Suffer

At this point I couldn't even find it in my heart to cry. With no body its a wonder how I was crying, or for that matter, know that I'm crying. I read about situations like this before, someone dies and they get reincarnated into a fictional world. They get a nice bonus of a power that puts them ahead of everyone else, change the story, and create a legend. I wished and wished and wished and wished and wished and wished and wished and wished and wished, but just like my life it was a dissapointment. You never know how bright life is until you can't see. You never notice how harmonical voices are until you can't hear. You never notice how amazingly nice touch is until, well, you can't touch. At first I thought my eyes were closed and tried to open them. After a few seconds and I realized that it was still dark I started panicking. A cold feeling swelled up in my gut and my heart started to race but, I couldn't feel my own heartbeat. I tried to move my arms but nothing was moving. I could feel them and move them but it was like nothing was happening. I tried to touch my chest head and feet but nothing was registering to my brain. Nothing to say that I was really... "alive". I tried to calm down. I'm somewhere I don't know with a problem with my body. Nothing would help me in blind panic. I tried a number of ways from wispering to yelling, from trying to crawl to jumping, and from closing my eyes to blinking and nothing would work. I couldn't get a sense of displacement no matter what I tried so i stopped. I soon noticed another thing is that this place was unnaturally quiet. For some reason that scared me and my heart beat started rising. I swear I could hear my heart getting faster and faster. I heard a faint water running and it took a while to tell that it was my blood flowing and kept on going faster and faster. Nothing is going to happen if I keep panicking so I try to calm down but it isn't working. Taking deep breathes isn't going to work here since I don't think I even have a body. "CALM DOWN" My heart beat slows down and the blood rushing in the background is negligible at this point. If this is how it's going to be from now on I wont make it. I try some mind calming techniques that I remember from novels and fanfics. I wonder how well they will work out.