Mate

It's been four years. Four years of constant torture and sexual abuse. By now, I was already used to it and nothing could really surprise me anymore. There is absolutely no way for me out of this world of torture. 

I'm stuck and even though a part of me still hurts, I'm mostly numb. 

It was my twentieth birthday yet I was still going through this hell.

I stood right in front of Alpha Lucas' room and I stalled. I knew what awaited me and I knew there was no escaping it yet I stalled. 

I finally knocked on his door and I heard his voice, urging me to come in. I took a calming breath and turned the knob before stepping inside. 

I curtsied. 

"Your Maje-" the words hung halfway in my throat as my eyes met his and my heart beat quickened.

I felt tingles run down my spine as he turned around and looked at me, his face mirroring the same shock mine did. 

I gasped unwillingly as we both whispered. 

"Mate" we said, uncontrollably. 

No, no, no. Of all people in the world, not him. 

I couldn't move, it felt like someone had poured cold water all over me. I wanted to scream my lungs out. 

He dropped the book he was holding on his table and rolled his eyes. 

I swallowed and bowed my head.

"Strip" he ordered and I bit my lip as his words actually did something to me this time. I quickly removed my clothes till I was butt naked. 

Lucas hated slow people. 

He stared at me, eyeing me from head to toe distastefully but the bulge in his pants said otherwise.

He motioned to me. 

"Come here" he said and I walked towards him, my breasts bouncing in the process. 

As soon as I was within arm's reach, he pulled me closer and grabbed my ass. 

He whispered. 

"Fuck" he said it like he was struggling to control himself. 

I felt my area grow wet with pleasure. I hated how my body betrayed me. I hated this man but right now, I wanted him so bad. 

He walked around me and stopped behind me. 

"Bend over" he commanded and I did, my hands immediately gripping the bed. 

I heard him unzip his trousers and he pressed his bulge against me and I let out an uncontrollable moan. 

Fuck. I had never moaned for him before. Never. I hated myself and I wanted to cry so bad but I dared not. 

He slapped my ass before putting his dick in my pussy all of a sudden. 

I gasped and moaned at the same time. He rolled his waist, adjusting himself in me and the movement sent waves of pleasure through my entire body. 

Then all of a sudden, he started ramming himself rapidly into me and I could not help the cries of pleasure that escaped my lips. I hated it so much, I hated how much my own body betrayed me. Tears pricked my eyes as he kept on ramming himself into me. 

I focused on the pain to escape the pleasure. I forced myself to stay quiet, I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of my pleasure. I bit my lips so hard, I drew blood as I forced my body to feel nothing. It wasn't something that was hard for me to do. I did everytime he had sex with me. 

I could tell I had a different effect on him as well. His suppressed moans filled the air as he reached his climax. He hurriedly withdrew and came all over my ass accompanied by a relieving moan from him. 

He slapped my ass again and pulled me up by my hair, my back flushing against his chest. 

"If you tell even one soul about it, I'll feed you to my men" he said and I swallowed in fear before he let me go. 

"Now, get out" he said and I hurriedly picked my clothes, trying to wear them as fast as possible on my way out. 

I wasn't stupid. I knew what he meant. No one must know that we were mated. I knew that was how it would play out, but it still hurt a lot. 

I took a deep, calming breath once I was outside his room and adjusted my clothes properly. 

I quickly ran to my room in the maid's quarters and cleaned myself up before I hurried back to the palace kitchen to get his breakfast. I ignored the throbbing in my thigh as I finally made it to the kitchen. 

I tried my best to ignore the snarky comments I got from other maids. Most of them hated me and the rest just ignored me. 

I hurriedly served his breakfast and carried the tray back to his room. 

I placed it on his table and left while he ignored me throughout. 

I realized I was going to be less busy for the next hour and tried to look for Mia, my best and only friend. I trusted her with my life. 

I went into the garden I was almost sure she would be in and I was right because I found her there. 

"Mia!" I called her name and she turned to me and waved her hand in the air, her hair bouncing around her shoulders as she urged me to come join her where she sat at the edge of the cast field that oversaw a lake. 

I ran to her and sat down beside her. 

"Hey bestie. What's up?" She asked and I plucked a stranger of grass from the field and fiddled with it, my mind roaming back to the realization I had a few minutes ago. 

I did not consider not telling her because she was my best friend and I told her everything. 

"I found my mate" I said and her eyes widened in shock and part excitement.

"Really?! Who is it?" She asked and I sighed sadly, tears pricking my eyes. 

"Hey hey, are you okay?" She asked as she moved closer to me and put her hands on my shoulders in support. 

"It's him. Alpha Lucas is my mate" I said and she gasped, her initial smile fading into a deep frown. 

I shook my head as hot tears fell down my cheeks. 

"Of all people, Mia. Of all people! The universe just had to screw me over. Again." I said as sobs racked my body. She immediately pulled me into a hug, as she smoothed my hair with her hand. 

"Hey, hey. It's okay" she cooed as she tried to calm me down. 

When I was eventually calm, she looked at me and smiled sadly.

"It's okay, we'll figure this out" she said and I nodded, trying to be hopeful. 

I felt much better. She always managed to make me feel that way. 

I sighed as we both lay down in the grass and relaxed again. I closed my eyes and tried to forget all my present problems.