Chapter - 134 I have lost hope!

I feel like I am losing hope, I have lost all hope! The hope of living, the hope of happening anything good in my life, my life is hell, my life is ruined and I have done that, it's all my fault, yes it's my fault, if I had not had sex there then everything would be fine, if I had invited Ansfrid in my house for the sex instead of having sex in that old rusty place then he would not get caught in that accident and this motherfucker who is fingering me right now would not get able to capture those pictures of mine and would not be fingering me right now, instead of him it would be Ansfrid but I can do nothing now, my life is doomed, I have no other choice besides letting him do whatever he wants to do with me, and the thing he wants to do with me is rape me! He came near my face and stare at my eyes, I can see a very weird smile on the only visible part of his face that is his lips