Entry 2

Dear Diary, I love her so so much, all i think about is her. Is that normal? If that isnt normal i would be an alien. I love her like how a kangaroo loves its joey. I love her like how a saddist loves pain, Like a casuistic sociopaths that loves death. I will give up everything for her. I know everything i say here sounds cliche but my constant affection for my 6 letters is inexpressible and not compatible with pen and paper. As i write this in tears, i am wishing that i am able to kill myself so as to show how much i would do for her. I love her like a insane lover yet i still get nervous around her as tho its love at first sight. I am very unsure about my feelings for. To my disappointment, she does not take me seriously, she has not fallen just the way i am falling for her every minute. I get jealous at every guy she mentions. I want her all to myself. I may be a kid, call me spoilt but i hate every guy she is friends with. She doesn't know how to be in a rs. She wants everything and me, while i only want her. She doesnt love me as much as me, i say this because she cares for me and others. I want to be her centre, her midpoint.I have spent 3 weeks without her. I feel like i am dehydrated. I am a poor man roaming dusty streets in search for rats to eat. I havent had the touch of her hand. I need her to be with me in my grasp. The barrier between us kills me for every second i breath. Today i got into a fight with her, She seems as if she doesnt want to text me. She waits for me to initiate conversations. I have prioritised her like anything in my life. She never takes any initiative. She hids things from me. She says she isnt close with me but traps me with her phrase "i love you". She says she loves me yet she does not love me. When i say i love her i mean that i would accept all the pain in the world if loving her was a crime. She is not obsessed and addicted to me as i am to her. She sees me as her love, i see her as my heart and my brain and everything i am. Maybe tomorrow everything will be better