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I hate news. I don't watch news channel. I feel like they are gossiping about others as always saying they did that this aa. It irritates to the core. we have our own life much more to do and learn then what is there to know about others life where our's life is not perfect. Coming to politics it's just a big garbage but I don't have a option when my parents are watching it. I need to be because we are middle class family. We live in two rooms, so there is no chance to escape from that place but I never felt bad and more I enjoy alot. I love my life even though small exceptions are there. I don't concentrate on what they are saying but the anchor voice echoing in my ears as seeking to listen to their voice and felt pull like something interesting in it. I always think how can they attract someone as if they are saying most interesting thing in the world.

Here I'm waiting for my favourite voice may be favourite show 'special focus' max in all channels I observe that this type of shows were handled by boys only as voice will tough and bit louder. but in this show. the host is girl I like her voice alot she says in suspense even though sometimes there is no matter but she says like that. May be it's her plus point and background voice is male only and interesting fact is they both are wife and husband and they are incharges of this show and 51% share in the channel is theirs.

I just search in net to know more about them. they just give some awareness to the people how the world is. how people will be at our back. in simple words the real cruel world . . .

"Welcome to SPECIAL FOCUS " breaking her thoughts. program has started.

Guru Brahma Gurur Vishnu

Guru Devo Maheshwaraha

Guru Saakshat Para Brahma

Tasmai Sree Gurave Namaha

From the day kids join in school. they will learn this because to know that Teacher is equal to god where he says which is good, which is bad. Making our life into a successful with good humanity. How to respect others. How to be responsible. How to help others. How to treat others. If we did wrong being first place after mother teaches us it is wrong should not do like that. Shows our destination our goal infact to reach our goal to fulfill our dreams teacher plays a major role in it. by showing path to achieve it. Being like shadow to students always says which is right, which is wrong. But when that teacher only lost his sanity, his humanity and when he try to miss behave with a student for his sexual pleasure that to the one who is just 4year who came to tution to study. actually Where the world is going on. atleast she don't know the meaning of right or wrong. Good or bad touch. But he. . . .

Siya had tears remembering her childhood she slept thinking her past.

Flashback

Siya pov

May be I'm 4-5 years old. Mummy put me in tution as (siya brother is 2years younger than her)he is also coming to tution just to sit because he won't go outside. The teacher is from school only as teacher is women and having a daughter around 14-15 years mummy joined me to do my homework.

I'm hyper active girl either in studies or in games. Just like a all arounder but only when I'm interested. I'm too chubby and bubbly girl at that age. Teacher daughter name is mounika. Sis use to pamper me alot and give me more chocolates saying I'm studying good. we use to play in tution too. In free time, sis is to come home take me with her at that time my brother will not come he is momma's boy. so I and sis use to play. Sometimes we play mom father game. As she is big she is husband and I'm wife. so she kiss me touch me. I don't know whether it is correct or wrong. she lift and twirl me around and give me chocolates and say to me that don't say to anyone I too obey her words as she is my sis.

One day she lifted my frock touch my tummy and kissed me on my tummy. She hold my hands and put it on her breast and ask me to pinch. I asked why it's something like itching nothing happens do it she told and put my hands on her breast under dress. I pinched her she shout(moan) immediately I try to remove my hand when I was removing she hold me tight and say nothing happen hold it. and she put her hand down on me and pressed it. I screamed. she held me and gave me a kiss and said don't cry nothing happen I will give you chocolate.and don't say to anyone if you say I will make teacher to beat you ok. if you listen I will give you chocolates. and she put my hand down and asked me to touch and rub. I did and immediately removed as I felt something with yak face she hugged me tightly all my body parts are crushing.

Later she left me saying don't say to anyone if anyone ask say we play with dishes like cooking something. mumma do cooking for us na. so you're not lying ok. i nooded my head and took chocolate. like that it repeated so many times.

