Awakened (end & beginning)

Regardless of what happened, now Chunyin only hopes that Xiang-er's life is happy, even if it means not being with him. At least in this second life, Chunyin could see her Xiang-er smiling, unlike her old life which had suffered so much.

Chunyin was a little self-conscious.

Perhaps the purpose of fate toying with him by having him reincarnated in the same world as Xiang Lian was to tell him, that in any life they were not destined to be together. He was only destined to meet and then part. Whether it's separated by death or because the heavens don't approve.

Chunyin could only surrender and surrender to fate. That was all he could do now. Trying to be a stranger and starting a new life as Zhang Chunyin a novelist.

At least, he could write a lot of fictional stories in which are filled with amazing things and beautiful endings, although all of this Chunyin did knowing that she was running away from reality because fate didn't allow her to have Xiang Lian.

But, it seems fate still wants to have fun with Chunyin. He invites Chunyin to dance with him. Not long ago reality scratched a deep wound, fate again sprinkled salt on the wound.

The day after the happy news of An Jia Li's marriage to Jiang Yi. Two days later news of them broke again with great sadness.

The news contained a notification of an accident that had killed the two newly married couples. the couple was none other than An Jia Li and Jiang Yi who died instantly at the scene.

Dead.

Fate had killed him again.

In two lives, Chunyin had to see Xiang Lian's death again.

Chunyin really seemed to have lost the meaning of her life. Previously he had intended to live as a writer, where he would direct his stories to An Jia Li indirectly because his Xiang-er really liked reading fantasy novels, but now An Jia Li had left.

Who else is he writing for?

The spirit and purpose to continue writing is gone. His Xiang-er was gone again from his life.

Chunyin was desperate. He no longer had anyone in this world, even Jiang Yi his brother and the only family he had had also left him. Although Jiang Yi to Chunyin is just a role that fills the family void for Chunyin who always longs for a life with a family.

But once again, fate took everything that was precious by his side. Fate took and made him come back alone. Chunyin even felt foreign to herself.

The reason for his life was gone.

The meaning of his life has disappeared.

His only family had been snatched away.

Slowly he faded away.

Chunyin decides to end her life with Tired and hopes her existence disappears.

"I may not know everything about you, but out of hundreds of millions of women, I choose you. You are my only love. I will never forget you even if my body and soul disappear. Not with my feelings for you"

Chunyin felt an intense pain hit her head which seemed to have been twisted and beaten. A voice before he woke up buzzed in his ears. Those were his last words to his Xiang-er before he ended his life.

So many memories swirled around in his head like a whirlwind that ruffled all the contents of Chunyin's head. Whether it's the memories of his old life or his new life. What is clear is that the fast-paced memories are overlapping memories from two lives, namely the news of the death of a woman named An Jia Li as well as how she ended her life, and how Xiang Lian died. Two lives and two deaths.

"Wh-!"

Chunyin didn't finish her sentence. He kept the hysterical words out of his mouth.

He was startled and became dazed as if he had just woken up from a very long dream.

"I should be dead... what is this?!"

Chunyin rolled her eyes looking around and quickly felt a sense of déjà vu, which he felt the same way when she woke up as Chunyin in her second life.

Chunyin massaged her head because he felt dizzy. he thinks with many questions. When he opened his eyes, he felt so dazed and confused. Everything that swirled in his head was like a dream that passed quickly. However, Chunyin quickly woke up from her dream which was not a dream. It was a Long truth that felt wrong.

Chunyin looked at her outstretched hand because it was dazzled by a light from the lamp that looked quite luxurious, even the ceiling was no less luxurious with its intricate carvings. The light from the lamp made his eyes hurt quite a bit as if Chunyin had just emerged from the darkness after being immersed in it for so long.

Everything is real now. He remembered very well that what was spinning in his head earlier was not a dream.

"What happened?. I... I'm alive again?!" said Chunyin. It is clear that no one will answer that question.

Chunyin got up from the luxurious bed she was sleeping on and tried to digest it all again.

"I should be dead," he muttered again. He still couldn't believe what had happened to him so Chunyin looked back at his hands and sensed that he wasn't a spirit wandering around after death.

Try to calm down. Chunyin tried to do the same as herself awakened as Chunyin. He looked carefully at everything around him. For one thing, he immediately knew when he woke up in a room, even though it was not an ordinary room because the carvings and items in the room were quite similar to the furniture in his old life, namely the room in Long Feng's palace that was untouched. another was the palace in his empire. It's just that all the ornaments in the room I currently occupy are so different.

Everything in his room right now was identical to the colors white, blue, silver, and gold. Very sunny. Contrary to the colors in Long Feng's palace which were more identical to dark colors.

"Where exactly is this?. Am I reincarnated again?" asked Chunyin. He was curious and walked to a large mirror that was there to see himself.

As soon as he looked in the mirror. Chunyin was shocked beyond play. Even his body froze as soon as he saw his reflection in the mirror.

His face turned dark. The veins around his temples bulged, his eyes wide open in disbelief. Instantly emotions ignite. Chunyin clenched her fists so tightly that her veins constricted.

Chunyin was furious and felt deep hatred at the same time.

"What is destiny planning!. What does the heavens want to do to me?!"

Chunyin couldn't contain her emotions, so she punched the big mirror impatiently – hitting her reflection in the mirror as soon as she saw the face and body of the person she hated in her old life.

"This bastard!"

Chunyin cursed fate. He thought, how could he be reborn in his old life with the body of a Li Xi who he hated so much for killing Xiang Lian.

