Bea’s Life
Bea's POV
My world as a black girl in a predominantly white school. Hmm let me think. I hate all the boys in my school Actually....let me tell the truth. So in my school there are cliques.
That sounds cliche..... but trust me there are cliques.
There are the boys that play chess in their free time.... The girls that read books (and not smut books ). The girls that think they're cool because they've had sex.
And of course the best clique. My friend group, the normal girls.
And then there's me.
Do I really fit in ? Does anyone really like me? Well listen to this. I've liked this boy for ages, has he noticed me.....OF COURSE NOT. I don't look like ANYONE he has ever dated!
He's dated the blondes, the brunettes, the short ones and the tall ones. Everyone... but the black girl. Everyone but me. He will make jokes with me online, like my instagram stories .He will text me on Snapchat.
He will do anything and everything. Except for acknowledge me in school. In real life. Maybe I can't do this anymore. Maybe I should be lesbian.
Maybe I should go back to black boys. Actually that didn't end well for me .
Ryan. That was my boyfriend. My ride or die. My BEST friend. The only person that cared for me. He told me everything on his mind, he spoke to me on the phone every night . He did everything a perfect boyfriend could and would do. Except for....
Well Ryan was the type of boy who... let's just say had a tendency to flirt with other girls. Would entertain other girls.... Would talk about other girls to my face, snap other girls.... And at one point he got with another girl.
What a DICK! Right?!
He played with my feelings. I wish I could cry about it but I know he's not the one for me. He apologised, I got over it but now I know we are better as friend. But the only boy I want, the only boy I need . He doesn't want me and he will never want me . Because of the colour of my skin. I think.... Because then what is the reason for ignoring me in school.
Anyways I have school tommorow and I do NOT. Need all of this stress.