Questions

Jesse's POV

I felt my head pounding in pain as I tried to open my eyes.

Slowly I open my eyes, blinking so I could adjust to the light in the room. 

I open my eyes widely and realized I was in Benson's room.

I closed my eyes and tried to remember everything that happened last night.

I remembered I had drink with the guys who found Lilly, and also I remembered I met jay at the club, and we even exchanged numbers.

I also remember I told the guys the direction to the house,, but I couldn't remember anything apart from that.

I hissed in relief and opened my eyes ,at least I ended up in Benson's room with my clothes still on.

I stood up from the bed and realized it was already noon.

I went into the bathroom, took a quick bath before leaving the room.

I went downstairs where I saw Benson busy with work.

We met eyes with each other and all that he said to me rang in my head.

I walk pass him and went to Lilly's room, but she wasn't there.

I went back to the sitting room and sat opposite Benson

“Where is Lilly". I asked while staring around.

"She went out with Linda". I nod my head and stood up from the couch and was about walking away when I remembered something very important.

I walk back to Benson and sat opposite him before speaking up 

"I believe you've seen the divorce papers". I spoke firmly while locking eyes with him. 

"I will like you to sign on it by tomorrow, so we can process the divorce because I'm going back to California three days from now ". I continued. 

"I don't need anything from you, just sign the documents and send it back to my lawyer". I spoke firmly and stood up from the couch and was about walking away when he stood up and blocked my path.

"You are in such a hurry, huh?"he spoke angrily 

"Yes, I'm in a hurry to get rid of you ". I replied in anger.

He took in a deep breath before speaking up 

"It's because of the guy who brought you home the other night right?".he spoke in anger 

Hearing those words from him, I realized he must have seen Daniel dropping me by.

"It's none of your business ". I replied in anger. 

He hissed and ran his fingers through his hair in Frustration before speaking up.

"What about Lilly ?".he asked 

I stared at him and realized he was trying to manipulate me with Lilly, but I won't let him.

"What about Lilly"? I asked in anger. 

He stared at me, shocked and confused by my answer.

"She isn't my daughter, just like you said, so why should I care for her ". I muttered out in anger. 

He hissed softly before speaking up 

"Stay at least for the next four months because of Lilly".

"I won't ". I replied firmly.

He stared at me for a while before speaking up 

"You don't even feel guilty for what you did ".he muttered out in anger 

I stared him and realized he was talking about what happened twelve years ago but this time I'm tired, this time I'm tired of explaining things to him and everyone

"What is there to feel guilty about". I muttered out in anger. 

He moved closer to me so that we were just an inch apart.

"What is there to feel guilty about ?".he asked in anger 

I lock eyes with him and could see the anger boiling in him, but this time I wasn't scared of him, even for a bit.

"You know I would have forgiven you if only you could just admit what you did and ask forgiveness".he declared in anger.

I chuckled softly and clap my two hands together while I stared at him with anger before speaking up 

"I should apologize for what ?". I asked in anger. 

"Tell me ". I yelled in anger. 

He stared at me but did not say a word.

"I'm tired ". I yelled at the top of my voice. 

"I'm tired of explaining to you and everyone I'm tired, and I'm giving up, I'm giving up, Benson". I shouted in frustration.

"What do you want me to say "I muttered out in anger 

"What do you want me to apologize for ". I asked in anger. 

I took in a deep breath and calm myself before speaking up 

"I just have three questions for me ". I pointed three fingers at him with anger.

I saw him stared at me with wild eyes, it was obvious he wasn't expecting me to react this way. 

"One ". I pointed one of my fingers to him. 

"That night, did you see me kissing him". I asked in anger. 

He swallowed nervously but did not say a word

"Answer me ". I yelled at the top of my voice. 

"No".he murmured 

"Very good ". I nod my head and pointed my two fingers to him. 

"Two"

"That night did you see me confessing my love to him ". I yelled in anger while staring at him. 

He gulped and avoided my gaze

"Answer me". I shouted in anger. 

All the pains, heartbreaks, and anger I've been holding for long was exploding in me 

"You have to fucking answer me, Benson". I muttered out in anger. 

"No".he murmured and ran his fingers through his hair 

"Very good ". I muttered out and took in a deep breath for my next question. 

"Three". I pointed my third fingers to him. 

"That night did you see me in bed with him?". I asked in anger.

He hissed softly and moved away from in regrets.

"Answer my fucking question, Benson". I yelled in anger. 

He roughly rubs his hands on his face in regret before speaking up 

"No". He whispered in regrets.

I took in a deep breath and closed my eyes to calm myself.

I opened my eyes and stared directly into his eyes 

"Now tell me, Benson, why should I apologize to you? Tell me Benson, tell me what I should apologize for, and watch me do it immediately ". I yelled in anger.