Chapter 44

　　PHOENIX

　　After I don’t know how fucking long…

　　Life is a fucking bitch! Why if you may ask because my life is a bitch. And I fucked up pretty bad, but I don’t fucking care anymore. It doesn’t make any sense, I know.

　　My brother, cousins, and friends loathed me. Mom ignored me. I was sure my Princess was cursing me to death. Who won’t? When I left them without a single word. But none of them understood why because none of them had guessed what I did was worse than the loathing they felt for me. None of them had guessed how I desperately needed to see just a glimpse of Samantha. No one else had guessed how deep the cut in my heart compared to my previous broken heart.

　　But I did it for her own good before I could hurt her more, and I knew I would one day. I had no choice but to end what we’d just started before the cut would get too deep.

　　Lucky me, I had been practicing to be numb years ago, and I was back to the old me, and so far, I had been pretty successful doing that.