Chapter 54

"So don't you dare say I didn't want you until now. If you would have stayed, a day more. You would of had me on my knees begging you to forgive me. It was never about the way you looked Lily. Believe it or not I made a mistake, I was stupid because I was terrified. I was terrified knowing that I had to handle a whole pack in a year, at seventeen I was gonna lead a pack Lily. I don't know what I was thinking, maybe I thought it would stall it but I was scared, of course I wouldn't tell that to anyone. I'm the freaking alpha. It's a shitty excuse but it's what happened, I made a mistake. A mistake I'll remember for the rest of my life. But it was never about the way you looked"

I stood there flabbergasted. What was I supposed to say? Oh god this was too much information to get in one day. What does this mean? Ethan never cared, he never cared about the way I looked.

"I-I" I tried to make a sentence but couldn't