Chapter 77: For the ones i love...

For the ones i love...

I turned to the alarm clock only to find put that it was just 07:35am, time ran slowly like humanity begged for it. I heard a knock on my door then i walked lazily to unbolt it. I longed to see her face but at the moment I wasn't sure if wanted to talk or see her face.

  "Mom!" I called faintly then i turned away walking to the Reading table leaving the door ajar. She stood still for a few a seconds then she walked inside after closing the door behind her. She sat on the bed instead holding unto her black robe.

  "Kareem...." She began then i interrupted calmly

  "If its about Dad then i don't want to hear it. I don't want to talk about it." I concentrated on the books which i tried to rearrange.

  "Kareem! I understand that you are going alot right now but I'm still your mother, tell me anything I'd listen to you. That's why I'm here. I didn't like the way you comfronted your father...."

  "Mom...."

  "....He's still your father, Kareem! He watched you grow..."

  "That's not even a good excuse, Ma! Why did you let him treat you this way? You've always taught us how to own up but you did not. He stepped on you, Mama!" I tried to explain to her and also make her see reasons but she was on a different just when I thought i had company.

  "No Kareem, let me deal with this. I am your mother and his wife, I'll fix it better than you can imagine..." She insisted then i went towards her persuasively, I held her arms

  "Mama! Why not get a divorce?! I just hate the way he treats you, its not fair. Anyway, can i ask you a question?" I inquired sitting next to her while we stared at each other.

  "Ask anything!" Her eyes brightened immediately

  "Who's Hunter?" I asked her

She turned away like i triggered something very extensive.

  "Hunter?!" He said almost quivering while her eyes watered.

  "Grandma Carol's son. He was a renowed pilot and never partook in his Grandpa's political interest...." I stopped

  "You know it all then whst else do you want to know?" She beamed beautifully

  "It explains everything but not the relationship y'all had if you ever had one. Hmm?" I stopped waiting for her response.

  "Err...He was my fiancee when your father and i separated just few months after our wedding. We had a really bad time and we just had to split up. That's how....how we came about!" She sighed heavily. I nodded in agreement because it seemed true and virtually believe everything mother says.

  "What happened to Hunter?"

  "He died in a plane crash. That's...that's....." She stuttered as she swiftly cleaned her tears

  "Its ok if we don't talk about! I hate to see you cry!" I held her unto my arms 

  "No, its ok! I hate to talk about Hunter, he was not someone i could find anywhere. I saw him as an angel."

  "Where was Dad anyways? If he really loved you then he'd never leave you, right..." I scolded calmly

  "Kareem? Your father is the man of my dreams, the man I've always wished for and the best father you could ever ask for! All i ask from you is to respect your father and focus on graduating. Can you do that?" She asked. She coaxed.

  "Mama..." I called in slight distress

  "...Can you....do that?" She asked again

  "I'll try to. I'm sorry for dragging you into Darkie's mess."

I apologized to her because that was what i wanted to do for a long time.

  "For the 30th time. Quite a legend huh? It should be the last time."  She instructed me then she stood up to leave. I stopped her immediately.

  "Will you divorce him?!" I asked. I was quite sure thst she wouldn't listen to me but i tried regardless.

  "You can't detect my actions, not a word!" She said as she walked out instantly so that i wouldn't ask further questions.

I sank on the bed thinking about everything if i had been selfish or considerate enough. Surely i was not, my anger predicted my actions to coax mother into filing as divorce. Bella entered my room after a soft knock on the door

  "Kareem, Your parents and sister are waiting for you at the table. Its important you come down. They'd love to have you for breakfast." She explained

  "Well, I'm not hungry!" I turned away turning to my laptop, i had some research to make that i considered as necessary not some dine and wine kind of breakfast.

  "Kareem, your parents..." She insisted

  "...Belle please. I'm not having all these this morning. Tell them I'm not hungry." I turned to her "Please?" Then i turned away immediately.

