Chapter 3: Living as a baby

Living with a woman.

Now that was *something* I never remembered doing, like… ever. My entire life, I was a virgin. My last mother left me at the age of four, so I had close to no memory of her.

But now that I have reincarnated, everything has changed.

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I don't know why. But ever since that night I was born, and Chao Mei became my Guardian, she had taken such good care of me. I was surprised at first. I was not even her child.

However, I understood where this affection came from later in life.

The very first night, the night of my birth, she ran back to her house holding me in her arms. Then, as soon as she got home, she opened her laptop and began to search for things to buy for a baby.

Yes, from the things I saw, I guessed this was a world pretty similar to our Earth in the year 2022. Chao Mei wore fancy t-shirts, the houses were modern-ish and the so-called village was more like a neighborhood.

"Don't worry little Xin, I'll go buy your stuff right now! As you see, I am not very good at this mother stuff – and becoming one in a snap is pretty hard!"

She kept me beside the laptop and talked. Her voice hurried but caring.

Then, after writing a list of baby things to buy, she hurried to the nearest supermarket to buy everything required.

That's how I knew she is going to be… a great mother. Though, mind you, leaving a baby beside your laptop wasn't really healthy.

She had her bad parenting moments, just like I had my bad kid moments.

She always kept me beside her in bed when she went to sleep, reading stories from authors from this world – Xian. Most of them were biographies, and most of them had anime-type fights… which made me listen to every one of them quite intently.

Though, since I was a baby, I was too sleepy. My mind could not handle being awake till midnight in full moons, so I never saw my actual mother.

At night, I felt a cold chill beside me at times. So, in a way… I felt as if she was here. But also – that I was not ready to see her yet.

Weeks passed by, and my relationship with Chao Mei grew little by little. We were no longer strangers to each other, and I was no longer a man with honor. Or can a baby even be called a man?

Why?

This woman, the same age as me if you take away the fact that I was reincarnated, was the one changing my diapers. Humiliation.

I could never go take a shit alone for the past years, Chao Mei had to help me. Like, every single time for straight up 2 years.

There were times I accidentally peed on Chao Mei because of my uncontrollable bladder. Being a baby was harder than I thought.

"GAHH~ XIN! AGAIN??" Chao Mei would scream out as I wet her favorite shirt once again.

Honor wasn't an option for me anymore.

In two years, I learned more about this world…. Maybe even more than I learned about the world back on Earth.

Only months ago, I had completely grasped the language of this planet, Xianese. Then, I began to learn to write and read.

Chao Mei was completely shocked.

"Oh, God! You are a little genius! To be able to learn so quickly… just like him," she said, cheering me as she taught me to write.

I smiled. That was the first time someone called me a "Genius" to be honest. In my two lives.

So, time passed by like this, and my relationship with my new guardian, or my mother, grew. However, most of the time, I called her "Mei" by accident, rather than Mother. It felt kinda off for me to call her "Mom," knowing that she was not my real Mom, in two lives.

And damn, the most interesting part was this Chao Mei's breasts.

How can I not look at them? They were unimaginably large and I sleep in her bed; sometimes she even takes me to the bathtub and strips naked. Staring at her breasts became common behavior in the very first year and that day when I was sleeping in her bed…

I could not pull back my urge any longer.

Of course, I took precautions for this. I googled some shit about what was healthy sexual behavior for a child when she wasn't around the house. So, attempting to measure the softness of her breast was not gonna give some undivided attention to my behavior.

She was sleeping on her bed, legs spread wide.

This time, she was even cuddling me tight. My whole body was pressed against her stomach, and right above my head were the –

"Boobs."

My hands reached for the gigantic cushions above me. They were there.

Right… there. I sneakily pulled her loose shirt down, and her breast jumped right out of her shirt. She had a bad habit of not wearing bras while she slept, so – things were easy.

"Huge," my baby mouth blurted out as I perceived the giant peaks before me. With her brown nipple on top, the mere sight was one to behold.

Of course, I couldn't hold back any longer. I grasped her mountains with my tiny hands, and my hands sunk into the soft cushions. They were that plump.

Never in my virgin life had I done such a thing but as a baby… I seem to be rather more accomplished.

Once I grasped the mountains, it was too late to look down at the depths of honor.

After all, 'Honor wasn't an option for me anymore.'

So, it was time to try out this new pacifier I discovered. Playing with her breast, I opened my mouth to swallow it. And right at that moment, Chao Mei opened her eyes.

"GAH~~ Xin! What are you ~" she shot awake, and I hesitated.

To the sudden hesitation, my hands clasped the thing that I was gonna touch.

Her nipples. "Ahh!~~"

"Xin! This ~ this isn't your pacifier or your toy," she cried out, her face turning red. I lowered my eyes and sat back in the bed like I was a good boy who didn't know anything.

"Aw… you naughty boy. Hmph, just like the Xin I know. Sneaking up on my breasts without a warning always," she giggled, patting my head. She drew her shirt back up and sheathed her mountains, and I gulped.

She poked my nose and giggled. "You are a naughty-naughty."

So, I miserably failed to try out my new pacifier back then.

And so on… my childhood continued and more and more, I learned about this world.

After that boob incident, Chao Mei lifted me a lot, cuddled me more than ever before, and unlike the other times, she did not react when I squeezed her plump cushions from time to time. However, she did scream out "GAH~" and shot awake whenever I opened my mouth to try the pacifier. I still didn't know why exactly she didn't do anything.

And now, I am 3 years old in this world.

Chao Mei is sitting on the bench in the garden after praying to the Gods in the small shrine built near the pond.

I walk to the front of the house and stare at what she's doing. She is simply sitting on the bench, staring at the pond with a book lying beside her.

The book was something we were both familiar with. "Legends of Chang'e." A story about my real mother.

She spent her time studying it to find more information related to my powers. After all, she needed a way to know more about me – because I was given to her with a large responsibility.

"Fate of Xian."

She keeps her gaze on the pond, her eyes watering slightly, and gently brushes her red hair behind her ear. The smell of sandalwood fills the garden, and I too, enter it.

As she sees me coming from the distance, she turns to me to greet me.

"Oh, baby Xin. What are you doing here? Are you not sleepy?" she asks me with the kind smile she always has.

"Not yet, Mother," I reply to her, sitting beside her on the bench. She helps me up.

I look up at her and see her wet eyes and the bothered look on her face. I feel sad upon seeing her like this. She often does this when she's alone, and I know why she feels miserable.

"Why are you crying, Mother?" I ask though I know the reason. I want her to come clean and say it to me by herself.

"Mm~ it's nothing," she says, wiping her eyes.

It saddens me to see her like this after seeing her bright smile countless times.

"It is not nothing – it is something. I know it, Mei – Mother!" I almost call her by her name. "Um um… I know something's bothering you."

She smiles at me again. "You truly are an extraordinary child."

For a moment, we share a long silence on the bench. None of us speaks. And suddenly, she begins.

"Do you wanna hear about the story of your m – Mei, then?"

I stare at her. I feel slightly guilty for not using the word 'mother.'

I nod.

//Author's Note//

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