There are times when I wonder if it's worth being smart or life would be easier if I was just stupid.
A week went by, a grueling fucking week where I had to act like a depressed kid.
I do not know what has been more sickly, acting like a stupid boy without balls who is not able to recognize the feelings of beautiful women or acting like a depressing child who was abandoned by his friends.
I've developed a new level of respect for professional actors, having to maintain an emo kid character while avoiding screwing up that idiot Ogata has been challenging my willpower to the point where my Will of Steel ability went from 35% to 40%.
Ogata wouldn't be a bother if it weren't for his tendency to give so-called wisdom monologues about the purity of martial arts, love of martial arts, the true path of martial arts, and whatever shit about martial arts.
I was able to endure the week-long journey thanks to Ogata starting to show me his techniques to convince me to follow him.
Ogata is a Super Master who practices Ancient Martial Arts or Ogata Style. His technique consists of traditional martial arts of Judo, Karate, Aikido, and other traditional Japanese martial arts, he even possesses Kendo movements and other styles with weapons that are executed with the hands.
It is a versatile martial art but it was not what caught my attention, the really interesting thing is that Ogata has developed his own technique to combine Ki Sei and Ki Dou.
It is a method where the body is divided into the left pole and the right pole, the limbs are used to flow the Ki along with the muscle tissue and the nerves to stimulate the limits of the body and generate an amount of power beyond the limits own.
Hayato's technique consists of controlling the flow of Ki as if they were two different rivers that come together at a junction to create a larger river.
Ogata did the opposite, using a technique that tries to replicate the Ying-Yang concept. The two types of Ki rotate within the body without mixing like two currents of air, one cold and one hot, which ends up generating a storm.
Hayato's technique seeks stability to use the calm of the Sei and the impulse of the Dou. Ogata is only generating pure destructive power.
Ogata's technique is much more powerful in combat, but it is detrimental in the long run. This does not surprise me as Ogata is the type of person who would die with a smile like a jolly jerk due to his love of martial arts.
Even though I'm not stupid enough to use that technique on myself or my harem, it might be useful to gang members working for me in my homeworld, it's not like I care that they have long lives.
I also got some inspiration for my own martial arts and decided to replicate Ogata's rotary flow method however I will not do something as stupid as creating a time bomb inside myself, instead, I will make the two types of Ki flow together as a single upwind current to generate a true tornado.
For now, I have only done simulations in my mind so I will need a lot of experimentation to avoid creating a suicide technique.
Something that has helped me reduce my headaches is Rimi. The cute blonde girl is one of the nicest people I have ever interacted with.
She is clumsy, a bit silly, she does not know how to keep secrets and she is so honest that she can be seen as a rude person, I love it.
I find it fun to talk to her as it is like interacting with a hyperactive puppy. I like women with simple personalities and simple minds as long as they are not irrational like Miu.
I like Honoka since she often acts like a small animal that likes to chew on things, even when she hangs on my leg and tries to bite me or climbs on my head like a monkey seems adorable.
Shigure is possibly the first woman that I have developed a certain level of affection, she is special to me, however, I find her strict and taciturn personality relaxing but not entertaining.
In this world, only Honoka, Renka, Kisara, and Rimi have attitudes similar to cute little animals that I can play with without having to plan my every action, so I completely decided that I would steal Rimi's heart.
Ryuto woke up in the middle of the trip and I could finally see the kind of relationship between Ryuto and Rimi.
Rimi is a clingy girl who has no problem screaming her feelings from the rooftops.
Ryuto treats her as a nuisance to push her away even though he has a certain affection for her, it is not a romantic affection and it seems more like a brotherly affection so he is not willing to accept her feelings.
Even though Ryuto has no romantic feelings for Rimi, he won't let an idiot like me take advantage of her, especially since there were rumors that I was having an affair with Kaname and Kisara despite being very close to Shigure, Miu, and Renka. My acting as a dense jerk helped keep me from being labeled a shitty womanizer, but the jealousy of several of Miu's classmates made them try to spread rumors against me even though I wasn't even a student at their school.
Regardless, Ryuto doesn't know how to stop Rimi from approaching me as we became good friends while he was unconscious and Ogata insists that Rimi interact with me.
Rimi has not realized Ogata's plan but Ryuto has suspicions that have him upset. Despite that Ryuto doesn't say anything because Ogata is still his master and he is aware of my potential as Kaname was able to improve to become the second strongest person in Ragnarok with my training.
I found that I like to teach so I have diligently trained my harem and even left them various manuals and instructions for training while I am away.
Rimi has continued talking to me and little by little I have gotten into her heart.
She actually began to be aware of me. When we first met she didn't care if I was stripped naked and thrown into a lake to bathe, now she shows a bit of curiosity if I take my shirt off.
Rimi has a hobby of donning provocative costumes, writing about her daily life on her blog and making videos of singing and dancing which is why she is popular on the internet.
She is the kind of cheerful girl that is difficult to hate even though she can be clingy, despite that she has a serious problem of insecurity and lack of self-esteem that she tries to compensate through the acceptance and attention of members of the opposite sex.
Rimi is not a whore who would give her body for her attention, instead, she is a lonely girl who was abandoned by her father so she is eager for male attention to support her inferiority complex.
The reason she fell madly in love with Ryuto was that he was the first person to protect her and give her a sense of care after Rimi faced a group of martial arts apprentices.
Rimi has the potential to become a dependent girl who would sacrifice her friends, her ideals, and her life for the sake of the person she loves so I can't let her go.