  "Alright Kareem. I'll bring yours over, don't say no too." 

She left that moment then i realized that my door was unbolted so i did the necessary, locking myself up.

After quite a few minutes almost and hour, father came knocking on my door instead. I ignored him as always.

  "Kareem! Let me in please! Can we talk?" He kept knocking and banging on the door yet ignored. I heard mother come around to get her husband. She tried to calm him down while to punish him on behalf of myself and my mother.

For over five hours, i've been locked in my room. Anyone that came around left the way they came. Yeesha insisted to speak with me while i insisted on not letting her in. Finally, after she knocked severally i let her in for five minutes then she left. She only came in to hug me and that's it; it felt overwhelming and crazy to do at the same time. I turned the TV on to see something interesting after long hours of study. My eyes were mixed on the screen but my mind traveled away in confusion, i really did not want t get expelled even if i knew my parents could get me an entry to any school of my choice, this time i wanted something different. Power didn't have to take charge or have its way, i wanted my defense working out for me not some parental plea. A knock interrupted my silent thoughts again, my famiky wouldn't stop disturbing would they? I thought.

  "Not in the mood!" I screamed putting a little energy in it.

I heard Bella plead instead. She said someone wanted to see me, i suspected that person to be Jeff alone but then i remembered that we just had conversation through the phone about an hour ago. After minutes of keeping whoever outside the room then i unlocked it. Bella was right ther with a faint smile.

  "She's been waiting you for over 15 minutes of her arrival."

Bella said as she walked away while this dumb pretty came forth in a yellow striped sleeveless mini flare gown and a pair of white Adidas sneakers. Her hair was wrapped in a ponytail while a few strands fell over her face as her hands were holding tightly to her white purse.

I stood still not expecting this girl to come over, not even in my bedroom. My face couldn't keep up with a smile or a grin and i concluded that she understood the situation.

  "Pixie!"

  "Jordan!" She tried to keep a safe composure. "I uh...i thought of droping by, i don't know if its ok. I should've called first but i realized that you wouldn't agree to it and i needed to see you as soon as i could." She stopped

I walked inside instead and she followed judiciously then i motioned her to lock up the door, she did still judiciously.

She sat on the white couch staring and looking around the room. My rooms' decor was black and white while Yeesha's was Pitch and white. Good enough i had a bottle of wine that was halfway taken then i poured some into a glass hanfing it to her while i struggled to wear my shirt, i remembered that i was shirtless all through except for the grey sweat pants then i sat next to her with a tight smile.

  "I didn't expect you around here!" I began

  "That's why i came!" She kept smiling while looking around obeying the commands of her eyes wandering. "Your rooms' decor is really beautiful and of course too classy for a rude wealthy guy like you!" She teased or maybe taunted but i couldn't laugh or smile to it rather i gave a disapproving Look as she stopped smiling while i sipped from my glass of wine.

  "Why did you come? Knowing fully well that i wouldn't treat you any better! Did you think about that too?" I asked 

  "Er! I was concerned about you and i heard something that i couldn't keep to myself. But first, i did the exercises you requested." She took out a small book from her then handed it to me. I glanced through and gpd enough she aced it. I did not expect that from her anyway, i was excited that she worked harder than she had. I gave it back to her.

  "Very well! You did great." I complimented 

  "Jordan?" She called softly

  "What's wrong?" I asked

  "Are you going to be expelled?" She looked concerned

  "Apparently! I almost killed a Darkie and she was in bad state unknowingly to me all in the name of Dumb photos..." I explained

  "It look pretty and really affectionate." She said smiling instead

  "Seems like that but it was a stolen pose! We were in a really crazy conversation....this was the reason for a fight and now.....she's sick!" I sighed

  "Jordan! Are you really leaving? I mean...isn't there something you could do or maybe your parents.....i....just..."

