Prologue

My family is really normal just like all the people. We do something that family usually do. In my family I have Dad, mom, brother, younger sister, grandpa, grandma, uncle and aunty.

We go out when when it's holiday and eat together at dinner. It's ordinary but..... but.. I think that the way they treat me is different from my siblings and cousins.

I don't know what's the difference but it feel like that. How they treated me and treated them is never the same. When I watch TV sometimes there showing some story about a kid who don't how to be grateful with his family.

Eventually the kid in that story gets into the bad way and died in second. So I thought that maybe I'm being to ungrateful to my family especially my parents.

So I don't said anything it was just like nothing happened from the start. I just going to hold it in my heart. I hold it, I hold it, I hold it deep in my heart and it's always hurt the most.

Until one day when I turn 13 I realized I can't see their face anymore. I thought it is just some illness but I can see everyone face except for my family.

I still didn't told them anything because I was too scared to get angered with. No matter how many times I said something to mom and dad their reaction is just like they said

"Because you are to spoiled! just give up because you are older sister!" is what my mom said every time my younger sister and I fight.

"You should study well. Why didn't you be like your older brother." is what my dad said to me whenever my exam results out. He always gentle but when it come to education he is really strict. There has a night my dad get angry with me because I get 54 in English when I am grade 4.

"Here some money for you three and for your brother give him more money." That's what my grandma always said I thought well because he is in grade 7 it was ordinary for him to get more money and pocket money.

"You are really good. As expected for my grandchildren." That's what he said to all of his grandchildren except for me. Grandpa use to serve this country as a soldier that's why he is strict. He always expect us to do better without regret.

When he gets to know that my self is really ordinary and thought that I just do thing and doesn't take it seriously so he ignored me whenever I come to their house.

When I was crying in their backyard my grandma come I thought he want to said that everything will be okay or it's okay to crying but what she was

"You should do better next time."

After that I never have a conversation with them anymore.

Prologue End