Chapter 06

Sofía POV

It was only ten in the morning and the day could not start without problems.

I had not been to work and I would bet all my money that my colleagues must have called my department at least twenty times, but I did not pick up the phone. I did not feel like going to my office, I did not want to see my friends, I did not feel like making a coffee or a sandwich right now. I did not feel like doing anything at all. I did not feel like living.

What I wanted to do, basically, was being prepared for the catastrophe. The one that I waited for several years and was willing to accept in order to see her again. See Emma again.

I pulled that heavy machine that I had bought from a website last week. When I found myself in the living room, I hit the power button. The green light from that device that looked like the smoke machines they used for parties shone brightly. The sound coming from that silver metal invention made it seem like there was a tractor inside the apartment.

God! I felt a little more liberated, but at the same time there were still some blue and gray lines on my face ―and also tears from the night before. However, I was determined. I couldn't regret it now.

I started crying and my vision blurred. I cried for that little girl who suffered too much and for her broken heart. I cried for all the people who abandoned me in life, who just vanished and left me alone with them stalking me. And I cried for my miserable life.

―Are you trying to kill yourself? But if you can't do it when there is pain. You're a total coward. ―They teased from the corner of the room.

When there was the pain I couldn't do it, that was true. Many times I had tried, failing as usual. But this time it wouldn't be the same. Never again.

When I realized it, the strange smell that the machine was emitting invaded my nostrils. Carbon monoxide. I inhaled it like there was a strawberry shortcake in front of me. Deliciously terrifying.

―I'll see you now, my dear. ―I said with a smile. ―It's time to get some sleep. Maybe forever.

And everything around me became so dark that I couldn't see anything else.