opening My eyes

Its just another day at the questu possibile post of my life the world put me through the ringger so at 26 getting outta bed feles like im 106.

i shake My head rub My eyes role over and hug My mr sally dog heres My service medical aleet and assist partner die My seizures for My tiney grande of 5"2 and 100 pounds soaking wet you wouldn't believe the damage i do during an episode.

slowly im waking up i tell myself as i drift back to sleep pertinet sallys brown soft fur soothing away My anxietys suo much that before i know it.

im there in a black abyss watching this light brown hair and hazel eyed tiny framed with speckles of scars in her arms neck an her face si familiare but i cant place it.. shes darting her glance to her feet an then the distance eyes growing more an more frantic and then i hear momma momma where did you go why did you leave do you not love me momma why don't you move me? as the Voice drifts i hear her say but i do love you i do i was trying to keep you safe please come back anne then there is a man of a sledder framea starting to pick her up she sighs starts to grin then a look crosses his face like hes holding a veniomous snake and half drops half throughs hee she lands splayed out on the ground his hurt eyes look at her she is starting to speak he says you where the only one i tristes i hope it was wish it as he turba and walks away shes screaming but i didn't do it richy i didn't i swear in My son please he starts to fade to shes broken sobbing on the ground i realize that girl is me the realizariin seems to triggers a change now. she looks open eyes bout to pio outshes looking behind me

i turn and freeze there is no sounds or wind but Theresia a tonato on Water above a whirl pool going to the Ocean floor drawn to it as i watch My Self from the girl that is me her eyes sting. watching me walk to the edge of the Water as it parts she keeps walking im following trying falling to comand all of our legs to stop then i see something and shes frozen in front of me i Take a few more steps to see the chest with 200 pounds of chain and rough Iron locks the box looks like Its Iron to but something omnious about its presants then it starts jumping thrashing to and fro something inside Its pissed trying to get out .she gets swept up by the tonado i hear her scream run. to late though the Water crashes down on me i hold My breath i cant find up its dark My lugs are burning i wake up startled coughing choked by Water that isnt there but i taste the salt.....

to be continued