Chapter 1: Just Like That

How many times do I have see you happy with someone else? Did you feel more comfortable and open to her? Am I not enough to be your shoulders to cry on? Am I missing something that you really need?Am I not enough for you? Why can't be honest with me?! I know I can't do anything else but to comfort you but why do have to look for someone else if I was always in there in the picture? Why can't you see me? I'm just right here?! Aren't we partners? Why can't you trust me enough to tell your burdens?

Those were the questions I want to asks you right now. And you're just staring at me like I'm a wall.

"Why?"

"I - I don't know"

I looked at look with disbelieved on my face. I cried and just smiles at you painfully. Understanding that I'm not really enough. And I can barely understand that. I'm doing anything to understand you but you're not letting me. How am I able to help you if your treating me like I'm burdening you further.

" You know I love you right? If I'm just burdening you, just tell me! I don't have any psychic powers to read your mind and emotions. All I need is YOU, communicating with me. Telling your problems so I can help you but..... You're not telling me? How am I supposed to know?!"

"I know! That's why she's there!"

"What?! Are you kidding me?! She's there? What about me?! When she leaves you, I'm there! I'm always here with you and I always will. Why can't you trust me just once? Am I not your friend? Your best friend!"

"You're just my friend! She's the love of my life! I know she left me before but trust me okay? She's different now."

I can see the desperation in your eyes. You're just convincing yourself to believe. To believe that she's always there with you, that she will not leave you anymore like she didn't do it for a couple of times. It's killing me how you put your trust in here while you didn't in me or the people around who know the truth. She's just using you again, and I can't let that happened. And here you are again begging me to put my trust on her again like you always do.

I can't see you like this. I'm your friend but you're just blind to love. You can't see how horrible you look right now. You're not you anymore. I can't see the real you at your present you. And I know I can't do anything now, you really put your soul away.

Again, you believed that she loves you the most. That she will always there with you. That she will not leave you again. When will this cycle ends? I can't do anything but cry at your situation.

You believed her again for the nth time. We always been together but I didn't what's going on with you..