Chapter eleven

Darrel's POV

After getting the mess sorted out, we both went back to our respective rooms. I don't know but I just can't understand why I wasn't able to control myself. It was supposed to be a confession but it shouldn't have gone that far.

I paced back and forth thinking about what just happened and what she would think of me? Will she think that I'm a sex deprived man? Or I am just desperate to get under her skirt.

I have never felt this conflicted after getting intimate with any woman

But you got this same feeling when you took Kendra's virginity

That's because I loved her and we weren't married yet, and knowing her parents, they were going to act dramatic about it

And what about Cheryl??

I don't know! I don't know why I'm getting the same feeling...the fact that she was embarrassed meant she regretted it and I don't know how I'm going to face her now. Can I not fuck up for once in my life?

Ugh 😑

I still can't believe what happened a while ago did happen! I'm so sure she must me cursing me a thousand times for not being able to control myself

Damn it!

I feel so stupid! How will she see me? Will she look at me in disgust? I don't know if I should feel happy because I almost got what I wanted—to see her squirming in pleasure while I fucked her senseless

Or be sad about it because it happened too soon?

The best thing I'm going to do right now is to ignore her till I'm sure of whatever it is I'm feeling for her; because it's becoming more than just an attraction—I think...