Never enough

Shie told me that she will never ever find someone. If it is better than me or not.The reason why she chose me is that, she want me to be better for us. She's right and she's so lucky to have me. But for me, I was so wrong about her and I'm so unlucky loving someone who doesn't love me anymore. I'd never thought of this, I didn't expect that she could cheat on me. Im scared loosing of someone, who I valued so much more than anything in my life. This pain is swallowing me, I'm weakened, I'm tired, and I'm stressed up. Its like I want to kill something that's inside of me, torturing my feelings. I dont want this pain please help me out! Hear me out, like I always do for the others! Comfort me! Like I always do when I'm around with others!

Yanyan lie down to his bed crying,

"Love me back like I do!"

While looking at Shie's photos in his phone...

"Shie, Don't leave me" he whispered...

I begun to so emotional at all things that my eye sees. The picture frames, the hanging pics of Shie in the ceiling and gifts that I received from her.

I did nothing but to scream and cry, I am hurt and hopeless. I want to end the pain, but in my mind I want to win her love back in a way of courting her again.