Chapter 6
Ryan Marya
"Suha, can you not call me a hundred times every day? I'm here for some work. How can I work when you keep on calling me all the time?" I yelled at her.
"Hundred times? I barely call you 5 times a day. I give you plenty of space. I guess you're misusing the space that I am giving you," she complained.
"What do you wanna say, Suha," I scream.
"I saw the pictures of you tagged with that woman," she screamed. With that tone of hers, she is definitely angry and fed up. I guess I'm out of luck now, but no, I'm not letting her go. I know that whatever shit I'm up to is unforgivable but what can I do? Sometimes I get tired of Suha. Not that she is to blame. It's not her, it's me. I can't stop myself when it comes to girls.
"That woman? That's my boss. Will you stop being childish?"
"No I won't, Ryan. You guys are in your casuals and she is literally falling over you."
"That's a freaking pose for Facebook. Don't tell me that you are believing it," I'm trying to sound as convincing as I can be.
"Do you think I'm a fool? A dumb bitch who'll believe all that you say," I can make out that she is trying her best to stand on her grounds.
"No, Suha. I think that you're intelligent enough to trust me. Come on, girl, we've been dating each other for a long time now," I said in the lowest tone of mine. "Don't do this to us. It hurts me to watch us break apart. You know I love you. I love you so much, babe."
She gave a sigh. That's when I know that she is done arguing with me and is almost convinced. If not, she's at least giving it a thought.
"Suha, talk to me," I said firmly. Though I'm lying and keeping things from her, I can't watch her so stressed. I feel guilty for what I am doing.
"Ok. Fine," she finally says. "I trust you. I'm sorry for whatever I said. I shouldn't have. I'm sorry". Mission accomplished.
"It's ok, baby. It really is. I'm always away from home. I can't give us some quality time. It's all my fault. I'm sorry," I say. Aren't I a genius? I never really thought she would fall for it or any other excuses I've recently made. I mean, we knew each other very well before we started dating. She knew the person I was before. Maybe some things you know but you really can't accept.
Sometimes I sit back and wonder what I am doing. People say I'm lucky to have Suha in my life. Even I agree with it. Maybe that's why I am not intending to leave her. I already have a perfect partner yet I'm into another affair. I can easily let go of her and date my boss but girls like Suha are the rare ones. Girls like her are the ones you take home to your parents.
I don't mind hoeing around with my boss as long as it gives me promotions. My heart reminds me that I'm cheating over the one I love but then my brain tells my heart to chill and convince it that it's being done for our future only.
After my placement, I think I'll be done with all this and focus on Suha but when I think more about it I realize that my greedy soul is so used to fucking around that it will be hard to walk away.