near death?

a few seconds ago I jumped from the window which was easy to jump from, but the place jumped from is scarier.

right before I jumped I heard those two talk about using alexander weakness which is me.

I am still confused about whether to trust them or not, they are like walking bombs near me any miss and they will explode.

I was starting to trust Lazarus and even made my heart agree that he threw me in the sea to get me back.

but the moment I was on to trust him a bit, I heard their talk and the worse thing was that he searched for every information on me.

he gives the vibe of a stalker and I am scared that they will hurt me if they know my behavior pattern.

'i have to do something'

I thought during the time between the talk and the time they reached in my room but...

' they need me to learn but what can they do if I die?'

the thought that evolved in my mind and then when they talk ended and the time they reach the room.

I tiptoed to the chair and the place I made to jump, I used to be loved and they never hurt me.

I am tired of this sudden change I still can't get used to the fact that oi has to bear that new royal family.

I want a break but in my break, I met ava and Lazarus who also ended up in the same way as before.

betrayal, betrayal is all I get from all I know, I wonder when ash and brother will betray me.

looks like the curse everyone taunted me of was true, I am no good. I always have betrayal and hatred.

An example of it is that my so-called best friend Venya Mathew, the only orphan friend of mine.

a friend willing to kill me for Orion, I don't want him but everyone thinks that I love my throne and tittle more.

'no one listens to me, I want dad back, take away my title I won't feel sad'

a sob left my mouth and a lone tear a cute traitor left my eyes which was wiped quickly.

ava and Lazarus entered the room making me go in shock for time being, they also looked shocked.

both were frozen by seeing me near the window and also on the chair, the shock was normal.

because after waking up I still have that much power in y book can be a shock no doubt.

a secret to it is a bolt, my sprirty hehe I changed his name from spirit animal to spirity.

'bolt let me enough energy to jump'

I thought while connecting my mind link to bolt and kind of awakening him to let me power.

'are you on suicide mission again?'

he said with a sad voice which made me think and wonder if I missed a thing about the spirit animal

'huh how can he know'

I thought while cutting the link with a bolt but unknowingly the link was connected to my mind rays.

'i can hear your thoughts, ideas and even see what you are seeing'

bolt told me shocking the hell out of me and then I was more hurt that I got no privacy in my life.

I was uncertain on hat to do. I have too much pressure on my shoulder, I doubt that I will be able to survive it.

I am too weak to survive in this place and race of power people, last time I got power with me.

this time I am truly powerless with the burden to take revenge and acquire magic, even if that is black.

I tried my level best to find a solution to find me power, even stumbled on with ava.

I passed trail because I thought I will acquire power and save my brother and people of the kingdom.

now I feel like I took a wrong step and regret trusting people, my heart is crushed, I don't know how will I end up.

I cant become a monster or a weapon to ava or Lazarus to use on my brother, to keep my brother safe I will jump.

'bolt are you with my decision'

I thought and connected to bolt and told him more like asked him whether he will support me or not.

'i have no other choice, but remember you die, I die along'

hearing blot words hurt me badly, now it's not my life but blot life is also in my hands.

'well hoe about we scare them?'

bolt asked while I can feel him smirking at that thought, he is evil and he changed in an instant

'huh how what and where'

I asked my questions curiously and even showed my excitement that I can scare them so they won't threaten Alex.

'bingo lets do, jump down Selena, don't ask do as I say'

he told me that and supplied me enough power to jump from a tower height and I did as told.

"if I can't leave this place I better die"

I said a statement before I jumped and that statement made both ava and Lazarus run towards me.

the both shouted at e and ruined towards me, Lazarus ran towards me using his vampire speed and ava flew.

I didn't let them get near me and jumped straight away, I was looking down at my fate when I heard a shout

"Nooo!!!"

it was a shout from ava, I looked at ground seeing those edgy rocks which can take my life away.

I am seeing my death in front of me, I am terrified honestly, but just because they want to hurt my brother.

I cant become a bit to them, I better kill myself than let my brother be hurty bad people.

I suddenly feel a gravity pull and felt like time stopped, I opened my eyes to peak on what happened.

I can see rocks near my face but I am not hitting them I feel like I am floating in the air, suddenly I saw my nightmare.

Lazarus was right in front of me and then as he appeared the floating in the air stopped and I feel down.

I felt like I will get a scratch at least or something that hit me and scares them a bit nut the opposite happened.

Lazarus saved me the last minute and avoid me getting hut, I fell on top of him and he is not better than rock.

I stood up and while standing up I picked a rock along and using that I hit his head again.

"ouch lady, stop hitting me"

Lazarus yelled ta me after hitting him again and again till he loses consciousness or is unable to hunt me.

"lady no matter if I am a vampire or not it hurts"

he stopped my hand after pleading for last time and then overthrew me and told me.

"do you like hitting me so much that in one day you hit me twice"

he told me with a smirk playing on his face making me feel the urge to wipe that damned smirk off his face.

I feel like he is the fruit od the bad deed in this life I always heard that God punishes people in the afterlife and current life as well.

"let me go"

I told Lazarus while hitting him with all the power in my fidt and me ht his chest the place the heart is.

but instead of letting me go, he holds me tightly and engulfed me in a hug while whispering my ears

"Selena we won't hurt you"

his words triggered me and I hit him again while yelling at him and crying my hearts out.

"yeah I save with people who searched on brother and captured me to hurt him"

I yelled at him with all my might and hit him using the power bolt gave me and hit him in one spot nonstop.

he stared breathing heavily which made me feel like he will die and that shock made me stop hitting.

I was so busy hitting that I didn't notice that I missed my chance to run thanks to Lazarus.

I felt wind up I feel fast and looked above to see that ava is here making me think

'wow clean you lost the chance of escape, I am crazy why get distracted'

I thought and my mind was racing when I glared at Lazarus and then ava landed like a queen.

she noticed what happened and then clicked her tongue in displeasure then said with a smile.

"like I guessed she jumped on conclusion early"

ava told me with a smile and then once again got behind me and I was suspicious something is going to happen.

'yes I was right'

I felt a needle penetrate,y neck making me feel dizzy and my mind blurred and I lost the track of time and felt in arms of someone.