.
After finishing the meeting, David went to give Billy a hug and he punched him that made David fall.
— You're a weakling — shouted Billy as Paul held him — you'll never be anyone in life without us, and forget it, that door will never open for you again.
David stood up a little dizzy, wiped the blood from his mouth, then spat out the side.
— I don't want fame, Bill, I just want to be happy, and that's why I can't stay with you, I know this kind of thing is just beginning, goodbye...
Seeing David walk out that door made Dylan's heart completely bitter, he knew that David was the brains of the band, everything had worked out because of him.
— Let's rehearse — Billy said, — we've got a band to put in the Hall of Fame.
AT THAT TIME DYLAN STARTED dating a model named Jude Brown — she was his agency's favorite model, and at almost every show in Europe — and without a doubt the most beautiful woman Dylan could date in his entire life — until that moment.
She was extremely sensitive, it didn't even seem like she was the product of an absurdly capitalist world, maybe she did it just for money, but she was a very simple person with simple tastes.
She started going to all the band's shows — it was her first country tour. Dylan was very excited about it all, despite David's departure. His brother ended up accepting the proposal to be the manager, because everyone in the band already knew him, and everyone liked him a lot, but Dylan didn't comment to anyone that the idea was David's, Billy couldn't even hear about his ex-companion.
THEY PLAYED IN ALL THE BIG CAPITALS and concert halls in the United States — in other countries as well — such as England, Paris, Australia, Japan among other countries.
Dylan never did it for money, in fact, the least he saw in his entire life was money.
His brother managed everything for him, if he wanted something, he asked his brother directly. He never cared about that, he lived with Billy so he could always have the security of not going back to delirious things again, but his biggest fear is that it all would once again be a delusion, but he knew it wasn't, because he had your brother who would never let me down.
ONCE DYLAN CALLED Jude Monique, she asked who Monique was, Dylan couldn't hide it from her, despite liking Jude more than he liked Monique, he ended up telling her the truth.
Jude was extremely upset with him, a week later it ended with Dylan claiming it was impossible to live with someone divided.
His biggest fear at that moment was that it would start all over again, but with the madness of the tour, Dylan didn't have time to think about it, and another, Billy always said that there were more women than men in the world, and that it wasn't for me to worry. not with that...
Woman would never lack for us...
Really he was right, once again, I didn't know if he was a philosopher or a prophet, but everything he said came true, and Billy spoke so well that it comforted him.
Every time I was single, I dated several girls at the same time, many of them I didn't even know the name of — almost all of them to be honest — we just enjoyed the time we spent together.
Billy took everything as a joke, stuffed himself with cocaine and then said he didn't care to know their names...
It created less remorse for him...
Dylan always wanted to know if Billy really cared about those girls, or if he didn't do it to show someone, or even himself, that he was capable of anything in life, but we never talked about it.
BILLY ALWAYS MADE FUN of Dylan, as he woke up countless times with his dreams of Monique. He always said that this girl was making him paranoid, that he lost the best girl in the world because of this Monique and that it was time to bury the past, because if she didn't want him, it's because he really didn't deserve her contempt and didn't even your disaffection towards me.
He really was a crazy addict, but deep down he was absolutely right, it was time to bury the past with Monique once and for all.
I foolishly lost Jude because of her, what else would I have to lose to learn to forget about her?
Dylan didn't want to lose anything else in that life, he had already lost his own pride, the most beautiful woman in the world...
And would she still take my whole life to the hole?
He could never accept that.
Dylan tried countless times to reach Jude, but their schedules were always full. The more he tried to get closer to her, the more his schedule with the band and advertising grew.
They were the band of the moment "ACROSS", that alone was reason enough to fill the nightclubs and stadiums.
Dylan always wanted to know what it felt like to be at these events with all the biggest bands in the world, and this time he was there.
He met all the biggest rock and blues bands in the world. The feeling of being in their midst was sensational.