Unlike other dependent girls I know, Rimi will not try to stab other women if they approach me, instead of her she will find how to give me to those women.
According to Navi, the term that suits a heroine like Rimi would be 'goudere', a girl who would do anything for the good of her lover even if they are morally wrong actions in order to show her devotion.
Unlike a yandere, the goudere is not a crazy psychopath who will kill the friends and family of her loved one. The only problem that a goudere can bring is her tendency to exaggerate and they can interpret a casual comment as "I want a donut" in "I am going to buy the whole bakery so that my beloved has all the donuts."
I began by showing an insecure attitude with complexes of loneliness which made Rimi feel identified with me.
Even though I'm legally an orphan in this world, I was able to use the stories from my homeworld to tell little anecdotes about my shitty family, we started to form a nice bond between us.
Many think that what creates the trust is love or friendship, that is a mistake, true trust arises from empathy.
Putting yourself in someone else's shoes is how humans create empathic bonds.
What is the best way for two people to understand each other?
Sharing the suffering.
People who go through similar traumatic and painful situations can relate more easily. Hurt people tend to bond, actually, I think that's why so many troubled women end up bonding with me, but that's something to ponder another time.
The point is that the mother figure offers warmth while the father figure gives security. Rimi lacks a father figure so she needs a male figure that offers her security and care.
Rimi has Ryuto as a male figure that gives security, however now there was a second male figure that not only gave him security and care but also offered him understanding and acceptance.
In a few days, I managed to get Rimi to recognize me as a male figure who can offer her what she is looking for. I have not yet earned Rimi's unconditional love as Ryuto has a great presence in her heart, but that's fine as it will make the change in Rimi's heart more meaningful.
Right now Rimi sees me as someone with whom it is nice to spend time, to talk, that she can understand her loneliness and that she is willing to accept her, the only thing that prevents her from loving me is her dependence on Ryuto.
If I was to take the initiative to get close to her then I might make her fall in love, but this would make Ryuto try to stop me as well as attract Ogata's attention unnecessarily.
The best path is where Rimi is forced to be with me by Ogata's orders, most likely Ogata will threaten to separate her from Ryuto if she doesn't obey him.
If it wasn't because I have created a bond of trust with Rimi then she would hate me if she took her virginity from her and there is even a risk that she will attempt suicide.
That problem was solved thanks to the trust that she now has in me, when she sees the need to give me her body, she will be able to accept it with the idea that she has little feelings for me.
I will just have to give her a pleasure that she can never forget and everything will be ready, I will have a cute obedient girl who will not be a psychopath like Izumi.
For now, everything is ready, I just have to put up with the shit I'm going through.
"Kakakakakakaka your willpower is surprising, boy!" - A man with a strange demon mask laughed as he ate an apple.
His name is Silkwat Jenazad, master of the martial art Pencak Silat who is at the level of Advanced Master, the second strongest person I have met in my life after Hayato.
I honestly did not expect to meet an expert of this level so soon, luckily I made countermeasures to protect my brain because I'm sure this son of a bitch is an expert in brainwashing and could only defend myself if he had a mental resistance ability or weft armor.
I lost consciousness for a second, although it was little, that was enough to cause me amnesia and be able to reform my personality if it weren't for the modifications I made to my brain.
I am currently standing like a soldier with a blank expression and lifeless eyes. I had to endure 12 hours of psychological torture and subliminal messages to convince Jenazad that I became loyal to Yami despite maintaining my personality.
The scenario is this: I am still myself, only more perverted and impulsive as a teenager full of hormones.
I can't remember anything related to the Ryozanpaku. After my parents died it was Yami who gave me shelter so they became my teachers.
I study under Ogata's tutelage with some advice from Yami's other teachers.
My method of meditation is somewhat special so Yami will provide me with women to meditate and advance to the highest.
To ensure my loyalty I renounced my individuality, I keep my name as Luis Santos, but I also have a code name, Kuro.
When a Yami teacher says the phrase 'Kuro, attention!' I will enter a state where my personality is blocked to become an emotionless weapon that only follows orders as long as they do not involve suicide.
Behind me is a guy with a broken neck, Jenazad ordered me to kill him in cold blood for which I broke his neck. Apparently, Yami's teachers follow the murdering fist where killing the enemy is normal, however, Jenazad follows the demon's fist where murder is used against enemies and innocents alike. Jenazad is a psycho but I can deal with it so it doesn't matter.
Now I am a kind of soldier with a double personality, my normal self is a more foolish and impulsive version than my normal character in the Ryozanpaku. My killer version, Kuro, is an emotionless weapon that only follows orders to achieve the best result.
It is not the first time that I am in this type of situation so it is not difficult to accept it.
This is great as I have new plans thanks to this split personality crap so it will be easier for me to relate to Yami's leaders to make sure they don't hurt Shigure, I'm sure Yami know about her talent in weapons so I can't let them try to kidnap her to get her secrets out of her.
When I'm strong enough I'm going to beat Jenazad to shit since the son of a bitch really enjoys torturing people. My Insanity energy went up to 2.3% and the Rasen hit 4% which shows the shit I had to go through.
At least I am thankful that Jenazad seems involved with some kind of royalty so he got me beautiful women, although I am concerned that there are a couple of little girls included.
As for Rimi, I'll see her in a couple of hours since Ogata has already promised her to me.
Yes, I am a piece of shit, but I am a piece of shit that will sleep with Rimi.
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