CHAPTER 23: Worst decision of my life, best night of my life

I stand there, in the middle of his living room, awkwardly, while I wait for Allen to take off his shoes and finally to just tell me to go to sleep. But that's not what he does. And that is also not what I want anyway.

I can feel him standing behind me. Hot breath on the back of my head. He places his hands on both of my shoulders, slowly trailing down my arms. He grips my arm firmly, turning my body around so we're facing each other. I'm not resisting. I can't even think, my mind is so clouded right now, so how am I supposed to resist? I guess I drank more than I realized.

I stare into his clouded eyes, closing my own when he leans and finally claims my lips softly. I no longer feel the guilt. All I can feel is longing and hunger. Hunger for more of him. His kiss. His touch. His everything.

He tugs on my body and I throw my arms around his neck, pulling him closer. The kiss becomes desperate, more urgent. He groans as I open my mouth for his tongue to enter. Unconsciously, he grinds his lower half onto mine, making me groan as well. I can feel his throbbing bulk underneath his jeans. My own body gets hotter as he slides his hands under my shirt, clawing my back.

Soon, we find ourselves struggling to take our clothes off and staggering over the bed. I stumble and fall backwards onto the bed where he soon hovers over me and claims my lips in a more hungry kiss. Allen holds me and kisses me, shifting our bodies so we lay right on the bed. That's when he starts to attack my neck.

I let out a loud moan then clasped my hand over my mouth, embarrassed. "Don't." he whispers in my ear, with ragged breath, rubbing his throbbing erection against my own. "Let me hear you." He asks, well, more like demands, actually. But that get me so hot, so I let my mouth go and instead, I find comfortable grips with his hair as I pull him for another kiss.

I can feel Allen's smile through the kiss. He grinds against me again before pulling away from my lips and back to my neck, nibbling it. I moan, wriggling my body from the unfamiliar, yet, electrifying sensation. I gasp and let out another moan, louder this time, when he trails kisses down my chest and claims one of my nipples in his mouth, nibbling and sucking on it.

My mind is so clouded right now. I am terrified yet I can't help but want more. I keep moaning and whimpering as Allen settles himself between my legs, caressing every inch of my body with his fingers, sending jolts of electrifying pleasures all over my body. I gasp and well, I think my eyes fall out of its sockets when Allen starts to strip my pants down, leaving only the briefs. He stares at me. I bite my lip and try not to tear my gaze away from him. Especially when he strips his own pants down. And boxers.

I gasp and bite my lips harder. He's... impressive... I feel hotness creep to my face as I stare at his twitching erection. I unconsciously lick my lips when he tugs on my briefs, slowly pulling it down my legs. I raise my hips slightly, assisting him and he throws my briefs on the floor. I turn my head away, completely embarrassed. Being exposed like this. Revealing everything I am. To a guy I only knew for a few weeks.

I feel hot breaths on my face when Allen leans down and cups my cheek with one hand, turning it slowly so I will look into his eyes. He kisses my lips softly when I do. I gasp and moan when his other hand clasps my erection and he starts to stroke it, slowly, painfully slow.

He keeps stroking me, a little faster with each passing moan that escapes my lips. His hungry kiss distracts me as he slides a finger into my hole. I moan and shift uncomfortably from the unfamiliar and weird sensation.

I can feel his finger exploring the insides of my body, stroking places that when touched, sends me an electric jolt throughout. I hear him curses under his breath and I gasp as he slides another finger in, this time, I moan louder and bite my lip from the slight sting. "Shit, Levi," Allen curses in my ear. I throw my hands around him, clawing at his back as he once again stirring my insides.

I drop back to the bed, this time clenching the sheet with my fingers as his fingers work their way in and out of my body roughly. I gasp and arch my body, throwing my head back when he enters the third fingers. It hurts and feels uncomfortable. He curses as I moan when his fingers start to move again. The other hand is still stroking my throbbing erection. The combination of those two actions gets me whimpering and writhing with pain and pleasure, mixing up with unfamiliar urgency as I thrust my hips up, urging his hands to work faster.

"Shit," Allen curses again, sliding out his fingers from inside of me. I pant and bite my lips as I adjust to the feeling left by his fingers. A scream gets caught in my throat when a bigger, hotter thing forcefully enters me.

"A... Allen..." I pant his name, arching my back, gripping the sheet tightly with my fingers until they're numb.

"Levi," He breathes my name huskily, gripping my waist gently and starts to move. I almost scream again but instead, I let out a whimper and a very lustful moan that I never knew I could produce.

Despite the pain, I can feel my body getting hotter and hotter with each violent thrust. Arching my back, I raise my hips slightly, taking in more of him, earning me a very low and very sexy growl from Allen. He raises my hips higher and leans down to kiss me. My toes curl up and I keep writhing in pain and pleasure, not sure which one makes me moan louder.

As I feel myself getting closer to the peak of the pleasure, I demand more from him. I want more of everything he is giving me. I want more pleasure. I want more pain. I want more of him and he knows it.

I pant, hard. My whole body aches.

Now I've done it. I've ruined everything. I thought as Allen's body fell on top of mine.