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' 'when his thinking

" "when he's talking out loud

( )when his yelling

NewYork 2010

in a small apartment sleeps a man about 28 of age, he is sleeping naked, you could see many scars on his well-fit body, old wounds that he sustained throughout his life

he is mike johnson

he slowly wakes up and sits on his bed, his face expressionless

'another day begins'

he goes to the bathroom and takes a fast shower then he wears some clothes nothing fancy a t-shirt and some jeans

he goes outside and get in his car and goes to a close-by coffee shop where he gets his usual breakfast where he observes people it sounds creepy when you think bout it but he does it because he can't understand how it works

society I mean is complicated and he tried many ways to fit in it or fake fitting in it at least so he was a loner, a lone wolf, an outcast whatever you want to call him

since his childhood he was different he was much calmer than other kids and didn't show many emotions this didn't go well with the other kids as he was different from them so they cast him out

his parent thought he was antisocial so they took him to a psychiatrist

the psychiatrist was a woman by the name of Marry freeman

Marry was the first to discover that he lacked emotions she tried to help him with medicine at first but nothing worked, his parent were understanding of his case so they started to teach him how to fake these emotions like empathy sympathy and the like it worked and he blended in but it was all fake after all he still was unable to connect with anything so he always was alone with no real friends

throughout his high school years, he was like a ghost there he didn't have friends he attended his classes and left without talking to anyone,he only talked to the teacher when he was asked to or when he was obliged

everything changed when he graduated and entered the army for the first time in his life he felt something other than nothingness, when he was in battle, he felt the excitement of the battle

but that wasn't the only thing that he felt, he felt joy when he killed for the first time it was the first encounter with the darkness inside of him and that darkness continued to grow the more he killed

the joy of hunting his enemy was like a drug but it wasn't a problem when he was in the army and in an active war zone there are many people to kill