*groupchat opens*
Steph- hey guys
Theo- heyy
Grace- hey
Josh- what's up
Ryan- I feel like we shld meet
Grace- we all left on the wrong foot
Steph- how's tmrw
Bea- sounds good
Ryan- BEA
Grace-BEA
Bea- yeah?
Steph- where have u been
Bea- icl I had to be by myself for a bit
Ryan- r u and Josh still a thing
Bea- I don't wanna talk abt it
Steph- who's house tmrw
Bea- let's do Joshs
Josh- thanks for j offering my house to everyone
Bea- you're welcome
*close chat*
I lay next to Josh, feeling a wave of relief wash over me. I had missed him more than I could ever say - the warmth of his body next to mine, the sound of his voice as he told me stories, the way his eyes lit up when we talked about our future together. I had missed the way he made me feel - like I was the only person in the world who mattered.
All the doubts I had been having about our relationship were gone in that moment. I felt safe and secure, and I knew that he would always be there for me no matter what. I was so lucky to have found someone like him, and I hoped that he could make me feel the same way as he did before.
Still, I couldn't help but worry about the future. I knew that life was unpredictable, and I just wanted to savor this moment and remember it forever. I wanted to remember the feeling of his skin against mine, the smell of his hair, and the sound of his laughter. I wanted to remember what it was like to be in love, and to feel like I was the only one he cared about.
I closed my eyes and let the warmth of the moment wash over me. All I wanted was to be in Josh's arms forever, and I hoped that whatever happened in the future, we would always have this moment to look back on.
"Josh, I'm really nervous tomorrow,' I said as I paced the room.
"Do you think we can really pull this off and hide our relationship?"
Josh smiled and walked over to me. He put his hands on my shoulders and said, "Of course we can. We just have to act like we normally would around them. We don't have to do anything differently. We just have to keep our romantic feelings for each other to ourselves."
I sighed , "I guess you're right. But I'm still worried. What if they find out somehow? What if they notice something different about us?"
Josh smiled again and said, "We can get through this without anyone noticing, just try and keep your hands to yourself."
"Josh, stop. I guess you're right. I'm just so nervous about it."
Josh pulled me into a hug and said, "It'll be okay. We can do this. I promise."
I smiled and hugged him back. I knew he was right and that we could pull this off. We just had to be careful and keep our relationship a secret.
My phone started ringing and I looked at the screen, seeing Ryan's name flash across it. I took a deep breath before answering, not sure what to expect. "Hey Ryan," I said cautiously.
He laughed, "Hey Bea, how's it going?"
"It's okay," I said, not wanting to get into details.
"Man, I've been thinking about the good times we had together," he said. "It was always so much fun when we were hanging out."
Excuse me.
I smiled, remembering the times we had spent together. But then he asked, "So, are you still together with Josh?"
I didn't know how to answer. I didn't want to be too harsh, but I also didn't want to give him any insight to my current situation. So I decided to change the subject.
I have known Ryan for a long time, and I thought that we could be friends forever. But all that changed when he saw me -
He was shocked and I could see the fear in his eyes. I was scared of what he might think of me, and I wanted to run away and never return. But then I realised that I still need him as a friend, because he is the only one that can truly understand me.
We may not talk as much anymore, and things may be a little awkward between us, but I still want him in my life. I know that he cares about me, and that he understands what I'm going through. I don't want to lose him as a friend, but I know things will never be the same between us after what he saw.
I just hope that he will still be there for me, and that he will still be my friend regardless.