5

Back at school, I and Ahji became close again, we started talking with each other, I also began to talk to Hiam; the guy behind me. Soon enough the four of us( Yash, I, Ahji, and Hiam) started hanging out together, we were the new group of friends.

Although we weren't close enough to read together, we shared our likes and dislikes. Hiam and I had a lot in common, we were two peas in a pond, whereas Yash and I were from two different worlds.

I mean, only Yash picks out things in Fried rice, he also hated onions, what of mangoes?, they were no-go areas. Weirdly he liked pineapples, seriously how does one cope with the sour taste, and the state it leaves your tongue in?😖 what of apples? he preferred the red ones, the one that has this powdery sort of feeling, how can one prefer a red apple to a green one? I guess I'll never find out.

All of this didn't stop us from chatting in class though. Once Yash told me I was his good friend and then I replied " you don't exactly talk to me that much". He didn't say anything after then but weeks later I found a not under my desk, from Yash, in his real handwriting, but it was not a love letter. It was only telling me that he has tried his best in being my good friend and there's nothing he could do anymore." I wasn't bothered by the content of the letter instead...😊 he wrote to me, Yash wrote to me!" I danced around saying those words, hehe🤭, this meant he thought of me. hehehe

I was delighted, I didn't tell anyone about this though, not even Ahji, because... well I don't want anyone playing matchmaking with Yash and me 😉. The term drew close to an end but nothing special happened, I was happy with this, also I now had a new reading mate; Mar- I just didn't like her, but since Ahj likes her err🙄 no problem🤷‍♀️. She said it's because she gets high marks once in a while. But to me, she was too quiet and I, as a ONCE quiet person, I know that our minds are never idle besides she doesn't look like a very friendly person. Weeks flew by without any problem but just like I expected she was a green snake under the grass.

One day, I was called by the teacher, on getting there I met Kara and Ahji there, the teacher didn't waste any time in asking me why I bullied Mar, and I just looked at him strangely, I couldn't even understand a word he was uttering, Me..... bullied?😆, that didn't even make any sense. My joke was caught short when he fired" Mar has complained that Ahji usually strangled her and we used to terrorize her," he ranted "don't you know you are becoming a terrorist? and it's always the three of you" trying to refer to year 7's incident. I didn't know what to say, I was short of words, to be honest, I almost swore I was going to tell my mum, but then again, what was she going to do? Call the school head and elongate the matter? Hell no!, there was no way I was going to allow her to do such.

The teacher told us to go when none of us spoke, on getting out I asked both Kara and Ahji

"Why the sudden accusation"

Ahji first spoke

" After you left, I and Kara went the Mar to Sarah's class( Mah's elder sister), we were only accompanying her, while she and her sister were talking I only placed my elbows on her shoulder for support..." she looked at me to see if I understood and I did, Ahji was the tallest girl in the class and so it was understandable, "Soon after I rested on her shoulder, Sarah sent us out of the class, both I and Kara" she continued "Then she called us back in and asked me why I normally bully Mar"

"I asked her how and she said; Mar said I normally strangle her and she didn't like it" " I looked at Mar with disbelief in my eyes and I shook my head and walked away." "Could you believe all this happened and Mar just stood there?... like a mime."

I ignored her question and asked how Kara was related, then Kara spoke up; said it was because she was there yesterday, without responding,I let out a stifled laugh, I was going to ask how I was related but I decided not to, instead I left both of them and went to find Mar.

"Why did you tell your sister that I was bullying you?... Have I ever touched you?, Am I even tall enough to rest on your shoulders?" I fired at her as soon as I saw her. But all she could say was that her sister forced her to say it'" pfft, what a reason indeed.

I couldn't bear it anymore and just walked away, I went back to sit and the teacher's words flooded back instantly, "Terrorist" I have never been compared to such, I mean, did he even know the meaning of that word before calling us that? like that wasn't expected, why would he do such?

I placed my head on the table and soon enough tears began to roll down my cheek, my class teacher wondered why and just sneered at me, Only I knew the reason for doing so.

I get aggressive easily, especially when I'm accused falsely, I always feel like breaking something or just talking back at the person, it makes me boil from within, I could easily do things I would regret, so crying was just the best bet, It was my last reservoir for releasing pain.

Later in the day, I noticed both Ahji and Kara began to distance themselves from Mar, I went to meet them and I said;

" We make mistakes all the time, imagine the world separates from us whenever we did something wrong?" I told them to forgive Mar and act like nothing ever happened. Within myself, I tried to also forgive her... BUT there was a very big Butt blocking the way(saw what I did there🤣) I didn't know how to forgive and forget, it just always found a way to linger, sometimes I just look at the person and want to retaliate, I knew how to hide it but once I remember, it hurts like it just happened. So how could I forgive when I'm still hurting?

It was merely impossible, but I don't let this cloud my judgment, I only buried it somewhere deep, somewhere I could easily reach once I was hurt again. I had this for everyone and this was the reason why I and my brother didn't get along. He always found ways to make me angry and I never forgive until he says sorry to me directly, weirdly most people forget to say that word. They just try to play it cool and laugh it off, and I always look down on such people, I mean, if you don't admit your fault how do you show that you even know you're at fault? By playing cool? No, things aren't done that way.

The second term soon ended and the third term was fast approaching, I was looking forward to this but...

It's a story for...🤭🤭🤭

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