Chapter 4: Axel

I made it to the nightclub at around 11 p.m. Once I got inside I couldn't help but notice how exotic it looked with mixed colors of hot pink, purple, red, and some blue.

Once I was done checking out the place I went to look for Tyler, but I couldn't find him. As I took out my phone I was going to call him. But as I was ready to hit the call button I heard a loud voice say " I WANT TO SEE ALL HANDS IN THE AIR!" I looked up and I couldn't help but be amazed at how beautiful the young man looked.

Even when inside was dark and many lights flashed. I couldn't look away from how he moved with the flow of the music, his full lips, curly hair, and cute button nose. Everything about him, I couldn't get enough of.

A feeling that I haven't felt in a long time, I have the urge to get to know every little detail about him. Hell, even I didn't feel like this with my past relationships Except one. Her.

"This can't be happening! What is this!?" I thought to myself. How can one boy make me feel like this and I don't even know him? When I pay attention to the young boy I forgot how to breathe. He's looking at me and for the love of god those eyes; those eyes I've never seen before. How can one's eyes be big and look so innocent and curious at the same time?

When he looked away I couldn't help but feel a little sad. I want him to look at me with those eyes of his. I long forgot about Tyler, I only what to get to know the boy that got me so captive by his beauty.

No, I can't.

You're not going to date him though. It is just curiosity.

Curiosity killed the cat.

Yea, but it is sat--I stopped arguing with myself when I saw him getting off the stage, walking towards the bar.

My mind has been made up. It seems I'm a little thirsty too, I'll grab a drink.

When I got closer I saw him gulp down the drink. I took a seat next to him, "You're amazing up there" When he turned his head I can honestly say that this young man would be the death of me, but what really caught me off guard was his eyes.

They do say that the eyes are the window to the soul. But I can't see, it's like that light that shines bright up on stage turned dull once he got off. It doesn't help the fact it is hard to see him properly, yet, at the same time you see he's dead on the inside, for some reason I wanted to be that person to put light in his eyes.

'That is ridiculous.' I scoffed at myself. Don't get too close, nothing good comes out of knowing someone. My conscious said.

I was taken out of my inner dialog

"Thanks" is all I heard from him it wasn't deep but not high either, yet it's still smooth. It's a voice I'd what to hear every day but my stubbornness is preventing me from getting any closer to this mysterious boy.

I smiled back at him. Right as I was about to say something I heard a guy yell "I FOUND YOU! WHERE WERE YOU!?" I sighed cause I knew who that person is. I turned around and saw Tyler behind me, looking a little mad.

"What do I owe the pleasure to?" I said sarcastically not caring if Tyler is mad at me. He ruined my little time from hearing the boy's sweet voice more.

"DON'T START BEING SARCASTIC WITH ME! I THOUGHT YOU DITCHED ME!" I just raised an eyebrow not knowing why he was yelling. "I'm here, aren't I? And it's your fault for telling me to go inside first, knowing that it's my first time here AND this place is big. So don't go up to me in my face yelling at me like it is my fault. Understood?" I threaten.

Immediately, his face was covered in guilt, his face a little pale. I felt bad, so just as I was about to apologize to him I realize that the beauty of a boy is next to me. I don't know why but I felt panic, I don't what face he would make but all I knew was that I didn't want to scare him away.

Turning my head fast, I swear I got whiplash from that, my suspicions were right I saw the terrified look in his eyes, his face like a ghost.

"Umm- well--it's not, you see it was--" This is the first time that I stumbled over my words, at the same time what could I even say?

That it was just a joking matter?

That I wasn't serious? Please, anyone--even deaf people can hear it wasn't a joke. Still, I wanted to at least try to come up with some excuse but I didn't get the chance to explain myself when he got up and left in a hurry.

That action was understandable but doesn't change the fact I felt rejected.

I shouldn't care.

But you do.

I don't, It's impossible.

It's not, unless--

No, it can't happen. She was my link--

Yea, keep telling yourself that.

I am just going in circles, arguing with myself. But I can't help to wonder, about that connection. Attraction. Is it truly possible? No, I felt that with her, but it wasn't as intense with that mysterious boy.

but I won't know now since that stupid, idiot made me run him away.

I turned, glaring at Tyler, "What? What did I do?" I didn't say anything and turned back around and ordered a drink. thinking about that beautiful boy.

I couldn't help but hope that I'll get to see him again. A big percentage, of me says to stay away: that he just might be like her in the end but that 1% tells me that he might be different: to give him a chance.

It is like a constant push and pull. I don't want to go through that all over again, yet I don't want to stay away. I know there is a chance he might be the true one for me but I can't help to have my doubts.

I thought the same way about her. After that event, I went feral. My company almost crashed, and I almost lost everything I built. I ended up in the hospital for alcohol poisoning. I did not care about life.

I hate her.

But that boy, that feeling was stronger compared to hers. I can't explain it. Should I try? I mean I can at least get to know him as a friend. Yea, that way we can get to know each other and start to get comfortable.

That way if anything happens I can just stop being friends with him and not get hurt. That is not a bad idea. Yeah right, that idea was so stupid. I can't believe I came up with it.

Grabbing my drink, I chugged it down, then asked for another. "Whoa, dude. Why are you chugging? You just got here." Tyler asked. Ignoring him, I swallow my second drink, again asking for another.

"Hey man, is it that guy?" I paused. I looked at him. Heh, even though he is dumb he can be clever when he wants to be.

"Why you ask?" this time taking my time to drink. "Well when I found you, you looked like you saw a goddess. So I was thinking maybe he was your link--" I slam my cup on the table, cutting him off.

"You finish that sentence, I'll break a bottle and cut off your tongue." I threaten. I saw him visibly gulp. Giving me a nervous smile, he put his hand up in surrender.

I turned back around, looking into my cup. I heard a chair slide across the floor. "Listen, man, maybe it's a sign to try new things. Don't let past fear cloud your mind for new chances."

This dumbass always has to say some wise shit in the right moments. But he's right. I mean I can just start off small.

"yea, it's just talking nothing more," I reassured myself. "That's the spirit man! Now let's go! We came here to party and let loose!" he yelled. He got up, running off to the dance floor, I followed along.

He was right, the whole night I didn't think of anything and just had fun. Dancing with girls, drinking. Just a good time. It was late when I got home.

Too tired to shower I just flopped down onto my bed. Today was good. I hope I get to see him again. "If I do, this time I am going to get his name. That's first. Maybe ask him out to lunch?" I said out loud. Slowly, my eyes became heavier.

My last thought was I can't wait to see him again.

What I didn't know was how much my life would change since I met him. Life was always so mysterious.