Ch.15 Outburst(Edited)

Looking at Shizu I can't help but think that I have hit the jackpot. She will be a perfect source of information for me. I should try to find out everything about the world's current timeline as much as possible.

I should manipulate her as it shouldn't be difficult..... But manipulation is wrong. No, I should do something that will only be beneficial to me. There is no need for that let's remain solo. No, no I should create a group it will be helpful. Shut-up manipulation will be the most effective way. Stop they will be disappointed in you if they know what you did. Who cares about them?

No, I care about them but if they don't find out it won't matter what we do, will it. But can you live with that? Is there any reason for you to do that? It wi ...… He ....d.e ..... ah....... ........ ...…....No..... ..I..................

"Are you alright, you look pale" I hear Shizu's voice that breaks me out of my thoughts. I looked at her face which seemed worried and thought why did I wish to manipulate a kind woman like her? If I asked she would have helped, wouldn't she?

Why did I have such a thought, why, why as I was lost in my thought again my magicule began to stir and all of it started to get released from my body.

[Master magicule has become unstable. Chances of death are calculated at 99.9% if not stopped]

[Using unique skill Physic to control masters Magicule]

[Using True Regeneration to cope with the loss of magicule]

As those words were heard all the magicules around me started to stop flowing out of me.

[Searching for the reason for the outburst]

[Reason found unstable emotions detected. It is detected that the master can't handle the amount of emotions the master has]

[Do you wish to suppress it to the point where you can handle it]

But to that question, there was no answer. Even though I heard all that I was still lost in my subconscious having a mental battle with myself. Even being aware of this I couldn't do anything about it.

[For the protection of master master's emotions has been suppressed to 50%]

As True Sage's voice was heard my mind started to become clear. All those thoughts that I couldn't control began to recede.

'Thanks, True sage for that'

[Understood]

I guess getting almost all of your emotions at once can be quite dangerous. Especially for someone like me who in both lives never felt a great number of emotions.

I think I only felt a large number of emotions four times before coming to this world. In my previous life even though I had such a grave disease I didn't feel any thing but when I started to read manga and anime I for the first time in my life felt something, various emotions.

That was the day when I first felt like a human then at the time of my death, I felt another great surge of emotions and then after reincarnation, I felt excitement and happiness. Then the last time I felt such a high amount of emotions was when I first learned that I was losing my emotions.

I guess in these two years I should learn to control all my emotions if I want to be a human. After finally shorting out all my thoughts I opened my eyes.

When I opened my eyes the first thing I saw was Shizu's worried face. Seeing that I opened my eyes she asked.

"Are you alright what happened?"

Looking at her worried face. I couldn't help but curse myself for having any negative thoughts for her. She is worried for me whom she had only met an hour ago.

I guess reading all those novels about evil Mc's has influenced me more than I thought. The personality that was developed due to manga and novels can never really be good.

"Thank you for worrying about me, I am fine. It seems I didn't take this world travel as well as I thought I did" I said with a smile on my face. Having someone worry for you is always heartwarming, I guess. I must have also made Sora, Yukino, and my friends worried. I should say sorry for my behavior toward them. Especially Sora for whom I promised to always smile but never fulfilled that promise.

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Shizu Pov

After having our talk, we were just resting there to restore our magicule or my magicule as from what I saw his magicule has already been fully restored.

After again rechecking our surroundings I look at him and he seems to be lost in his thoughts. If it was only that then it wouldn't have been a problem, but his face seems to be getting paler and his magicule fluctuation.

"Are you alright, you look pale" I asked him, and he seemed to have broken out of his thought. He looked at me with his golden eyes. I thought he calmed down, but I was wrong as he again down, lost in his thought.

This time his magicule outbursts very quickly. All of his magicule seems to be flowing out. Due to it, I was pushed back from there.

"Oh no at this rate he may die due to magicule depletion."

What should I do I have never been in such a situation. Should I use my unique skill, no it may do more harm than good.

As I was panicking all his magicule calmed down. As he was floating, he began to fall. I quickly caught him he seemed to not have woken up yet, so I laid his head on my thigh and let him rest.

After some time, he finally opened his eyes. I asked him if he was alright and what happened to him. He quickly replied to me with a smile. Looking at his smile I can say that it increased his looks by even more.

But it's not the time for that from what he said it seems he has totally adjusted to this world. No one will truly do that so quickly anyway.

But as a sempai I should help him till he adjusts as my master taught me to help those who I can. I will help him.