But one day one of my friend saw me. He stays in first floor and elder to me and we stay in second floor. Me brother he and some other friends is to play. he asked me what happen I said nothing then he said he saw say me or else I will tell your teacher that you are doing homework and she will beat you. no sis told me not to say anything. you can say to me. I'm your friend na I will not say to anyone. I said to him. but he took an advantage of me. he use to repeat same thing. At terrace we play and one day he layed me on floor removing my underwear saying nothing wrong I saw my parents doing. if it is wrong they will not do na. saying that he removed his pant zip and layed on me. you are heavy get up I said with tears. he kiss me and layed beside me bringing me top on him and hugged me tightly making sure touching both private parts. He is to hug me kiss me sometimes slept like that. but one day mummy find out and beat me like hell. No one scold him I still remember if it is wrong then why they didn't beat him his mom and my mom are friends. his mom also didn't alter a word. mom beat me with belt. and said me not to repeat it.

I said same thing to sis it's wrong we should not but she is too force me I cried alot when she pinch me on breast. When my skin get red marks she is to apply ointment. I scared to say mummy because she beat me with belt.

Because of some family issues we vacate that place and I escaped from both of them.

Did her life ends their with sexual harrasment.

But now I know what is it. Remembering all these Siya felt disgusting about herself. Siya thinks what I did to deserve this life. Is I'm a bad omen as mumma says. that's why it happens. She cried remembering her dreadful past and she slept.

Flashback ends

May be at that age people may not remember what happened but here Siya remember everything whatever happened may not be happy moments but her dreadful past in childhood. May be because she thinks her mother didn't love her. may be she got beating with belt by her mother. may be her mother didn't asked what happened. may be her mother didn't asked why you did this. may be her mother didn't asked who taught like that. may be her mother lost trust on Siya. may be they didn't scold him or her infront of siya. may be they didn't leave her after her mother beatings. whatever may be the reason she remember her wound which happened in her childhood even though she don't know what is good and bad but without knowingly her wound turns into scar on her heart. deep down of her heart she felt it's deep cut whenever she remembers it's oozes with blood it's pains like hell.

Masking her emotions. playing smile on her lips she woke up in the morning with heavy headache.

Siya get ready and went to college. As Siya went early she is waiting for anu. she is the only one who can elope her fear, loneliness, pain. As she came to early she met with her friend a gang in previous section Lalitha , vineetha, hiranmayi and ashita. She talked with them and while going to her class she met vinu and talked sometime and said bye and went her class. There anu is sitting and chewing her pen backside and fighting with book and pen.

Vinu is school friend and one and only close friend but only words because she can't share the things which pains alot. but where as vinu share everything. Siya is close but when she want to hug and subside her pain through it but she can't do that. they hold their hand in hand walk talk everything but Siya never felt that she opened to her. both minds are different in sharing things. Whereas anu just she met her one month back but became friends like they know from childhood both Siya and anu feel the same even though they spend less time they felt like complete friendship. Between then no need of more exchanging words just tight hug that relief their grief and felt immense happiness.

anu feels like if Siya is with her she can achieve anything in the world even if someone says it's impossible. whereas Siya feels like if anu is with her she can fight with inner turmoil which is burning her completely.

Vinu knows Siya angry but anu knows Siya pain even though she don't the reason for it.

Vinu knows how stubborn Siya is to achieve something but anu knows how she leave her things because of someone happiness.

Vinu knows how strong from outside but anu knows how weak from inside.

Vinu knows her friendly nature but anu knows how alone she feels.

Vinu knows Siya is foodie but anu knows siya can't stay with hunger for long time.

May be this is reason why people say,

How long you maintained relationship is not important but how long you understand eachother is more important to live lovelife forever.

Anu felt someone is oogling her continuously and turn around and find Siya.

"Siya",anu shouted and hugged her tight.

Siya raised her eyebrow in questioning way.

"Where you went leaving me alone. ",anu asked with pout with fake sad voice

Siya giggled at her action

"What happen to you why you are dull . why your eyes are red. do u have a fever"anu said checking her forehead with concern.

Siya felt immense happy seeing her way treating her like a baby.

No need to say that we are not feeling good to the one, who can say by just seeing us because they felt from heart not from mind.

Siya hugged her feeling blessed to have anu in her life saying " nothing happened just stress due to exams and I didn't go anywhere just observing you how long you will eat pen"

Anu bend her head holding her ears and mumbled sorry slowly where siya hates if someone put pen in mouth.

"Uffoo. okay. don't repeat I hate it. that's is not good. and did u decided", Siya asked sitting on bench checking book which anu is fighting with it.

"What", anu asked with confusion

"About punishment madam" Siya said in bit firm voice.