Instead of reincarnating in a different body and world. Chunyin actually returned to live in her old life where she was supposed to be a Feng emperor, but now fate was still playing with her by turning her life around a bit. He had to redo his old life as the Li Xi he hated.

Not just a rival, but Li Xi's status as a murderer of her lover.

Chunyin was still irritably standing in front of the shattered mirror. Nothing else reflected the image of him that was inside Li Xi's body, it was just that hatred was so clearly reflected on his face at this moment.

His hatred for Li Xi had seeped into his soul.

Knock ... tock ... tock ....

"Who!" said Chunyin who was still in a gloomy mood and was too sensitive to just answer the sound of a knock on the door that came from someone outside.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to disturb Your Majesty. I sent a message for you" said a servant behind the door of Emperor Li's room. His voice trembled, even he hastily prostrated himself and spoke full of mercy to Chunyin at this time.

All the royal staff knew the nature of Emperor Li Xi who was so temperamental when he was angry, even his anger could be more sinister than Emperor Feng who had the nickname demon emperor in the next empire.

Chunyin took a breath. He had to be natural so as not to cause any fuss and weirdness to grab everyone's attention right now because he still had to calm himself down. Considering his current self should behave like Li Xi.

Chunyin was quite relieved that what came to her was just an ordinary maid and not an important staff in the kingdom.

"Give the message" said Chunyin trying to be friendly like the real Li Xi.

The waiter looked scared. Her hands trembled as she passed the message scroll to Chunyin… though the maid tried her best to cover up the trembling in her hands.

When he saw the servant, Chunyin's memory of course drifted to Xiang Lian who had also been a servant in his kingdom.

Chunyin's face instantly softened. There is happiness that radiates there. He really felt reborn after seeing the year written on the scroll he had just received. Xiang Lian is still alive in the present.

Chunyin regained her composure.

"Okay, you can come back. Thank you," said Chunyin softly.

His memories of himself as the Feng emperor still lingered. About how he had treated everyone before, especially the maids whom he rarely thanked until he got to know Xiang Lian and his heart began to soften to be humble even to the servants of lower status than him. Xiang Lian's pure heart has turned him into a lowly person.

Chunyin frowned. He thought back to his current kingdom when he remembered Xiang Lian.

"If I were this damn Li Xi... then, who would be the 'me' over there?" Chunyin thought. Instantly he became confused and wondered, will he face himself one day? Chunyin confronting the Feng emperor who was her former self was very strange to think about.

It was the same night that Chunyin woke up as Li Xi. No one expected that Jiang Yi would be the one who would awaken in the body of Emperor Feng. He was reincarnated as Fengyin Haochun. Meanwhile, An Jia Li returns to her body to repeat her life as Xiang Lian.

"What does true love mean to you?"

An Jia Li opened her eyes and woke up from her slumber after a question buzzed in her head. He was as dazed as Jiang Yi or Chunyin when he just woke up. He was confused by his own condition and wondered. Where is he now? What has happened to him?

The question was not much different from Jiang Yi and Chunyin. While wondering, An Jia Li got up from her seat – she had fallen asleep on the table earlier.

He had just taken the first step, but his head was suddenly attacked by so many foreign memories.

Not!. The memory is completely unheard of. An Jia Li was well acquainted with those memories, it was just that they overlapped with so many other lives that An Jia Li was in shock.

"I live?" murmured An Jia Li still trying to sync her head which felt like she had just plugged it in after it came off.

An Jia Li walked to the mirror in the simple room and in the dim light she saw her reflection dressed as a maid in the traditional style of the past. It all looks foreign. An Jia Li has no old memories of being Xiang Lian.

End and beginning. For An Jia Li, this was her second life.

Brack!

The door to An Jia Li's room opened with a slam loud enough to reveal a young woman who was also wearing the same clothes as her.

"Xiang Lian!, do you need to disturb my sleep?. What time do you think it is?. Screaming like crazy like that!."

"Go to bed early or tomorrow morning you will receive another punishment for waking up late and not preparing His Highness Feng's morning tea!" he continued.

"I-I'm sorry! I'm going to sleep with my mouth shut!" said An Jia Li spontaneously and obediently to the person who was still standing in the doorway with his eyes still half closed because he woke up from his sleep when he heard a noise from An Jia Li's room which was right next to his room.

"Good!' The woman closed the door to An Jia Li's room again and left.

As for An Jia Li - he still stood up straight like a soldier who had just been shocked and woken up when he heard the sound of the alarm ringing, the difference was that An Jia Li closed her eyes and mouth which she did forcibly, until she felt that the woman had already left and dared to open one one eye slowly to determine whether the woman who slammed the door to her room was really gone or not.

"Miss Liu is really scary when she talks!" muttered An Jia Li dully.

a second. Two seconds. Three seconds.

A minute passed, and An Jia Li realized what she just said that she knew Miss Liu who felt close and far away.

"Miss Liu?!. Isn't that... and. What did she call me just now? Xiang Lian!?" shocked An Jia Li who was hysterical but she hastily covered her mouth. His eyes widened in disbelief. A memory before his accident flashed.

An Jia Li wakes up to her previous life where she had an accident two days after her wedding ceremony with Jiang Yi. But the thing he really remembers is a novel he once read.

"I'm in that novel?!" the surprise. An Jia Li certainly couldn't forget the story in the last novel she read in her life.

"How can... I become the royal servant Xiang Lian who will receive beheading for being slandered by Emperor Feng's favorite concubine!"