JON VON DOILE — the drummer — played with a very famous country singer named Brooke Weenighan — it was right at the time his parents divorced — as he didn't play many shows in his city anymore. His father started making other kinds of excuses for his mother, but she ended up finding out all about them, but Dylan didn't want to get involved in all that.
Dylan decided to go out with her after much insistence from Jon, he knew that Jon was very centered in his life, and wouldn't get him into any trouble — as Billy always did. But it was exactly with her that Dylan started smoking and using drugs, there was no way to say no, she was extremely convincing, seductively diabolical, because everyone in the band used it — except him and his brother —, Michael even used it for a good while. time, but after Jonathan was born he decided to stop that altogether and dedicate himself to his family, but Dylan had no family, he was far from all that, his life was now his success.
The song Brooke sang with the band on the new album was a worldwide hit, going from mid — range band aiming for the top to a money — making machine. They didn't play in nightclubs anymore, only in stadiums — or places with a great capacity of audience concentration —, particularly Dylan couldn't take it anymore, he was very tired.
IN THE BEGINNING... using drugs even helped him, but after a while, cocaine began to do much more harm than good, because those sensational trips he made in the beginning, took a long time to happen. That feeling of happiness was also a thing of the past.
The stage performances improved a lot, because even he didn't know what he was doing anymore, he released his all on stage — as if he was possessed by some musical spirit.
When the tour for the second album ended, Brooke dropped him, but Dylan didn't even remember how it all went, he just remembered that she left without saying anything and never came back.
Maybe it was even better that way...
THE BAND RECORDED THE THIRD ALBUM live in New York, they rehearsed like crazy, because the fashion was to record live, and have all the emotion of a show.
It was amazing, it was supposed to be a one of a kind thing if it wasn't for Billy overdose on the very last song.
The night before, Billy broke the whole hotel room when David was showing a concert on television, honestly, no one in the band imagined that he would be able to be so successful with the songs he initially showed the band, but the way he was playing now was completely different, the musicality he had, it had been a long time since Dylan had heard such a good sound.
As soon as Billy was rescued, they sang the last song without him, and sang some more of his hits so the crowd wouldn't disperse too much because of what happened.
Dylan had no idea that this would be the last show with his best friend.
To this day Dylan blames himself for not going with him in the ambulance.
The paramedics said that Billy only asked where Dylan was. It was very painful for Dylan to hear that, not because of the band, but because of the friend he lost without being able to say goodbye… without being able to be by his side when he needed his support the most.
Dylan wanted to die too, he didn't care about anything else in this life anymore.
AT BILLY'S BURIAL, Dylan saw Brooke, but she treated him like he was a complete stranger to her...
Dylan returned the favor.
The next day, the whole band got together to make a decision, the band couldn't break up, they had just recorded the best album up to that point, and Billy had left two more unreleased albums recorded in the studio.
We couldn't jump ship — it certainly wasn't what Billy wanted — the band was his life and ours too — so we decided to stick with the band until we finished everything Billy had left for us...
With David's refusal to play with the band again, which was already imaginable, Dylan started playing guitar in Billy's place, but it wasn't the same.
Billy had an energy that was unique to him on stage, although the crowd didn't see any difference — they felt it.
Our leader and great friend was sadly gone...
At that time, Dylan was deep in drugs, he didn't want to know anything else.
That's when the illusions came back in full force.
Every time Dylan used cocaine, he felt like all his childhood friends were with him at the same time, apart from Monique's ghosts, and now Billy's...
THOSE TRIPS WERE SO TIRING and stressful, it wasn't easy for Dylan to see everyone in the band with their families and him there, alone, with no one by his side. Like it or not, it was easier when Billy was around, at least someone to motivate him to come out of his agony.
When Tony Watson appeared in Dylan's life, it was without a doubt the closest imagination to Monique had ever come across.
It came exactly on the days when he made the decision to kill himself.
When Dylan came close to the act, she would appear and hug him, as if he were a wife.
Everyone in the band thought he had gone crazy, because the performances on stage, were real spectacles aside, he jumped, threw himself in the audience, he just wanted those three tours to end as soon as possible, so he would be free of Billy's ghost in your life.