I have a soul and heart just like you

Chapter 21

I was lying alone in the empty bed, and the scent of Theo all over the house was driving me crazy. If only he were here now – I would ask him - why?

But I thought for the whole night, and I still couldn't figure out what to ask him. What was the second part of "why"? Why did you betray me? But he had never promised me anything, I was just a rogue who had slept with him. Who was I to demand that the sovereign King be faithful to me?

I was the one who didn't understand the complexity of these affairs, and I had thought I was his Luna. Had I forgotten how many royals can really choose their own fated mate?

I wished I hadn't shifted, so I didn't know that Theo was my fated mate; maybe I would have felt better about Theo seeing other women if I didn't know. I sobbed at the moon shining outside the window.

Soon, Theo was due to come back tomorrow. I felt my anger fading, how I longed to see him and jump into his arms. I wanted to humbly tell him how much I wanted him, and I didn't care about my lowly status, I just wanted to be with him, could I? No matter how stupid and foolish I looked in his eyes!

The next day I got up early and joined the other Gammas and Guards outside the Palace to greet Theo upon his return. Soon, Theo's black Cadillac drove through the Palace gates, and my heart started pounding.

Faye seemed to be excited too, leaping and crying inside my head, "I can smell James, and I miss him so much. "

I mindlinked Faye, "Be patient. This is a formal occasion, don't be impulsive."

Faye was very reluctant, but she obeyed me and settled down.

The car door opened, and at long last I saw the face that I had missed, the face that overshadowed everything around him. But the next second, I saw something that made me freeze.

After Theo had emerged from the car came Princess Alaska, whose picture I had seen in the newspaper; I recognized her at once.

My mind went numb now, and the cheers around me become so ear-splitting that it gave me a headache, and I felt sick to my stomach.

"Gamma Aiden, this is Princess Alaska." Theo's voice pulled my mind back to the present.

I forced a smile and greeted them politely, "Your Majesty, welcome back!", "Princess Alaska, welcome to visit GIAPABNTA Kingdom!"

I watched as they walked together; they looked good together and felt a pang of jealousy.

Faye started losing control in my head again. "I'm going to see James; I see James waving at me." Faye said.

She was about to jump out of my head, but I was furious and admonished her, "Don't be shameless - can't you see the Princess next to Theo?"

I waved Faye out of my head and put her in a dormant state.

Since Theo had returned, he hadn't slept next to me, but instead had stayed in another room in the Palace. His ignorance of me felt like a great insult.

As the days passed, I couldn't bear to see him with the Princess, and the thought of him being happy with her was too much for me to bear. I knew it was selfish, but I couldn't help my feelings.

I confided in Sophie, who was the only person I could pour out my heart to. As we sat on the grass, I spoke to Sophie of my regret and pain, the tears streaming down my face.

"Dory, our identity determines our destiny, we can't expect something that doesn't belong to us." Sophie patted my shoulder softly and sighed.

"But I couldn't, I tried to convince myself that I didn't care, but the sight of Theo and the Princess together is breaking my heart. It's torturing me, I'm hopeless, Sophie!" I sobbed.

"Just be patient, it will all pass." Sophie hugged me tightly and whispered.

We fell silent for a while, and she then asked me, "Dory, as the King has broken your heart, there is no point in you staying here. Why don't you avoid this completely if you can't bear it, maybe it would be better for you to leave here?"

Maybe it would be better for you to leave here? I pondered Sophie's suggestion and was conflicted.

Yeah, why didn't I think about leaving here? But on second thoughts, where could I go? And what about Sophie, I didn't want to be too far away from her, as she was now my only friend or family in the whole world.

Sophie must have been able to sense my concerns, as she scratched her head and continued, "You're so capable now, you'll be able to escape the Palace safely. As for me, no one cares about me, and after you leave, I can apply to go back to rogue territory. If you are not here, there's no point in me staying here; even though I can eat meat every day here, I think you are more important than meat."

I broke into laughter on hearing Sophie's words. I thought that Sophie's suggestion was too naive, how could I escape from the Palace if I didn't have Theo's permission? But maybe now Theo was now keen to let me go? Suddenly I had an idea.

The next morning, I went to ask to see Theo. When I pushed open his office door and our eyes met, I could still feel a tingling sensation through my body, and my heart started to beat faster. I didn't dare to look directly at him again, so I lowered my gaze.

"Gamma Aiden, what do you want to discuss with me?" Theo's tone was emotionless, like that of a King addressing his men.

I took a deep breath and tried to remain calm, before responding, "Your Majesty, do you remember the conditions of your saving me? I asked you to give me three months to prove I was a useful person to you."

Theo raised an eyebrow, "Well, of course I remember. So….?"

I mustered my courage to look up at him again, "It's been over two months now, and I want to help you find the evidence of Paul's collusion with the humans and the source of the recent drug deals. So please would you give me the permission to investigate these two things, which I feel must be connected."

Theo looked pleased with my offer and smiled, "Gamma Aiden, that sounds like a great idea. You escaped from Emily's cell of hell; you defeated Gamma Big Max; you couldn't shoot but still performed valiantly in a gunfight; and you even found out the real identity of that hot dog man. So you have my permission to investigate these matters on my behalf, and I'm sure you won't let me down."

I looked at the smile on his face and was irritated. Hmm, he was so happy to hear my request, he couldn't wait for me to leave soon, and not to be a hindrance here and cause trouble for him and Princess Alaska.

What a scumbag! Such an ingrate, he's fond of the new and tired of the old! I cursed him in my heart of hearts.

Theo started coughing, "My left ear is tickling, who is cursing me?" he said, feeling his ear.

I took a sharp intake of breath. Damn! He is a Lycan King!

I hastily replied, "Thank you, your Majesty, I will not let you down."

He nodded, "Be sure to do a good job! If you complete your task successfully, I will give reward you generously."

"If I finish the mission, will you promise to let me stay in the human world?" I didn't know where I found the courage to make a bargain with the King.

His face instantly assumed a gloomy look, and his pupils shrank into a golden line, causing me to shudder.

"Do you want to stay in the human world? Forever?" he asked me sternly.

I thought of the Valentine's Day we spent together in London not long ago, when he had asked me the same question. At that moment he had been so sweet, but now, he was like a completely different person and was tossing me aside as if nothing had ever happened between us.

I was completely enraged by his ruthlessness and yelled at him, "Yes, I can't stay here any longer! This place is full of falseness and betrayal. Do you think that just because I am lowly, humble and little that I am soulless and heartless? Do you think I can watch you with other women with a poker face? I have a soul and heart just like you! "

Having finished my outburst, I left Theo's office without a backward glance.

I walked out of the Palace and breathed a long sigh of relief. I could finally leave this place that was suffocating me, and I was now Gamma Aiden!

Since the hot dog man Peter was Zoe's relative, I decided to go to my old pack - Night-fall Pack, first to find clues, and of course, I had to seek revenge.