Be my friend, for 3 months...

Have I lost my mind?

Am I the only one,

With suicidal thoughts?

We stayed silent for a while, none of us spoke a single word, only our loud breathings were heard, he was sitting beside me and I was just looking at the fountain in front.

I want to say something but my tongue is tied inside, it can't be moved, feels like I've lost the ability to speak, I was frozen in my spot. But the thing is, I feel better, I can't believe I let him see this side of me,

The man who saved me before.

Maybe it's a fate

Maybe it's just a coincidence

Why did he suddenly appear in my life?

Why am I even interested in knowing him?

"You know..." he breaks the silence between us. "I can be a friend if you want."

I looked at him, our eyes met, "I-I don't need a friend." I said, building some walls between us, this is for the betterment of us, we should stay as we are, strangers.

"Give me three months." He said, his words giving light in my eyes, why am I feeling some things that I shouldn't in the first place?

He looked so serious. "I know you only had 3 months to live." How did heㅡ "I'm Doctor Meyers, but you can call me Ethan, I didn't mean to eavedrop a while back but it's a coincidence that you are one of Doctor Smith's patients and I just transferred here yesterday."

I don't know what else to say. "...Give me 3 months to change your decision and live."

My eyes darkened. "You...why...why do you like to stick your nose into someone's life? And what? Change my decision and live? It's easy for you to say that because you are not in my situation." I just burst out in anger, I don't want people trying to change my decision, it was way harder for me to live knowing that someone was waiting and longing for me.

I want to shut people out. "Amelia." I stood up. "Thanks for everything, but I will not change my decision," I said.

He holds my hand. "Just think about it, I'll show you the real world." He said.

"What do you know about my life and how I see the world, isn't this the real world, for god sake, stop acting like you know everything about me just because you heard about my illness."

My chest started to tighten, "Real world? You are not Aladin and this is the real world we are facing not some kind of fantasies with happy endings, shining shimmering, or whatsoever, I think you are the one who needs help." I don't know what I am talking about, These words just find their way out of my lips even though I don't want them to go out, I guess doing this ever since to shut people out becomes a habit.

And Jacob was the only one, who I let enter my life. But, he decided to leave when it gets hard.