11. the reason that we always use (Bom POV last part)

the warm song begin to playing as soon as we enter the caffe. we sit across to each other. we don't know how long we've sit at this caffe.

the hot coffe which i order had many smoke slowly getting cold, ice tea that she ordered begin melted.

"Bom-a " she finally talk

"yes"

"How are you?"

"hm, I'm fine" I drink my coffe

"It's been a while"

"yeah"

"Bom-a, I know what I've done to you is bad. I'm so sorry for all happened in the past"

"I already forgive you. it's over for me"

"but... it's still feel awkward, for us" she put her hand at her tea cup and make a round gesture while touch it.

chae rin looks more mature than last time I saw her. her hair becomes long, she also dress more feminine. I never regret my first love was her. even it's must ended bad.

"Let's go out" I ask her

"Uh?"

"don't take it wrong, let's walk outside. the weather is nice" I smile

we walking around campus park.

"so you studied here?"

"Yes, with Song and Hyun Jae. we take same major"

"oh"

"what about you?"

"I just visit some friends here. I take broadcast major in university X"

"that's good. I hope you make it until the end. let's fight until graduate"

"yeah"

I look at my watch

"Oh I've got to go. I have a class in 30 minutes. Goodbye "

I walking without looking at her

"Bom-a " she still standing there, squeeze her bag.

"Yes" I turn around

"do you have a girlfriend?"

"no"

"can we get back together?"

I walking close to her

"I'm sorry Chae rin, but I can't " I pat her head

she take my hand and hold it

"I'm truly sorry Bom-a, but at that time I just a silly young girl, and many things happens and ....."

suddenly Chae rin's voice gets fade, I know who Chae rin is, she is a type who always do anything to make everything she wants come to her.

I just smile

"Bom-a?"

"Chae rin-a at first I want us be a friends. but I think we can't be a friends"

"what?"

"Chae rin I know you not just in one night. people use young age and silly habit as a permission for doing something wrong. and I, know exactly what happened. Jun young told me everything "

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before break up with Chae rin after we meet at the mall, I meet Jun young

at the badminton school court

"Why you do it?" I smash the ball to Jun young

"what?" he failed catch the ball

"just say it honestly "

"You want the truth?. okay. the truth is your girlfriend is a bad girl. she lured me and said she didn't have a boyfriend. you know what she lied to both of us. she makes us like an idiot"

Jun young stand next to the net

I walk away from him.

"you shouldn't say bad things about others"

"You wanna run from reality?" Jun young say

I stop walking

"You wanna play a set?" I turn around and look at Jun Young

we play a set and I win, Jun young throws his racket and laying his body at the court

"I'll just asking once"

he looks at me

"are both of you had a relationship?"

he wake up and stand

"I said to you, but why you keep asking that stupid thing"

"Cause I know there's won't be a smoke without a fire. everything had a reason"

he just sight

"or should we play one set ? soif you lose you can answer me?"

Jun young grab Bom collar

"You arrogant attitude make me mad. so I want give you a lesson, that I, is way up from your level. your scholarship is paid by others students parents, including Hyun Jae, yet you act like you have high dignity and look down at me. Do I look easy to you?"

"if you way up than me, then why you did that dirty thing behind my back instead face me at a fair game"

Jun young lost his control and punch my face, it's hurt but I think I also lost control. I punch him too, I don't care if I lost my scholarship. I just get out every feeling that I save in my heart all this time. the face of my classmates show up, when they whispering to each other, when they look down at me, when they said I used Hyun Jae for my good sake.

when I want to punch him with all my power, someone grab my hand. it's Hyun Jae

"Stop, Bom-a. he doesn't deserve your punch. go clean yourself, Song already wait in the gate"

I walk away and get myself together, Hyun Jae right. but I know what exactly happened between them.

when I arrive at my club room, i look at the window. and I can see Hyun Jae and Jun young stand at the court. they're talking, but I don't know what.

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"so you already know?" Chae rin voices crack

"Yes, I just choose to believe and give you second chance. but it didn't work out as I wish"

"Bom-a, have you love me? at the time we were together?"

"Yes, I love you, I really care about you at that time"

Chae rin tears finally break, but I can't do anything. I can comfort her or cheer her. I don't want she get wrong signal from me. so I walk away. I feel at ease now. this time I'll move on. 100%. the wind so fresh and this university so beautiful. Bye my first love. or story ends here. let's not meet again. I love you back then, but I can't love you anymore.

whatever the reason, it's just a reason. people who Cheat always wrong, no matter what the reasons, cause it's hurt another person. people use age, condition, or others over their own mistake. the truth is we just afraid to admit it is our fault.