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NATHANS POV.

Slowly I raise her hands from my head not wanting to be too personal of an issue, one single mistake and she'll pop her eyes open.

I don't want Tara seeing me sneak away, she'll probably have lots of questions to which I have no answer to, I had packed the little things I could last night before heading to bed with a very heavy heart.

what happens remains the same, I get the haunting feeling as something thugs at the pit of my belly. 

I turn on my feet headed for the door, having no idea on what to do about things and where I was headed.

A knock comes on my door, subtle but persistent, I roll my eyes hating this form of distraction as I pull it open 

"I knew something was wrong and this is it?" Lucas asks, looking overwhelmed as he dashes in.

"It's nothing, " I answer in between gritted teeth, hating the fact that I'm standing here in this mess with the least person I expected to see.

"Really? Is it?" Lucas asks once more and this time Tara sits up on the bed, he must have woken her amidst everything. 

"What do you care about anyways, you left her behind and went to have the most epic shag session with a waiter Lucas, on your date with your make believe girlfriend " I explain, stating the facts as I feel bitterness roll at the end of my tongue.

"oh please, all this drama all this attitude, bringing my girl into your bed all because of that"

"I am not your girl, I don't belong to you, at least not anyone" Tara answers curtly.

"Come out with me now?" Lucas orders.

"I'm guessing you know the truth about who you really are, so we are barking orders now?" I ask, staring back at him.

"What on earth are you talking about, see I'll be straight, I have a whole lot to say and it's either you answer me or I stay here and rant it all out before her and I promise not to hold back '' he explains, he moves away and I follow behind him.

"What were you thinking? you brought Tara into your room late at night and even had her sleep in your clothes? What the fuck is wrong with you?" he asks on getting to the manor.

"You are pissed about that? seriously? I really need to hit the road as soon as possible, I wanted a plain goodbye, not this cheap ass crap " I explained to him all at once.

"so I fucked a waiter what's the big deal?" he asks and I feel my face fall, I swallow hard as I listen to his words, he doesn't seem to have the least form of remorse and it eats me up to see him this way.

"The big deal is simple, we had plans but you blew me off and it was good that it was Tara you were spending time with, not until she came and told me you are gay, what on earth will you do if this gets out?" I ask almost immediately, 

"I don't know, I don't care, you've always been the held up one and don't blame me for doing anything I had done, it's not my fault your little miss Tara could not just stick her nose out of my damned business" he complains. 

I run my hands into my hair before tugging at them slightly.

"I know we had plans and I'm really sorry about that" 

"are you really?, it didn't take you so much of a time to cancel out on me," I say to him, trying hard to fill in my rage within myself. Anything goes off and I might explode.

"oh please don't be so stuck up on things like a little kid, I had no idea it would go down that bad and I was lovely enough to leave you a text, as for tara she ain't gonna say nothing to anyone, well be honest with each other and the basics remain I've gotten a little bored Nathan.

"oh, that's it now? That's the story you want to stick to?" I ask him, trying to hold myself back.

"That's no story, okay? It is nothing but the truth, when did we last have an actual hot and steamy sex it's just the typical boring rolling over. How many times have we been interrupted already this week? It's no fun being boring, I'm the typical wanting to have fun kind of person and I'll be damned if I get rid of that part of me because of you" he stops for a moment, doesn't say much rather leaves me stunned.

"Be honest with me, the thing between us, is it real?" I ask, sucking in my breath.

"What exactly do you want to do Nathan?, exactly what is your problem, you want to know the truth, then yes what we had was real, but a whole lot of things had changed buddy, I don't feel the urge to go and spend all my time with you anymore, we shared something real but my taste had changed slightly. 

Remember the day our friend yarin came over to visit, you were up busy with your father, or well should I say my father and damn did look ever so hot to me.

I felt my throbbing hard against my pants, the ache to be set free was too much, I tried resisting but the moment I showed my dick down his throat I realized I'd never made a better decision.

He sucked me dry as you've never done before, And when I rammed into him I swear I could feel my dick burst out with pleasure, you just don't do it for me anymore Nathan, and as for Tara I intend on doing away with her before, I have my plans with my eyes pressed on pretty Laura now remember "