She confessed looking disturbed

  "Look Pixie, I'm not looking for sympathy ok?! Im good you can see that!" I said defensively

  "You're good huh? You've been locked up for hours and that looks good to you?" She questioned like a therapist "Jordan, if you leave and sulk alone in pain and anger then I'm going to fail....Like do you even know what its going to do to me?..." Her eyes welled up as she blinked numerously trying to hide the tears that wouldn't listen to her command "I promised my mother that i was going to make her proud and graduate with the best result i ever gave and now you're leaving...I'm sorry but..." She stuttered cleaning her tears while i stood silent looking at her without an action to follow up. I was tingled by her words and affection towards and her confession but i couldn't work it out if the school doesn't often their decision. I stood up then i dragged a seat to sit in front of her then i held her knuckles and kissed them. First time in my life, i adored a girl for a few seconds.

  "Pixie! I did not wish for this. I'm only taking responsibilities for what I've done; its hard for me too and i really want to help you study but its not that easy as it looks. I'm tied up academically, physically and emotionally. You're getting it and also getting there.....Lamar is brainy so he could work it out, you got nothing to lose." I explained very calmly without being rude, i really did not know what came over me. She made me feel reasonable and quite responsible but Darkie and i talked based on our parents' achievements and ours. We got along better with profession than emotions.

We decided to lay on the bed instead then she curled up in my arms, they were at least broad enough to embrace her. Father's gym lessons during weekends helped alot.

She raised her head to look at me abruptly. She sat up folding her legs on the bed and asked

  "What's going on?" 

  "What do you mean!"

  "Why are you calm and inactive? What's going on with you?" She asked

  "I'm not in the mood!" I said simply, i sounded harshly

  "Ok. You're actually nicer than i thought." Sbe blurted out

  "Why!" I asked sounding uninterested.

  "You let me into your house, your room and even your lofty bed. Oh Jordan! This is luxury! C'mon!!!" She teased truthfully then i shrugged.

  "I can't see the difference. Everything seems old and normal." I said. I thought changing my rooms' decor about two month ago! And now she liked it. I sighed

  "Yeah. You wouldn't see it but i can...." She stopped and then continued "Why Darkie anyway?"

I turned to her finally keeping down my phone gently.

  "Because....i could get any girl i want at anytime any place" i shrugged and still boastful "Did you have to go out with lamar?"

  "Easy for you huh? He's been helpful, he gave me rides home, we eat out, he cares alot and i couldn't tell him no." She confessed. I stared at her almost lustfully at the moment

  "You decided to decieve my friend, right?" I asked as i cupped her face  to meet my gaze that she tried escape

  "I could....i couldn't break his heart...."

  "Do you like...." I tried to ask but she interrupted with a deep kiss that i never expected. I did not know that she felt what i felt, i wanted to taste her lips once more before she leaves my aboard. Pixie always had a way of taking all my breath away, i did not know how she evolved from the girl i hated right from the beginning of the year to the girl that

makes me feel comfortable and to be myself, she learnt to

tolerate my unruly behavior but i was scared of falling in love with her entirely but it didn't stop me from locking my lips against hers, it felt genuine.

The intensity to where it was driving at was no something i wanted to control but on the other hand i couldn't let it go out of hand for no reason in the name of being vulnerable, Pixie on the other hand was losing and still trying to control her emotions; then i figured sonehow that she felt something extreme, comparing both hers and mine on scale she would outrun mine at a stretch. Mother bumped In abruptly unknowingly to us. How could i not remember that she had spare keys to our first the same of emergency. Pixie and i froze In surprise.  We both hopped down from the bed gently while in the process i helped Pixie down not to stumble. It dawned on me that i was expected to freak out and Chase mother trying to explain to her the cause, whether genuinr or not. We both sighed heavily in unison prepared to explain to the queen mother herself. Mother gaze at us was fierce, confusing, unhappy yet trying to figure outvthe cause of our actions then she began finally.