Chapter 46

Jace:

I can't seem to focus on work today, after Scarlet's call yesterday I miss her so much more now than I realized before. Hearing her cry on the phone for me to be there shattered me in so many ways that honestly, I didn't even know was possible.

Lunch break comes and I still don't have the energy to focus on work let alone to eat my lunch, which one would think is a mindless act and something you shouldn't even have to think about. As I sit in my truck, I know that I should eat because it will give me just enough energy to finish my workday and go back home to fail to sleep again and miss my girl. I numbly just look out the windshield thinking about when we had our first kiss not too long after Cam and I had become friends, it was a complete accident, and I knew then at that moment that I would never find another girl that would mean so much to me.

I chuckle at the memory and others flood to my mind of the numerous girls that threw themselves at me in high school and I didn't even care to look their way because I was too busy and stuck on a girl, I knew all too well that I shouldn't have feelings for because she is my best friend's sister. I tried to date many of these girls to pass time and to try and make myself forget the intense feelings I felt for Scarlet, but nothing worked. She used to get so jealous that she would completely ignore me, but I could always feel her eyes burning holes into my back when she thought I wasn't paying attention. Nothing prepared me for the look of betrayal and the pain in her eyes when they came over to dinner and Sandra was still there. It broke me when she looked at Cam and me, and then she told Cam pointedly without looking at me that she forgot that she had plans with Stella and she left.

Then of course I remember the one boyfriend that she did have in high school, I have never in my life felt so damn jealous and it was really scary. I hated the guy so damn much and I didn't even know him, I don't know if she dated him to get back at me for Sandra but damn, I finally understood all of the emotions I ever seen in her eyes the moment she was with someone. Then when they had their 1-year anniversary I was sure that I had lost her to him, at that point I pretty much figured that I would never have a chance with her ever again. I mean that wouldn't have been a bad thing considering who she was and all. But then there was the fury, the blurry red blinding fury when she called me that night crying her eyes out...she wouldn't tell me what happened she just begged me to go get her and to not tell Cam.

Mindlessly I feel my hands ball into fists, and I feel my jaw clench at the memory. I remembered finding her crumbled on the ground in the ally outside of the restaurant he took her to for their anniversary, she had blood on her face, and she was holding her ribs her hair was matted and stuck to her face with a mixture of blood and tears. I damn near killed that mother fucker for what he did to her. Cam never did find out the truth behind what happened again probably a good thing, between what I did to him and what Cam would have done we both would have been left with a body and no viable alibi.

I hear my phone ringing and it pulls me out of my unpleasant memories reminding me that they are just that...memories. When I look at the caller ID to see who it is instantly I smile.

"Baby girl! I have missed you so much my love how are you feeling? I was going to call you, but I didn't want to wake you.?" My heart feels so full and I can feel butterflies in my stomach. 'How is it that after this many years of knowing each other and finally being together it still makes me feel the way it did when we first met?'

"Amor, they finally took my feeding tube out! I can finally eat food and drink what I want when I want...well mostly anyways." Her excitement is so contagious that I can't help but to feel so happy and relieved that she is finally doing better. With this good news I feel the tension melt away like butter.

"Oh, my love! That is such wonderful news! I wish that I could be there with you right now. We will have to celebrate with some famous bowls when I get back out there to you." I can't stop smiling, I am so damn happy and hopeful now. I am smiling so much that my cheeks hurt, 'Well at least now I have a damn big shot of energy to be able to finish this long ass day of work and be semi productive.'

"Mmmmmm that sounds so good! My doctor said that my MRI is looking much improved, she said that the spots on my brain from the first MRI are much much smaller. She said that she was not anticipating seeing this much improvement in such little time but that it is a very good thing. She said that she wants me to stay her a couple more days and she will do another MRI and that will determine if I will be cleared to go home! Baby I can home soon!!! Do you think that you may be able to be here for the next MRI? It would be amazing if you could be there, and I could be released the very same day."

Hearing her pleading with me to be there with her to find out the results of her final MRI makes me feel as though I am flying.

"Yes of course I will be there Baby girl I wouldn't miss that for the world. If my job can't accept that and give me the time off, then they will lose a worker. I love you so much my love, unfortunately I have to go back to work but I promise that I will call you once I get off of work." I feel sadness knowing that I have to let her go.

"Ok my love, have a good day at work I miss you and I love you. Bye bye."

After hearing her voice has given me just enough of a lift to get my job done and to keep my spirit up for, I know that she is finally gonna be able to come home soon and that she will be tucked safely against my chest and wrapped in my arms where I will be able to protect her from anything that comes her way.