-Ataraxia-

⚠️ Mentions anxiety

⚠️ Mentions depression

Ataraxia

(n.) A state of freedom from emotional disturbance and anxiety ; tranquility

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Ataraxia,

   Oh what I'd give to feel it,

   To feel free from this depressing mess,

   That I've been calling life for the past 17 years.

Ataraxia,

  I am a prisoner,

  Constantly feeling anxious,

  Don't know how peace feels or sounds.

Ataraxia,

   I've had asthma since I was young,

   So you'd understand when I say,

   The feeling of not breathing amplifies and I start to drown.

Ataraxia,

   I'm anxious all the time,

   My anxiety is off the charts,

   My hands seem to tremble at the slightest change in the beats of my heart.

Ataraxia,

   Even when I'm writing this I feel anxious,

   It's a feeling that never leaves me,

   I'm forced just live with it.

Ataraxia,

   The only time I feel peace is when I sleep,

   But lately everything's been changing,

   Nightmares start creeping in.

Ataraxia,

   I'm beginning to wonder,

   Will I ever be free from these shackles of depression and anxiety,

   Or will I forever be the prisoner of a tragedy.

24/02/2021

Love,

C🦋